Diary of the Improper Monster Girl Transformation.

Chapter 122: Remarks on the release [There will always be someone who loves you! ] (12k words)
(Friendly reminder, this post is as long as 12234 words! Hi!)

At the beginning, please let me first express my sincere gratitude to all the big guys who gave me chapters and life-saving help! My benefactors! My good friends!

You can leave more comments to see which big guy everyone got it from~
"Hotel Transylvania" Yuan Tong

(Praise God! Yes, my family, I survived again, for the third time! And I live better each time!)

Count Constantine in Arc of Fire

"The Destiny of the Gods"

The Shepherd's Secret Sutra: No Prayer for the Ten Strings

My Arms Infinite Evolution - Pen, Ink, Paper and Keyboard

My citizenship is at risk Pudding is super cute
From the End of the World - Book-Eating Monster
"Du Lin's Diary" Half Step to Purgatory

Is It Okay to Have Only Monsters? - Ko Shingen
"Unrealistic Prevention Manual" Three-person Tower
"Traveling Through Time, and Being Blocked by a Rich Family JK"
"It's the Cyber ​​Age, Are You Still Playing Traditional Villains?" Nano Yo-Yo
"The Brave Player Who Started from Touching Corpses"
"Return to the Tang Dynasty to Be a Warrior" by Empress Wei
"Pope, Please, Take the Throne" is generally cute Caesar

"A Dream of Red Mansions: Picking Up a Lin Daiyu" likes to drink soy milk
Special thanks to "Swordsman in Shu", the author of "Three Kingdoms: I, Ma Su, Only Want to Die", for helping me get recommendations for the chapters by three other history authors!

(There is no particular order of ranking, they are all great people who make me grateful - I'd like to give you some compliments!)

(Boom boom boom!!!)

Thank you~Love you~
Love, from Xiaoba!!!

By the way, I'd like to offer a sacrifice to Hao Houmi, the new author (emphasis added) "日万失败" whose book "This Assassin is Honest and Honest" has been number one on the new book list for several days. He is so strong, he must be able to withstand the sacrifice!
In addition, I would like to express my special thanks to the leader poorsen, readers 20210421132113142591416, Fenglin_Late Autumn, and Yuanxingmu, who have rewarded me with real money, as well as the many big brothers who have generously rewarded me, voted for me, and kept following my reading.

Grateful!

Finally, at the strong request of the operations officer, I would like to express my special thanks to the operations officer for his hard work.

Listen to me, thank you~
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Some people say that online writers are like a bus that runs all day long.

Every day people get on and off the bus.

People come and go, in and out...

But most of them are buses.

And I'm just a poor little bus.

It's just a minibus with extremely complex components, a fondness for old and clichéd jokes, and a love of sticking things everywhere.

You may worry that other authors will cut their books because their new books perform poorly, but you don't have to worry about me cutting my books.

Because we are different! (shock)
In the three and a half years of writing books, I have never had any of my books cut off from subscription sites. No matter how bad the results were, I always insisted on finishing the book.

Because the story has begun, it should have an ending, whether it is good or bad.

Not to mention that readers who subscribe to the site have spent real money and should not be let down.

And most importantly, I have never written a book of my current stature.

I won’t cut it!

I can persist in writing 2 million words with an average subscription of 1,000. If I can produce a masterpiece...

Wow!
Why can't I write longer and longer than before...

Unlike those great authors who have been famous for many years and have already achieved success.

They have their own ideas and pursuits, and perhaps because of their pursuit and persistence in art, they may feel that their grades are too low and cut the book - but I am different.

I appreciate the results that they don’t appreciate!

I like it ahhhhh!
It is easiest for a small author like me who is inexperienced and short of money to handle this.

I'll teach you how to do it.

As long as you use subscriptions, rewards, monthly tickets and other tempting things to PUA me, whip me, whip me, and scourge me, I will happily sit there and bury my head in writing.

I never get tired of it and enjoy it.

My family members, look at me, look at me!
I'm super active!

I dare say you rarely see a living author as active as me!

I always just stick to others and never go online.

At most, I will just grab your first floor and add some silly pictures or something. (If you post a lot, I won't compete with you, so it's best to add more pictures.)
After I finished asking for follow-up reading for that single chapter, I was deeply touched and flattered by the enthusiasm everyone showed me.

A new book has received more than a hundred monthly votes. I never dared to think about this before because it was too unrealistic.

