Literary Master 1983

Chapter 94: Don’t contact me anymore, I’m afraid Yu Qie will misunderstand

This letter is also from his fiancée. It has the same name as the novel written by Yu Che, but it is a letter written by a lover to her husband.

It expresses the determination to follow till death and to love forever.

When a female college student from the capital learned that her fiancé was seriously injured on the front line, she immediately took a train to the border field hospital and wrote this letter, which was widely circulated after being reported.

After this letter was publicized, many people felt that although the content of the letter was true, it was unlikely to happen in reality. Because the injured husband was a staff officer in Beijing and had a bright future. Although he was injured, his appearance was not affected. This kind of "hero" was naturally liked by people.

But Gong Xue felt that when the fiancée wrote the letter, it must have been out of love, but no one was willing to believe it.

There must be sincere feelings in the world, and there are also noble people - Yu Qie might be one of them, and no one understands him.

Previously, after Gong Xue finished filming "Under the Bridge", she was pursued fervently by the actor Zhang Tielin in the drama, but she did not agree.

The director asked her: "Gong Xue, you are not young anymore, don't be too demanding. What do you like?"

Gong Xue said she didn’t know.

Zhang Tielin also asked: "What kind of person do you like? I'm going to develop in that direction. I think I'm pretty good and I'm willing to change for you."

Gong Xue said: "I hope he has common interests with me, is generous, accepts that I have normal contact with other people as an actress, and is responsible like a man in life."

What is a "common hobby"? As we all know, Gong Xue is an artistic girl. In order to pursue Gong Xue, Zhang Tielin pretended to be an artistic youth, holding flowers every day, and reciting poems and novels... hoping to impress Gong Xue.

In fact, it didn't have any effect. Gong Xue didn't accept it and didn't feel any love, which is quite important for an artistic girl.

It was not until she met Yu Qie that Gong Xue suddenly realized: her love was without reason and was something more essential, rather than setting a condition for others to satisfy. She wanted to love a real hero, not an acting hero.

For example, when people read Yu Che’s stories, they didn’t read his stories just because he was a famous writer. Instead, they read his stories first and liked them sincerely, and that’s why they gave Yu Che the title of “writer”.

Gong Xue was the only one left in the room, along with Yu Qie, who was drunk and unconscious. Gong Xue suddenly thought that she could read the letter again.

Gong Xue has something to say to Yu Qie: Now that Yu Qie has a partner, what else is there to talk about?
I can only read the letter, use other people's love letters, and say my own words.

She had memorized the letter by heart, and her voice echoed throughout the room:

"I will always love you, my good husband. How could I leave you? As long as you are alive, no matter what you become, you are my hero!"

Gong Xue's gaze fell on Yu Qie, but Yu Qie of course ignored her.

She then pretended to be Yu Qie and started a conversation, saying sincerely: "How can I trust you? I have a physical disability, and others say that you will no longer like me..."

Here, Gong Xue paused, as if Yu Qie had woken up and was talking to her.

"——I wrote this letter," Gong Xue said, "to tell you not to lose heart, not to be afraid. Among the thousands of lights on the streets, there will always be someone who will leave a light on for you."

Finally, he said this sentence. This sentence was so shocking to Gong Xue.

Among thousands of lights, there will always be someone who will leave a light on for you!

She was originally from an intellectual and middle-class family in Shanghai. Her grandfather was a student who studied in Japan at the same time as Lu Xun. Her father was an artist, her mother was a government official, and she had a younger sister, Gong Ying, who was an actress and had just finished acting in "The Bao Family" last year.

Later, Gong Xue's family fell into trouble and her family background was not good. After graduating from junior high school, she had to apply to go to the countryside as an educated youth. Not long after, she broke her leg. Her family spent a lot of effort to get her back to Shanghai for treatment. The doctor told her that her bones had begun to proliferate. If she hadn't come back, she would have lost a leg forever.

So Gong Xue was very shocked. In this crucial experience in her life, nothing could be more appropriate than Yu Qie's words.

Family, friends, lovers...are all that light.

That's why she burst into tears when she was reciting with Yu Che - this was not only because of her superb acting skills, but also because she actually brought in her own life experiences.

Yu Qie is such a writer. What he wrote is not directed at anyone, but it makes people who see or hear it identify with it.

Gong Xue left a bar of chocolate beside Yu Qie's bed. If Yu Qie woke up and found it, she would say that it was for her comrade-in-arms Yu Qie.

She looked at Yu Qie carefully, her face flushed. Gong Xue went out to look at the corridor outside the room, it was empty, then turned back, planning to do something big.

