I am not Yuan Shu

Chapter 285: The Great Man Weightlifting Champion
Yuan Shu didn't quite understand Yuan Feng's feelings, so he walked behind Yuan Feng and started massaging his head.

"Father, isn't it pleasant to hold great power? Since ancient times, heroes all over the world have been eyeing this supreme position. You are in this position now, so what are you tired of?"

Upon hearing this, Yuan Feng laughed bitterly.

"That's because you haven't really taken power yet. You still have a lot of things that you can throw directly to your father and ask him to help you deal with them. What's more, your father is still a Han minister, not the emperor. There are too many things that need to be considered and weighed..."

"Isn't this what they call a hundred battles a day?"

Yuan Shu chuckled and said, "Han Feizi said that there are a hundred battles a day. For power, people are fighting every moment, and they are fighting for life and death every moment. Therefore, not everyone has the ability and qualifications to sit in that seemingly supreme position."

Yuan Feng closed his eyes slightly, feeling Yuan Shu's delicate technique.

"Shu, do you think your father is qualified?"

"Of course."

Yuan Shu whispered, "If not, how could father be sitting in this position to handle world affairs?"

"Is that so? But I, as a father, don't think I have that ability..."

Yuan Feng sighed, "These days, I often feel panic, fear, chills on my back, and regret. I miss the days when I was just a minister. Although there were eunuchs at that time, I was far from being as exhausted as I am now."

Yuan Shu was silent for a while, and his hands moved more gently.

After a while, he spoke slowly.

"Father, are you blaming me for pushing you to take that step forward?"

"That's not the case. After all, if I don't agree to this matter, you can't force me, right?"

Yuan Feng smiled softly and said, "But if you say that this matter has nothing to do with you, that is absolutely impossible. Even your third uncle is not as important as you. It can be said that it is for you that your father accepted this matter and has come this far.

Shu, you are so outstanding, you make your father so proud. In the entire Han Dynasty, everyone who knows you envies your father. Since you became a scripture teacher, everyone has been envious of your father, and everyone has been sighing that your father has a son like you.

When you arrived in Luoyang, it was even more so. You were able to study, debate, and establish a school of thought. You created a great reputation on your own, surpassing all the scholars in Luoyang. How many people in the world could do what you did? Not to mention that you can fight wars and govern the country.

You are so outstanding and capable. Others envy me so much and are so impressed that I can raise a child like you. That is why I am even more confused. I often wonder if I am worthy of a son like you. "

When Yuan Shu heard this, his movements suddenly stopped.

"Father, you..."

"Don't be surprised."

Yuan Feng opened his eyes and said slowly: "Anyone in the position of a father will have similar feelings. Since ancient times, people have said that a tiger father will have a dog son. However, if the son is more outstanding, but the father himself has no ability, it will also be laughed at, isn't it?
For example, Liu Taigong became the emperor because he had a son named Emperor Gaozu, but was he really respected or recognized as the emperor from the bottom of his heart? No, it was just because he had a son who became the emperor. Everything he had was given by Emperor Gaozu.

Some people would think that he is very lucky and very happy. I, as a father, also felt this way before. But the more time passes, the more I feel anxious. I don’t know how future generations will evaluate you and how they will evaluate you as a father. Will they think that you are not worthy of having such an excellent son like you…”

"Father! You think too much!"

Yuan Shu interrupted Yuan Feng and said seriously, "If I had not been born into the Yuan family, I would not have been able to reach this point at this age. You and mother raised me, which has made me extremely lucky. You have made a great contribution to my success today."

"You really think so?"

Yuan Feng's eyes lit up, and he reached out and held one of Yuan Shu's hands: "You really feel that you have made a great contribution to your father."

"Without you, where would I be?"

Yuan Shu smiled and said, "And I don't think Liu Taigong will be scared. He should be very happy. I remember that Emperor Gaozu spent a lot of money to build a new Fengcheng in order to make Liu Taigong happy. All the facilities are exactly the same as their hometown. He also moved all the people in the original city here to live with Liu Taigong. Liu Taigong was very happy about this."

"In that case, if you become something great in the future, will you treat your father like this?"