After the excitement, I felt an extremely strong sense of unworthiness. I felt a little insecure and thought I was unworthy of so much encouragement. I was overwhelmed by anxiety and lived in a state of panic all day long.

I was walking on thin ice the whole day, and I didn't dare to give up or post spam. I was nervous even when I updated 6,000 words, for fear that the plot would progress too slowly and people would become bored and stop reading.

After a few days of relief, when I had almost given up, I unexpectedly got the recommendation from Sanjiang, and the situation got slightly better.

Although I still don’t feel that I deserve everyone’s love, I also understand that everyone will support me only if they are willing to believe in me.

You must be smarter than me. You must have your reasons for doing this.

So - maybe, I'm okay?
Well, no matter whether I can do it or not, I decided to believe in everyone and in myself.

Try Harder!
I will try my best to do the job well but not mess it up, not give up, not eunuch, and not have a bad ending - I sign this agreement!
From now on, even if I need to take a leave, I will not stop updating. Instead, I will only update 4,000 words or more as an excuse for leave.

I will try my best not to make the characters' stories too pale, to the best of my ability.

There is no need to use misunderstandings to write about hatred, no need to use sex to write about love, and no need to use any disgusting plots. I will never do that!

My abilities may not be sufficient, but at least my attitude will be very positive.

Anyway, I will definitely correct any mistakes. Thank you for correcting me. I have corrected all the things you said that make sense. Thank you!!!

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Next, the key point is about the rules for adding more content to the shelves:

1.【First order plus update】

The first order is very important for this book. It has a great impact on the editor's evaluation and subsequent recommendations. It is very important, really important!
So, for every 100 subscriptions, one more update will be added.

500首订就加5更，1000首订就加10更，2000就加20更，以此类推……

It may seem exaggerated, but in fact, it is foreseeable that the first order will not be that many. I will be very grateful if you can let me owe you a dozen chapters. I can still bear it.

Of course, I think the more the better.

It would be best if there are so many that I can’t keep up with the updates and can only pay them back slowly, that would be the best.

But this does not depend on me, but on your strength.

If you have the guts, tire me to death!
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2. [Rewards for more updates]

It’s better to increase the update rate when it is put on the shelves than before. The leader will temporarily increase the update rate from 3 to 4.

Silver Alliance...if it really exists, I will add 14 chapters!
In addition, the five alliance leaders who have given rewards before are also included, and 5 more chapters will be added!
One more thing. From the time the book is put on the shelves until the end of the year, scattered rewards will accumulate, and 4 more chapters will be added for every reward beyond the leader.

This offer ends on December 12st of this year, after which the leader will continue to receive 31 additional chapters.

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3.【Monthly ticket plus update】

Normally, one chapter is added for every 200 monthly tickets, and 10 chapters have been added so far this month.

上架之后新增一个额外的，2000月票后改为100月票加1更，5000后改为50月票加1更。

(ps: This is the most naive decision I have ever made. I received 9184 monthly tickets in the month of listing... a total of 123 more chapters were added. I am coughing up blood!)
This offer also expires on December 12st.

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4. [New Book Monthly Ticket Ranking]

I didn't dare to think about this at first, but so many people voted in the past few days, which gave me some confidence.

If you can get into the top 20, you will get 5 more chapters.

If you can get into the top 10, you will get 10 more chapters.

If you can get into the top 5, you will get 20 more chapters.

No. 3, plus 30 more chapters.

No. 2, plus 40 more chapters.

No. 1, plus 50 more chapters.

Having said that, after taking a look at the big guys in front of me, I think I should stop thinking too much...

But write it down first anyway.

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5.【Monthly Ticket Ranking】

If you can get into the top 100, you will get 10 more chapters.

If you can get into the top 50, you will get 20 more chapters.

Above that are monsters among monsters. You can’t defeat them even if you try your best, so don’t even think about it.

Anyway, if I really have it, I will definitely add more.

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6.【Even subscription plus update】

For every 100 increase in the average subscription, one more chapter will be added, and the calculation will start from 1.

2000 chapters will be added for every 20 chapters, and if it can be a high-quality work, it is equivalent to 30 chapters.

To sum up, we can make a rough analogy:
If there can be 1500 first orders, and the average order can reach 2000 by the end of the month, the monthly votes will reach 2800, and two alliance leaders will be rewarded, plus the 5 update each from the previous 1 alliance leaders, the new book will be in the top 10 of the monthly ticket rankings.