The letter from the fiancée ended with the fiancée, who came from afar, kissing her husband on the cheek, and the disabled husband believed in his fiancée's feelings.

Yu Qie and Gong Xue had performed this scene many times before, but they deleted the last part every time. Of course, how could a performance be taken seriously?

And now, Gong Xue plans to perform this unfinished play thoroughly and leave behind a complete work. Whether it is the performer or the audience, she will be the one.

"Don't say anything more. Please believe me. What do you want me to do in exchange for you believing me?"

She asked herself questions and answered them, and then said, "Only in this way will you believe me."

Gong Xue's heart was pounding. She lay on the side of Yu Qie's bed, her heart was set, her eyes were closed, and she pursed her lips and gently touched Yu Qie's face...

In the end, I was too nervous and didn't touch her. Maybe it was my rationality that finally held her down.

Alas, I’m really not someone who can do big things!

Then, she stayed still for a while. Nothing happened, and Yu Qie didn't notice anything. She hoped that Yu Qie would wake up. She even began to envy the military wife who wrote the letter. At least this military wife ran from the capital to the south, and her husband responded to her.

But if Yu Qie woke up, Gong Xue wouldn't know how to face him.

At this time, there was a clear sound outside the room, and many people were about to come in. Yu Shuqing was heard shouting from a distance: "Sister Xue, we are all here to see Yu Qie, Sister Xue——"

"Hey!" Gong Xue responded and pulled her stool a little further away. There were some magazines on the bedside table. Gong Xue took a copy of "Military Literature and Art" and pretended to read the novel in it.

The people who came included leaders from the General Political Department, young people like Feng Gong and Zhu Shimao... Everyone asked, "How is Yu Qie?"

Gong Xue blurted out: "Nothing, I was just very drunk and fell asleep."

"Yu Qie is a writer who is loved by the front line. If he gets injured, it will be bad news for us and will affect the mood of the soldiers. You must keep a good eye on him!"

"It's best to keep an eye on him. In case he vomits in the middle of the night and blocks his throat, or trips on the toilet and injures the back of his head... that's unacceptable."

Zhu Shimao joked, "Comrade Gong Xue is very observant and has been watching Yu Qie the whole time - her Military Literature and Art is all upside down!"

The whole room burst into laughter. Gong Xue was so embarrassed that she covered her face with a magazine and fidgeted: "I was really reading a novel just now!"

"Whether you are reading a novel or reading a person, only you know."

The leader said, "It's normal for a beauty to love a hero. Yu Qie is a true hero. After this incident... many people sent love letters to the front line to express their love to the soldiers. Just imagine how many people like Yu the writer... He will never have to pick up a gun again."

"There's a photo of Yu Che in the Rat Hole Restaurant in the Military Newspaper. He looks very handsome!"

"And the promotional photo shot by Sichuan Provincial TV Station is so beautiful. Yu Qie represents the soldiers and the actress represents the women in the mainland. It gives people a lot of imagination... It was you two who took it."

When Feng Gong heard these words, he smiled at Gong Xue.

That night, Feng Gong came to see Gong Xue: "Gong Xue, Gong Xue?"

"What's wrong?" "This is a love letter written by Yu Qie, take a look."

"Written to his partner?"

Feng Gong shook his head: "No, it's for my girlfriend."

Gong Xue was stunned: What kind of relationship is this?
Feng Gong explained: "I was almost shot to death by sharpshooters when I came to the performance. They were staring at me the whole time... Later, I heard intelligence captured by the front line after they occupied the hilltop, saying that because of the suit I was wearing in the jeep, they thought I was a military observer sent by Japan. After consulting their leaders, they didn't shoot me in the end."

"I almost died!" Feng Gong still has lingering fears when he thinks about it. "The night before I went to Laoshan, I wrote a love letter to my wife. Yu Qie said it was not well written and revised it for me. Now that I am alive, of course I don't need this love letter..."

"I know you like reading Yu Qie's novels, so I'll give them to you to read. Otherwise, you can just take them away."

I only saw that the letter read:

[My love for you is not love at first sight, but rather it seems like a long-awaited reunion after many changes in the world.

I hope that when I am old, I can live on a small farm, with horses and dogs, hawks and camellias. I hope that old friends can live together, read books, grow flowers, brew wine and drink Pu'er tea.

Most people are not prepared when they meet each other, so they often miss each other regretfully.

May your dreams be your horse, and happiness be yours everywhere. I will be with you. 】

Feng Gong said: "This letter is incoherent and I can't understand what it says, but Yu Qie said that women would like these words, so I gave it to you."