Yuan Feng turned his head and looked at Yuan Shu with burning eyes.

Yuan Shu nodded without hesitation.

"I am willing to support my father with all the world's resources to repay his kindness in raising me." After Yuan Shu said this, Yuan Feng felt that certain emotions that had been accumulating in his heart for a long time disappeared without a trace in the blink of an eye.

He didn't know whether Yuan Shu would really keep his word, but he was willing to believe that Yuan Shu would do what he said. He was willing to believe that if he could live to see that day, Yuan Shu would make him the happiest father in the world.

No, it should be said that he is already the happiest father in the world.

So Yuan Feng patted Yuan Shu's hand, turned his head to look at the table, and after a while, he picked up the pen again and wrote something on a scroll of bamboo slips. Then he put down the pen and handed the scroll to Yuan Shu.

"have a look."

Yuan Shu took the bamboo slips, unfolded them and saw that it was an order for the Shangshutai office to fully assist Yuan Shu in forming a new army. The order also allowed Yuan Shu to be fully responsible for a series of tasks from the formation to the command of the army, and allowed him to recruit soldiers.

Afterwards, this army will be handed over to Yuan Shu for command, and will become the foundation for him to go north to manage the northern border defense line and clear the northern border threats for the Han Dynasty.

"Father, this is great!"

Yuan Shu was very happy.

Yuan Feng also smiled slightly and nodded.

"You go and do the work first. The official imperial decree will be issued soon. By then, the existence of this army will be justified. In addition, your father will try his best to arrange the supply of money and food from the court. But if there is any shortage, you still have to consider it yourself.

Especially in Bingzhou, the mountains are high and the roads are long, so transportation is difficult. If there are only 30,000 people, the court can still provide for them, but if there are more than 30,000 people, you have to find a way to solve the problem of recruiting them yourself, understand?"

Yuan Shu's eyes lit up.

"Father, will you allow me to recruit more troops on my own?"

Yuan Feng chuckled.

"If you can afford it, then recruit them. They will be your trusted men in the future anyway. But if you can't afford it, don't do it. If you do, people will complain and I will have to deal with all these things for you. That will really tire me out."

After a pause, Yuan Feng patted Yuan Shu's hand again.

"Grow up as soon as possible. I may not be able to hold on for too long. I am very uncomfortable sitting in this position. It is difficult for me to feel happy. If you really have ideas and determination, then grow up and take over this burden from me as soon as possible. Then I can live a few more years and enjoy a few more years of family happiness..."

Yuan Feng's words did not sound fake at all. He seemed to really dislike this position. He did not feel happy with such great power, but felt deeply tired.

Yuan Shu understood.

People are different. Some people are born to hold power, born to abuse their power, and can feel extremely refreshed from the supreme position.

But some people can't.

The higher the status and the greater the power, the more anxious and cautious they become. Power brings them not joy but deep fear.

They have a sense of responsibility, but are limited by their abilities and psychological endurance, and feel that they are unable to strike a balance between power and responsibility.

They don't want to see the country suffer, they don't want to have the final say, they want to be a planner, a participant, rather than a leader.

His father may not really be a leader suitable to hold huge power, and his father would feel uneasy about this position.

Then Yuan Shu in turn held Yuan Feng's hand tightly and swore an oath to his father.

He hoped that his father could hold on for another five or six years. After he completed the task of consolidating the northern border, he would come back to relieve his father's worries. By then, Yuan Feng would just have to live a comfortable life and he would no longer need to worry about anything else. He could just enjoy himself and play with his grandchildren.

After coming out of the Secretariat, Yuan Shu felt that the burden on his shoulders was getting heavier invisibly. With every step he took, the burden became heavier. Perhaps it would not be long before the burden of the two capitals and thirteen provinces of the Han Dynasty would all be borne by him.

But unlike Yuan Feng, Yuan Shu could feel the anticipation, excitement and a hint of unbearable enthusiasm from the bottom of his heart.

He loves it all!
He is willing to accept such a challenge, even if it is dangerous and he might fail!
So his steps became more hurried.

(End of this chapter)