The total additions are:
15+20+18+8+5+10=76更

It seems like too much to pay off in this lifetime, but it is not.

I plan to update 6000 words basicly + 4000 words extra after the release, and 10000 words daily.

With only 76 chapters, I can only write 38 chapters a day for days at most, which is just over five weeks.

But err!

……

Describing it this way, it seems like I am working very hard - and I am definitely working very hard.

Most of my old readers know the pressure I’m under.

I don’t have any material desires, I don’t want to buy a house or a car, and I’m not in a relationship now, but my family needs me to support it.

In order to earn more money some time ago, I chose the most desperate way - opening two accounts at the same time.

And they are two different sites, two completely different western fantasy books with completely different ideas, it's so funny.

Then at the beginning of this month, after this book showed improvement, I finally made up my mind to temporarily put that book on hold and increase the basic word count for updates to 6,000 words.

In October, I wrote two books at the same time, one with 15 words and the other with 12 words, totaling 27 words, with more than words updated every day.

Looking back, wow——

That's simply not a life for a human being.

If I had not started two new books and only written this one, I would have 120,000 words in my manuscripts now! What a wonderful life that would be—

Unfortunately, there is no "if" in life, we can only move forward.

Are you under a lot of pressure?
Very big.

Accept your fate?
I don’t recognize it.

Hard work may not always bring satisfactory rewards, but without hard work you will never get any rewards.

As for my life, love and everything else, just let it be.

When all is said and done.

When I no longer have to suffer and be confused about making a living, someone will naturally come to love me.

Once upon a time, I was in a relationship, working and studying, and writing and updating at the same time.

But now, the six-year relationship is over, I have graduated from school, and I have quit my overseas job.

The money I earned from living in Africa for two years was used to fill the holes left by my family. I have paid off forty or fifty of them, and only the last dozen or so are left, which is almost the entire amount.

Ah... If I had known that it would be so difficult to work full-time, I would not have quit my job early and returned home.

Anyway, it seems that there is nothing left in my life now except being able to write and leave some stories.

Just typing.

Then just bury your head in writing.

Create a story, leave something memorable.

There’s no need to worry about me breaking down and the book dying, I’m not going to let that happen.

I don't have any other advantages, but I keep my promises.

The main idea is to exchange sincerity for sincerity!

It is no exaggeration to say that I have a strong ability to withstand pressure!
(akimbo)
————[The following is a 6300-word account of Xiaoba’s -year life story. It’s a little bleak, but still exciting? Anyway, there’s sadness at the beginning. If you don’t want to read it, you can just scroll to the next dividing line! ]————

When I was four years old, my father died of leukemia, and my mother and I became dependent on each other.

I actually don't have many memories of my father. More than 20 years have passed, and the only two things I remember are the last time I saw him and him coming downstairs on crutches to take me to buy ice cream.

Also, he did not arrange his affairs after his death properly. He did not let down other outsiders, but only let down my mother and me. He was an irresponsible father and husband.

(Okay, I admit that in my previous novels, the male protagonist often killed the "father" character with his own hands. This was indeed influenced by some reality.)
When my father passed away, the treatment for leukemia had used up all of the family savings, and we were penniless except for having no debts.

Later, my mother felt that she couldn’t raise me alone, so she found a partner, wanting to give me a childhood with a father.

Then, before I was six years old, my grandfather kicked us out of the house for this reason, and my mother never looked back even though she fell to the ground and cried bitterly. I only found out about this when I grew up. My mother never mentioned it when I was a child. She didn't want me to resent my grandfather when I was young.

By the way, when my father was ill, my grandfather asked him to secretly sell his house of over 100 square meters near the train station to pay off his debts, but later he refused to admit it, and neither the money nor the house was returned.

My grandfather once said that he would leave the old little house he lived in to me, but later he left it to my step-grandmother who moved into the house less than a hundred days after my grandmother passed away.

That step-grandmother didn't let me visit my grandfather and threw away all the photos of my father.

When my grandfather passed away a few years ago, she told relatives who didn't know the truth that I was unfilial and that we deliberately avoided visiting my grandfather, which made her sound unforgivable.

She later moved to a new house and we couldn't get in touch with her since then, or rather, she didn't dare to show up in front of us.

Continuing with the previous topic, later on, my mother and I had no place to live and had to start renting a house.

My mother and her partner also separated after I graduated from junior high school - in fact, I didn't need his presence, but that's a story for later.