Gong Xue's hands were shaking as she held the letter: It was that kind of words again, the kind that seemed to be the same as if they were not said, but seemed to have some beauty.

She asked Feng Gong: "Is this a work by Yu Qiexin? His small collection of poems, something like Bing Xin's "Stars"? "

Feng Gong said: "No, he said he just wrote it casually. I forgot what his name was. What was his name? 'Da Bing'? But in our literary world, where is there a person named Da Bing? He was too low-key and didn't want to publish it."

Gong Xue said excitedly: "This must have been written by him. He is the only one who likes to write these words."

"Then do you want this letter? I definitely don't need it." Feng Gong said.

"Isn't this what Yu Qie gave you?"

"Comrade Gong Xue, just tell me whether you want it or not!"

"Of course I want it, but don't tell Yu Qie!"

Isn't this deception?

Feng Gong said: "I know nothing and I did nothing."

Gong Xue put the letter in her arms and went all the way back to Shanghai, reading it over and over again.

If something can become popular, no matter what its literary value is, it must have popular value. Gong Xue showed the words in the letter to her sister Gong Ying. They were both educated but not very well, and they thought this kind of thing was great when they saw it.

"Sister!" Gong Ying said excitedly, "I want to copy down all my brother-in-law's sentences and show them to others!"

"He can't be your brother-in-law." Gong Xue said.

"He hasn't been recognized yet? Sister, I never say anything bad about you, but your standards are a little too high - this is Yu Qie, many of us girls saw the photo and felt that we liked him."

"It's not that I have high standards, it's that Yu Qie already has a partner!"

"who?"

“I don’t know, but he was very young.”

"Good sister!" Gong Ying's eyes sparkled: "I'm younger than you...why don't you let me have him? I'll approach him for you, chase him first and then give him to you. After all, we're both members of the Gong family..."

"you shut up!"

Zhang Tielin asked her to go hiking. Gong Xue went, but did not go up the mountain. Instead, she asked Zhang Tielin to go home at the door of her house.

This turned out to be a complete farewell.

"What happened? What made you lose faith in men? Gong Xue, I am a loyal man. I am not an ordinary person..." Zhang Tielin thought that Gong Xue was frightened at the front line and no longer liked men.

"I already have someone else in my heart."

"Who is it? Who do you like?"

"I can't tell you. It's not a good thing for him."

Zhang Tielin listed his own strengths: "I am gentle to people, I like literature, I know a lot of things, I am quite knowledgeable, I also plan to study abroad, my cultural level is also relatively high..."

Then Zhang Tielin realized that every time he said something, Gong Xue's expression became more fascinated, but that expression was definitely not for him to see. Am I not better than her in everything?
Zhang Tielin was very anxious. He wanted to pull Gong Xue's hand, but was slapped back.

I just touched your hand, but he touched your heart... Zhang Tielin was about to collapse. What on earth happened?
Gong Xue said, "Don't come to see me again in the future. I'm afraid he will misunderstand me."

Although it was May, Zhang Tielin felt like it was snowing in Shanghai. He kept shouting "no", "no", "no" in his heart and left in disappointment.

After sending Zhang Tielin away, Gong Xue compared what Yu Qie had written in the past with what was in his letter and found a huge difference.

No wonder Yu Qie was reluctant to say that he was the one who wrote it.

However, for Gong Xue, these philosophical words in the letter are indeed what she likes more. It would be a pity not to let other people know.

She called her sister Gong Ying.

"In the future, we can copy down all the things Yu Qie said, write them into a handwritten book and exchange them. There will be many girls in the Shanghai Film Studio who will like them."

Her sister said: "Whose name should we use to publish? Yu Qie certainly doesn't want this kind of fame, and he certainly doesn't think these are 'works'."

"When we went to the frontline to express our condolences, not only were the soldiers not only children, I asked and found that many of us who came to express our condolences were not only children either. Yu Qie had a sister named Yu Xian."

"Then let's talk about cosine? No one knows that cosine is related to cotangent, except cotangent itself."

"Yes, now that you mention it, these words really sound like they were written by a woman... No one else knows that Yu Xian is his sister, so who would know?"

Gong Ying said, "Sister, you really thought far ahead. You made sure his words were not wasted - just like the seventy-two disciples who recorded Confucius's sayings, letting others know what great things Confucius said... You also took Yu Qie's personal wishes into consideration."

Gong Xue didn't want to be thought of as such a scheming person: "I just love literature. I simply like his works. Also, I love my sister the most."

Gong Ying joked, "Then should Yu Qie and I date?"

"Shut up!"

(End of this chapter)