Master Craftsman of the Elven World

Chapter 156 Mewtwo's Psychological Trauma

Clear Cliff, this place is full of Mewtwo's memories. A year and a half ago, Team Rocket somehow discovered their hiding place. They tried to control their power again and sent a large number of manpower and troops as if they were going to gamble everything.

However, with the help of several young boys and girls, as well as the strange trio, Team Rocket's plan was aborted again, and they erased their memories of this history.

Then, Mewtwo sent the "copied Pokémon" that lived here and followed it to every corner of the land.

Although they are replicas, they also have real life, so they embarked on a journey and chose the path of living freely.

Later, Mewtwo himself embarked on a journey, looking for the answer to life.

I have been to the caves in Cerulean City and left traces in the big city. I have traveled to many distant places, witnessed myths and legends, fought with powerful humans, and even encountered strange time and space caves. After experiencing so many things, now, I am back to Qingqing Cliff.

The space under the Clear Cliff is still as big as before, the Mirror Lake is sparkling, and moss covers the rock walls, but the Pokémon that once existed there are no longer here.

This is the feeling called loneliness.

Recalling what happened, Chaomeng felt confused, and regretful.
I didn't see "Sakaki" at that time.

If Sakaki was also in Team Rocket that attacked Clear Cliff, then he could erase his memory and make him no longer remember his existence.

During the journey, Mewtwo also found out why Sakaki did not appear at Clear Cliff.

Including Sakaki, the so-called Rocket Team cadres seemed to have been defeated by some young boys and girls. However, the Rocket Team's actions were only a shift from the surface to the dark side. Sakaki seemed to have been remotely controlling the operation of the Rocket Team, but he himself seemed to no longer be in the Rocket Team headquarters.

That guy, in pursuit of true strength, embarked on a journey again, and even left a message to Team Rocket:

"… Let me make this clear first. No matter how strong a person is, they can fail miserably. If you don't admit defeat, you can't move forward. In order to create a stronger organization, I will now set out alone. One day, I will revive Team Rocket."

When thinking of this, some strange feelings arose in Mewtwo's heart.

The man who regarded Pokémon as power and had no love at all actually had to start learning from scratch one day. When he was defeated by a young man, it seemed that his pride was shattered as well.

Mewtwo took out the Pokémon device. It learned to use this machine when traveling in human metropolises, and through a unique illusion, it forged an identity and gained the right to use the machine. It happened that human society is now in a period of rapid development. For Mewtwo, the Internet is really convenient as long as it masters its usage.

"Thank you for the props. The doll of the Rape Crown King is very effective."

Just holding this doll, it was as if he had forgotten all his worries and immersed himself in a peaceful atmosphere. The trauma in his heart was healed, and he even recalled some things that Mewtwo himself had never noticed.

It turns out that the world is so vivid?
I have experienced many things, embarked on a journey and returned to my "hometown", but there are still lingering shadows in my heart. Now, those shadows are dissipating, just like the winter snow meeting the warm sun of early spring, the ice and snow melt, turn into streams, and nourish vitality.

Flowers, trees, sky, breeze, clouds, sun, rainbow, ocean, forest, sand, earth. Experience, feel, think, and finally, return to peace, but gain enlightenment in the ordinary!
Chaomeng replied with the following sentence to @光痣 in the group, thought for a while, and then went to the store's purchase page and posted the same reply.

In human society, many shops will hire people to do this. After getting "good reviews" from customers, they can attract more customers, which is a virtuous circle for the shop's business.

Well, in order to express your support for someone, you can also buy a lot of their products. Of course, Mewtwo can know through foresight that the props produced by the workshop are genuine and powerful. Unfortunately, there are very few props with super-power attributes.

However, he did not need those props to increase his strength, because even if his strength was not the strongest in the world, it was among the best.

Strength is not everything, I realized this during my trip a year ago.

Now, I just want to pursue a place to live in peace, a corner of the world where no one can find me, just like the place where that craftsman lives.

Chaomeng unconsciously entered a meditative state.

When his mind was quiet, he recalled more things from the past, and there were some flashing fragments among them that made Mewtwo frown slightly.

A little girl, and some Pokémon.

Chaomeng felt something dripping down his face. He reached out to touch it in confusion and found that it was his own tears.

Do I have such a thing as tears?
What was that feeling just now? What were those memories? Those vague fragments. Have I ever experienced those things?

"Tears. When a living thing feels pain, tears will flow out. Only humans shed tears when they are sad."

A large number of strange memories emerged, memories of the most peaceful and innocent times in his heart, but Mewtwo himself felt very unfamiliar. A feeling of fatigue swept over him. Mewtwo hesitated and opened the private chat interface of Wako Moss:
"I want to modify the content I just posted. The doll of the Rape Crown King made me recall some abnormal memories. Is this normal? Those memories seem to be from shortly after I was born. Is that the psychological barrier hidden in the deepest part of my heart?"