From the age of four to seventeen, everything was relatively peaceful. I never suffered any grievances in life, and my mother did her best to give me a life no different from that of my peers.

I am considered to be quite thrifty. I am a homebody who doesn’t like to go out and never take tutoring classes.

Oh, apart from my allergic asthma + allergic rhinitis + a bunch of messy allergens, which cause me to be weak and sick all year round, everything else is fine.

(Mold++++, dust mites++++, house dust mites++++, weeds++, peaches++, pollen+, peanuts+, wheat flour+, corn flour+, halibut+, animal skin+, red pepper+, grasses/cereals+, hay dust+… I am allergic to all of these, and there are some other allergens that I can’t remember.)
My academic performance was pretty good. My grades peaked in my first year of high school. At that time, there was no division between arts and science classes, and I ranked seventh in the entire grade.

There weren't many students in our school, only about 300 per grade, and I got some scholarships and certificates. (I think there were scholarships, I don't remember exactly, but there were definitely certificates.)
(By the way, my high school was a general high school when I was in school, but now it has evolved into a key high school. Well, I can also call myself a graduate of a key high school.)
At that time, I also held a small position as deputy director of the Organization Department of the Student Union, and participated in organizing school activities whenever I could.

It was also the first time I had a girlfriend - although she cheated on me in less than eight months and we broke up.

Life was relatively happy at that time until I found out the real situation at home in my second year of high school - my mother was about to collapse because of money problems.

Simply put, when my mother was living with her later partner, her credit card was stolen and used to pay for the project.

After they broke up, that man still gave me money in installments for a while. But when my mother broke her bones in the winter and was unable to go out during my first year of high school, that man disappeared from the face of the earth without a trace and was never found again.

Later, I learned that he used the money from the project to buy a new house, have children, and live a very comfortable life.

By the way, his eldest son, who is one year older than me, is attending military school. It’s quite ironic when I think about it this way.

My mother didn't tell me about this at first, until the hole in my credit card got bigger and bigger and she could no longer hide it, then she confessed to me.

I was asked to pay back the money by several banks, so I borrowed from friends and relatives.

To be honest, this bleak news is a little too shocking for a student preparing for the college entrance examination.

In the winter of my second year of high school, my mother and I were sitting in the square, and she said that the money in her pocket was not enough to buy a bar of soap.

My mother said she was sorry for not giving me the life I deserved.

She was probably so depressed at that time that she saw no hope. She wanted to die, because death would clear all debts and put an end to all her problems - of course I didn't let her go, and I finally managed to persuade her to come back.

There is no use in escaping, if you owe money you have to pay it back.

But what else can a minor child do besides talking about these big principles?

Go alone and be a lone hero to get the money back?

I don’t have the money to fight the lawsuit, and I need to go to school.

Some things are easy to think about and write about in an article, but it is not realistic to actually do them.

Later, I used the good reputation I had accumulated over the years to borrow 8,000 yuan from dozens of classmates, and got through the most difficult stage at that time - I later paid back every penny of it.

From then on, a life of extreme poverty began.

During the last stage of high school, we moved four or five places due to rent issues. I studied while enduring the torment that life gave me.

I also held on, and stood firm together with my mother.

Although I didn't hold on completely, my results were still affected.

In the end, my college entrance examination result was average because I failed miserably in math. I was a science student who usually scored 110 points in math, but I only scored 80 points in math in the college entrance examination. My final total score was just 13 points higher than the first-tier line.

That year, the first-tier score line for science subjects was 480 points, and I scored 493 points, which was neither high nor low. I could not get into a good first-tier university, so I could only choose from second-tier universities and some first-tier universities.

In fact, there were two classmates with the same score as me who went to a local 211 university with military management. One of their majors was just enough for them, but my health has always been poor, so I had no choice but to give up in the end.

Later, when I was choosing a school, because I was too sad about math, I chose a language major that did not require studying math.

As luck would have it, I chose Arabic. Well, I chose this language for only one purpose: to work for a wealthy family in the Middle East after graduation and to escape my current predicament.

After school started, I found that, hey, you know what, the Arabic language is really unique and fun to learn. This joy only lasted for half a month, and after that, it was just painful torture.

Painful tongue trills, self-study every morning and evening, strict exams, a college student has homework during winter and summer vacations, Arabic major level 4 (only allowed to take twice, no chance), English level 4 and level 6 can only be taken in the second year, graduation thesis in Arabic...

