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Chapter 9 How the Heart Essence is Made (One more chapter today, please read on!!!)

9. How to Make a Heart (Newbies please read it!!!)

The most innocent and pure-minded person present was undoubtedly Shirou himself.

He really didn't know what special meaning his behavior had. He simply judged from his known knowledge that this was a "skill that was beneficial to both men and women."

"Maybe Miss Musashi is tired after the previous battle. She saved me and fought with all her might. If I can help her, I will definitely do it. It is my duty." - Shirou thought so simply.

Then take action.

Musashi's mood was the most complicated at this moment, because she was actually very clear about Shirou's thinking logic at this time.

So she was being self-conscious. She knew psychologically that it was not a good thing for her to deceive and fool the innocent boy. She wanted to avoid it psychologically, but her body was honestly "taking advantage".

Miss Musashi is a good person after all, so after she really "reluctantly" accepted the "welfare broadcast" from the little boy in front of her, she felt a strong sense of betrayal.
Especially, when I think about how I was just watching Shirou and Rin Toosaka being affectionate, and how I was thinking "good job" and "I've hit you" a few seconds ago, but now I'm the one who's involved and starting to get involved.
Although nothing really happened!
But after all, it happened in front of the person involved, Toosaka Rin!
The strong sense of guilt makes Miss Musashi feel doubly excited!
This is so sour!
"I'm sorry, Rin!" Musashi apologized in his heart, feeling both pain and happiness. This was probably what he was thinking.

Musashi was enjoying the refreshing feeling of having his sense of morality rubbed back and forth—

but.

It is worth mentioning that Shirou is not completely without any ulterior motives, he just doesn't have any such idea.

Although Shirou has no knowledge of sex, at this moment, he has become a 'mushroom man', relying on the 'pain left in his memory' to maintain basic activities. He subconsciously desires to 'understand the memories (emotions/hearts) of others'.

The most direct manifestation of this unconscious instinct is that his behavioral logic always tends to take actions that are "helpful in understanding other people's past."

There seems to be a "void" in my heart, and I am eager to get something from others to fill this desire.

If we were to ask who Shirou most wants to know at this moment, it would definitely be Miyamoto Musashi.

In fact, in a sense, for Shirou now, the word "world" is almost equivalent to "Miss Musashi".

[Shirou activates the skill 'Spiritual Summons']

[Because of the bonus effect, the two parties who cast the spell can let the emotions and memories of both parties flow, provided that the other party has no resistance - this is the so-called 'spiritual healing']

[The higher the degree of understanding of the target, the higher the success rate of Shirou's "three projections"]

[However, whether you can accurately read the other party's memory requires a successful 'Inspiration Test']

[Difficulty: 75]

[Musashi's 'Inspiration': 1D100=21]

Musashi didn't feel anything special at first.

Although emotions can be transmitted in both directions, Shirou at this moment can be said to be the representative of the traditional three-no's - literally "no mouth", "no heart" and "no expression".

As for memory,

For a moment, Musashi seemed to feel a picture flashing through his mind, but the strange aunt Musashi was so careless that she ignored it.

[Shirou's 'Inspiration': 1D100=87]

Shirou's inspiration came through.

However, although Shirou was no longer in danger, he still suffered from permanent sequelae and had not received any proper food supplements. The memories that suddenly flooded into his mind caused him to lose consciousness and faint again.

Musashi was stunned at the sight.

Toosaka Rin, who was originally dazed, reacted like a cat with its fur standing on end when she saw this scene. She rushed forward and knocked Musashi away, then protected the "boy whom she had saved at great cost" in her arms!
Toosaka Rin glared at Musashi with a questioning look in her eyes: "You unruly adult! So it's a Succubus or something like that!?"

Musashi's eyes were blank: "What is Sakubas?"

[Shirou enters the 'memory fantasy of Musashi (aged seven)']

Technically, Shirou was not unconscious.

His consciousness entered the illusion created by the memories of Musashi that he had just acquired, and he temporarily lost the ability to control his real body.

Fortunately, because he could see this 'narration' whose principle and origin were unknown, Shirou did not get stuck in the dilemma, but immediately understood what he was going through.