After a while, Chaomeng received a reply:
[Can you tell me more specifically? Although I am not a psychologist, I must know the exact symptoms before I can counsel you. Although this is not my job, you are also my client.]

[Since it is my product that caused you to have such a problem, of course I will help you. ]

Mewtwo was silent. After thinking for a moment, it disguised its identity. It was an identity it often used in human society. It also slightly modified the memory it had just recalled and perfectly integrated it into the past of the "fake identity".

[I see. When you were young, you had a girl and three Pokémon as playmates, but you only recalled this memory after you got the Bud Crown doll. After your memory was restored, those Pokémon and the girl suddenly left without saying goodbye, right?]

Mewtwo: "That's right. And, I also remembered her name."

"Xiao Ai. Yes, she is Xiao Ai." Although the name in his memory is actually "Xiao Ai No. 2", Chaomeng recalled that he knew that the girl was not a real "human"! So the code name No. 2 cannot be said.

Who is she and what is she?
Why did I feel such an urge in my heart to see her again?
【.】

"what happened?"

[No, nothing. The psychological trauma of childhood is often covered up by reality, but it does not disappear. Instead, it takes root in the deepest part of the soul and becomes a hidden pain. Do you know that forgetting is actually a self-protection mechanism in the human heart and one of the important ways to maintain mental health. ]

[It is a psychological defense mechanism that helps us get out of negative emotions. After all, forgetting those unpleasant or even painful experiences can reduce our psychological pressure and help maintain emotional stability. ]

[Traumatic experiences can also cause us to have avoidance behaviors, that is, we will consciously avoid situations that may trigger traumatic memories. This avoidance behavior may be manifested as unwillingness to step into certain places, unwillingness to contact certain people, or even avoidance of participating in discussions related to certain topics. I remember you said in the group before that you don’t want to talk to other superpowers unless it’s necessary, right? This is also a form of avoidance. ]

[However, you are not simply avoiding people with super powers. If you say it is to avoid their "spying", it would make sense, but now it seems that you are avoiding "humans", or "strangers". ]

Mewtwo was silent.

A word of advice awakened the dreamer. After careful consideration, he found that it was true.

Although it has experienced many things, traveled to many places, and met more humans, even when using a disguised identity, Mewtwo will deliberately avoid noisy crowds and avoid too much contact with humans. This is not only because it is afraid of its own identity being exposed, but also because it really feels alienated from humans.

If we really ask it to name a human being that it recognizes, then it can only be the boy named Xiaozhi.

"So, the best way is to forget these memories again, right? But I can't suppress the urge to see her in my heart."

But I know that girl no longer exists, Mewtwo muttered to himself.

[Forgetting is of course the best psychological protection mechanism. As long as you let go of the past, you can face a new future. However, I think you should have understood the 'meaning of life', right? ]

Chaomeng suddenly became alert!
The meaning of life, who am I? These were the questions that Mewtwo used to talk about and ponder over and over again. But after meeting the boy named Satoshi, these questions were answered.

——"At least, this means that I am a creature that can survive on this planet."

However, after he erased the memories of a large number of Team Rocket members, the only people who still knew the questions he had thought about were the boys and girls who had helped him, and Sakaki!

"who are you?"

【what? 】

Seeing the manager's confused answer, Mewtwo was stunned for a moment, then patted his head.

It seems that I am overthinking it.

By the way, the store manager is a human with magical powers. Although he seems unable to predict the future, perhaps the "meaning of life" is actually a broad philosophical proposition, which is probably also often mentioned in psychology. I don't know much about psychology.

【.Although I don't know why you suddenly asked this question just now, it seems that my words have touched the deepest part of your heart. Well, I assume that you understand the meaning of life. In short, what I want to say is that once a person finds the meaning of life, he will not only feel happy, but also have the strong ability to cope with all kinds of hardships, and can still remain optimistic when facing huge pain, guilt and death.】

[There is only one kind of true heroism in the world, and that is to still love life after seeing the truth of life. This is what a human being said.]

In an instant, Mewtwo felt a beam of light shooting into his heart!

That was not caused by the ability of the Rape Crown King doll, but the power felt from the text. A powerful spirit seemed to be transmitted from the other side of the distant earth to his own will and profoundly affected him!

Yes, no matter what the past was like, since we are in the present, it means that the past is over.

However, after recognizing the truth of the reality, for some reason, I feel a little unwilling.

The girl's voice and the words she had said to him came back to him.

“It will be fun to live.”

Those were the words of the girl who called herself Xiao Ai No. 2.

[So, having said so much, I want to give you some props. I hope you will cheer up after using them. ]

[There are three ways to overcome childhood psychological trauma. The first is to forget it. Although escaping is shameful, it is useful. The second is to face it, step over it, and then defeat it.]

[And the third one, do you want to see her again? If you see her again, all the problems will be solved, right? Although I can't guarantee that this will work, I want to give you a gift. ]

Mewtwo's hands clenched, and its breathing even stopped slightly.

The legendary craftsman
Please. Help me!

(End of this chapter)