Because of money problems, I once set a record of only spending 300 yuan on instant noodles for a month. Later, I felt it was unnecessary and continued to eat normally...

Later, I got a girlfriend and my life was happy for a while.

In my junior year, with the help of my relatives, I went to study in North Africa for eight months on a government-sponsored self-funded scholarship, and saw some unique scenery.

I had the honor of taking a photo with Ambassador Wang, who was then the Ambassador Extraordinary and Plenipotentiary of China to the Republic of Tunisia. He was truly extremely elegant and had an extraordinary demeanor.

(Later, Ambassador Wang became the spokesperson for the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, and now he is the Ambassador to the Kingdom of Cambodia... Wow, the value of this photo is still rising!)

I worked as a foreign language tour guide (Chinese + English + Arabic) there several times, led a seven-day and six-night tour group, and ate and lived with tourists from China as an Arabic and English tour guide (this was really a good deal), and saw some scenery that I had never imagined before.

In a tent hotel in the Sahara Desert, I was shivering in a blanket, struggling with the air conditioner that had very poor heat output, and I also saw the dazzling stars in the lightless desert.

I visited a filming location of Star Wars, saw an oasis with clear springs flowing deep in the desert, visited residents living in caves, and saw the ruins of the ancient Roman Colosseum.

What I remember most is that I explained the history of various exhibits to tourists in the museum converted from an ancient palace...

(I’ll just insert this one photo in the article. If you’re curious and want to see the others, I’ll post them in the comments later. It would be a bit weird to include too many photos myself. Even though I’ve said so much, it still feels a bit weird…)
The first time I joined a tour group, I worked for free, but it was also a way to gain experience. The second time I worked as a tour guide, I earned a small sum of money, which was quite generous for me at the time - more than 3,000 RMB.

I thought I could work as a tour guide more often, earn some money, and help ease the burden on my family.

But later, because of the unfortunate incident of the epidemic, we had to return home early with the help of the embassy, ​​and my plan to work and study after completing my studies there was ruined.

Oh yes, after returning to China, I was locked up in a hotel for two weeks. It was Chengdu in May, in a high-rise building with more than ten floors. The room faced the sun, the window could only be opened a crack, and the central air conditioning was not allowed... I took eight showers a day at that time (no exaggeration) and I barely survived. It was not until later that I got a large floor fan that things got better.

Later, after the quarantine was over, I went to an internship at a local branch of Volkswagen. Thanks to my decent looks at the time (the words of the female leader who interviewed me) and my passing level 6 in English, I got an administrative position.

It wasn't a complicated job. On weekdays I just tidied up the warehouse and processed employees' resignation. There were shuttle buses in the morning and evening, and one meal was provided at noon. I was paid 2,800 yuan a month. I interned for three or four months and got an internship certificate.

But just when I wanted to continue my internship to gain experience and earn money, my counselor urged me to go back to school. But there was nothing to do when I got back, and all my classes were over, which made me feel very confused.

It was during this time of free time after the defense that I started writing my first novel in my life—a pseudo-pseudo-DND western fantasy novel written by Amber, the kind of novel that resembles the Saint's Catastrophe. (Just like that, Xiaoba's life was completely ruined.jpg)

At that time, I was only thinking about how to earn some royalties to reduce the burden of life. I didn't think much about it. I imitated the books I liked at the time, thought of an opening, and published it directly.

Because I was worried that I wasn't strong enough as a newbie, I didn't dare come to Qidian. As a result, I successfully wrote one million words and finished it. In the end, I wrote fifteen chapters just for the epilogue.

Maybe it’s because of the filter of memories, but that is my favorite of the four books I have read so far, and perhaps the most spiritual one - now this book has the same feeling as the original one, and I was very happy to write it!
At that time, be brave and just come to the starting point.

Later, the results of that book were pretty good, and many people joined the group to encourage me.

This gave me a little more confidence, and I continued writing even though I had almost given up.

(Yes, Xiaoba took another step towards the abyss.)
And I haven't been able to get the money for that book for a long time, Le.

Well, I can only say that I was really writing for my dream at that time, and I was quite happy while writing.

After that, I graduated at least. During that time, I relied on online interviews and finally got a few good offers thanks to my study abroad experience and good English.

The thing that impressed me the most was that I was asked to go to Iraq to dig for oil, and to take a bulletproof car to enter and exit the industrial park... I was not very brave, and finally declined.