Because of his desire to understand everything about Miss Musashi, he began to carefully observe the situation around the illusion.

This is an ancient Japanese garden.

The setting sun is blood-red, and in Japan this time of year is called 'the devil's hour', which is disturbing.

The yard was shabby, and although there was a small pond, there were more weeds that were not trimmed.

Perhaps this is the residence of a person of some status?
But it is obvious that the status of the owner of the house is not high, or he has fallen on hard times and cannot afford to hire someone to take care of it.

By the pond, there was a woman who had half taken off her simple kimono, as if she was going to wash up. This scene was not very charming. On the one hand, Shirou had no such thoughts at all.

On the other hand, the woman was covered in wounds: bandages from old wounds, blood from old wounds that had not yet healed, and new wounds, staining the equally worn bandages a dirty black and red.

Shirou focused his attention on the woman's face.

Although her face was half-hidden by her haggardness, but even with the wound patch on her face, Shirou still recognized many shadows of Miss Musashi from her outline.

Obviously, this woman must be Miss Musashi's mother.

When Shirou made this judgment.

"Mother!"

A voice that Shirou was familiar with, but obviously much more childish, was heard, followed by a little girl carrying a wild boar who skillfully climbed over the wall and entered the courtyard.

The seven-year-old Musashi returned home happily, although she looked tired.

Musashi's clothes were obviously much more worn out than his mother's, and his body was covered with many scars and traces of dirt, obviously he had just returned from a victorious fight with prey outside.

Little Musashi's dirty face was filled with joy from the bottom of her heart. She came to her mother carrying the prey that she hadn't even had time to process, and wanted to say something to show off.

But all his words suddenly changed after he saw the obvious new wounds on his mother's body.

Little Musashi's expression suddenly became complicated, as if she was disgusted, but also seemed to contain some more complicated emotions. She looked at the wound on her mother's body with heartache and caution: "Could it be that father has--"

'Father'

This keyword stimulated little Musashi's mother at this time.

Something completely beyond Musashi's expectations happened, and even Shirou, who was watching the memory illusion, was unable to react.

"all because of you!"

Musashi's mother, who originally had a haggard face and looked like an unfortunate middle-aged woman devastated by the pressure of life, suddenly became hysterical and violent!
The woman turned around and grabbed the neck of her daughter who came closer to help her treat her wound. She pushed her down and pushed Musashi's head into the pool water!
At the same time, the scene in Shirou's eyes suddenly changed, from the original bystander perspective to Miss Musashi's first-person perspective.

What also flooded into Shirou's mind was the feelings of Musashi, who was only seven years old when he encountered this sudden change.

Confusion, pain, despair, and a strange sense of "relief", as if it was a good death to die like this.

What kind of childhood and family did she experience?
What kind of torture has the woman in front of me experienced?
The insane mother pinched her daughter's throat, and the words that came out of her mouth were more desperate and painful than Musashi's. The look in her eyes when she looked at Musashi was full of disgust and some turbid and complicated emotions.

"If it weren't for you! If I hadn't given birth to you.!"

"If I hadn't given birth to a monster like you!"

"If I could just give birth to another normal boy!"

“How did we end up like this?”

The hysterical woman could not even form a complete sentence.

The water in the pond at home was not deep. If the head was not pressed down, it would not be enough to drown.

Even the pair of blood relatives' hands that were pinching Musashi's neck were not very strong. Not to mention suffocating him, Musashi didn't even really feel much pain from it.

As long as Musashi wanted, he could break free from his restraints at any time and kick the crazy woman in front of him away.

It was clearly just an "attack" of this degree.

It's just 'venting anger' which can't even be considered an 'attack'.

Musashi felt the pressure on his neck was so heavy, the cold pool water was piercing the back of his head like a cone, and his lungs were filled with suffocating pain.

Shirou thought about it.

This memory fragment is probably the most unforgettable moment in the memory of seven-year-old Musashi.

Shirou seemed to sense it.

Musashi's heart died at that moment when he was still a seven-year-old child.

No, then what about this giggling adult Miss Musashi that Shirou knows now?

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