Finally, I was tempted by the high salary for an expatriate job and found a job at a large private company in the capital. I started my on-the-job training after graduation in July and was assigned to the East as a permanent resident in early August.

Because I am a permanent resident and can only return to China once every six months (in fact, due to the epidemic, I can only return once a year or so), so the income is still considerable.

To be honest, the English of black brothers is really hard to understand. It took me a month to get used to it after I went there.

And their body odor problem also exists, but fortunately, the black managers in my office often take a shower - and then change into a strong perfume. I am also allergic to fragrances, and I will get a headache if I smell it for a long time...

Because it was a joint venture branch with the local national television station, the rank of the Chinese there was almost one level higher than that of the local blacks. My job level at the time was manager, but for the blacks, it was probably considered a director, one level higher, and a small leader.

By the way, another management trainee who worked in the same position as me at the time studied chemistry at Tsinghua University. I was in the marketing department and he was in the sales department. We lived in two rooms in one house for half a year. Later, he went back to Tsinghua University to continue his postgraduate studies.

My later work was to be in charge of the advertising department of the branch company, and to find other people to place advertisements on our channel. However, I didn’t go to negotiate the cooperation myself, but arranged for a local manager to go - well, part of the reason was that I didn’t know enough people, so I couldn’t negotiate.

I have had many amazing experiences, such as being the client behind a local talent show, going to the home of a local senior official to build relationships, having two wisdom teeth extracted in an African hospital, attending some large-scale event dinners, arranging press conferences, and helping the embassy contact multiple media for interviews...

Although it is tiring, life is actually quite exciting.

During those two years, I managed to earn some money, and I gave it all to my mother, asking her to talk to the bank about repaying the loan in installments, one by one.

It also allows her, whose health, especially her waist, which is in such bad condition, to finally stop working and have a good rest.

In this way, the family’s financial problems were basically solved—a large part of them, not completely.

It seems that everything is getting better and life is about to enter a new chapter.

It was also at that time that I met my girlfriend's parents - although the meeting at the dinner was not pleasant, their disdain was almost written on their faces.

Thanks to my work at the time and my connection with football broadcasting, I was able to get a few genuine Dortmund jerseys for her father, bought her mother a massager endorsed by her favorite celebrity, and got a set of stamps issued in East Africa at the 1997 Stamp Exhibition. That meal cost more than a thousand yuan...

Well, I actually prepared very carefully, but it's a pity that people look down on my family background. It's not surprising.

They prefer a guy from a well-off family to a self-made young man, except that her mother likes ABC very much, which makes me want to complain a little.

But as parents, they hope their daughter will not suffer. I think it is understandable that they have such a view. I am not happy about it, but I can understand it.

Although I never intended to bring my suffering to anyone, in the past six years I never let her suffer with me, and it was I who was the one paying the price.

After staying in East Africa for two years, my girlfriend said she couldn't stand being in a foreign country and that only if we came back would we have a future.

I was a little shaken. I really didn't want our six-year relationship to end because of something like this. Plus, I was physically and mentally exhausted, so I submitted my resignation while I was back home on vacation.

Oh, and also because the company has been in arrears of wages for two or three months, anyway, I’ve had enough.

The company deducted taxes from my salary but didn't pay them, so I haven't been able to get a tax refund for three years...

Then there is the matter of suing the company over the provident fund - I have reported this, but am still waiting for any progress.

After that, less than half a year after I quit my job and wrote a book at home, my girlfriend broke up with me.

In her words - she saw no hope, and her youth could not wait that long.

Although I really want to say "My youth is also youth!", "My life is also life!" and so on.

But things have come to this point, and it's hard to mend the broken mirror. In the end, there was no need to waste any more words, and they finally broke up peacefully on last year's Singles' Day.

Yes, being single again on Singles’ Day is a very subtle feeling.

After that, it has been exactly one year now. Apart from going out with friends to relax, I have been staying at home writing books.

Well, the road to writing a book is not smooth...

The initial performance of the previous book was just beginning to improve, but Qidian switched to a new recommendation system and introduced AI to evaluate the results.

Halfway through the second round, after I had read enough, the book was recommended to me in advance because the title and description were not attractive enough.

Yes, that book didn’t even make it through the second round of recommendations…

The Xianxia genre itself does not require a lot of follow-up reading, and I also have a certain reader base, so I can get four rounds of recommendations no matter how I think about it...

As a result, my recommendation was removed for such a ridiculous reason - the mechanism for removing recommendations midway no longer exists, and I am one of the very few victims.

Of course I was very unwilling at the time, but I didn't want the book to be wasted, so I continued writing anyway.

The book eventually reached 1200 million words with an average subscription of 200.

I even persisted in writing 2160 words a day for a month and got the " words a day" badge (a total of works were awarded)!

Well, compared to the first book I wrote on Qidian, which had 1000 million words with 150 readers... both the word count and the performance have improved a little.

I can only say that I am really stubborn.

After that, it was an endless cycle of thinking about new books, writing new books, having them rejected by editors, and then thinking about new books again... over and over again, a nightmare cycle.

After two months of wasting time, I finally felt like I was about to collapse.

Because of overeating, humans have evolved into super-fat people who are 1.84 meters tall but weigh more than 200 pounds!

I finally realized the seriousness of the problem and that I had to find my true self and write a Western fantasy to reward myself and maintain my spiritual pleasure.

Although Western fantasy is not very popular now on Qidian.com, and is far inferior to urban, fantasy, and fairy tales... I still like it.

Also, I really have to write it down now. I’m really afraid that my mentality will explode.

I didn’t bother to torture the editor. I just wrote 6,000 words and asked him to sign it directly, thinking that if it failed, it would fail…

Finally, this book came into being.

The character setting is similar to the first book, with the protagonist having the attributes of a paladin on the outside, but with the charm of a succubus on the inside, evil but not lewd. I really like this setting!
I originally wanted to follow the old path of the book and drive around with the monster girls...but due to some well-known reasons recently, I can only restrain myself again and again.

Iron Fist of Love: You are not allowed to be shy!

Me: Okay, okay, I’ll be honest!

To be on the safe side, I also published a previous Amber Flow Kill Kill Kill Waste Case, and I kept doing this with two sites and two accounts for a month.

In the end, I chose one of the two and kept this book, which I have been writing until now.

call……

Before I knew it, I have talked so much about my life, which is somewhat wonderful but mostly boring and even miserable.

Ah, it’s free content anyway, so let me ramble on…

These are boring words, everyone, just take them as idle talk.

Believe it if you want to, and don’t worry if you think I’m playing the victim, I can understand.

Anyway, this is my life, there is nothing to hide.

The information is all true~
If I must say...I actually omitted a lot of details and concealed some parts that might make people physically uncomfortable.

For example, there was a story about a man who killed fifty or so small cockroaches in a cheap rental house in the middle of the night in the late high school period...

I can only say that it’s a good thing that we are in the Northeast, where cockroaches are much smaller than those in the South.

For example, when I was in Africa, the mosquito net was so suffocating that I got up in the middle of the night and killed 40 mosquitoes with an electric mosquito swatter...

To be honest, I am not one of the best people, but my abilities are not bad either, and I can be considered to be able to earn a little money.

At the age of 25, two years after graduation, I had earned almost 50,000 yuan. Although I have paid off all my debts and am still in debt now, at least I have earned some money.

Maybe I don’t earn enough, and most of the time I just lack a little bit of luck.

I hope we can get out of trouble in the future.

I hope that day will come soon~
Damn it, when I become successful, I will write an autobiography and name it -

How the Steel Was Tempered - My Struggle

happy.

——————【End of nagging】——————

how about it?
After reading this, do you think I’m pretty awesome?

It’s hard to say anything else, but at least my ability to withstand pressure is at its maximum.

happy.

Having said all that, I'm not actually complaining, or emphasizing how pitiful it is.

It's really not.

Because that doesn't make sense.

Sympathy doesn't make readers buy into the story.

This is a subscription site. Readers are already doing their best by giving a first order out of pity. If the writing is really too bad, no one will waste money subscribing to such crap.

People are willing to support me not because they feel sorry for me, but because they think the story is good and they don’t want it to end so abruptly.

Rather than feeling sorry for me, people are more likely to feel sorry for the books. I am fully aware of this and will not act recklessly by taking advantage of people's love for books.

I now truly feel like I'm walking on thin ice and I dare not be careless in any way.

I actually didn't have to say all this, but after much hesitation, I finally wrote it down.

The motive is not that complicated. It's just that I have kept these things to myself for too long and have no one to talk to.

I want someone to hear my story.

"That's not a dark history, that's how I came to be." Although it may sound a bit childish to say this, it is indeed true.

Looking back at every step I took, there were times when I felt despair, times when I almost collapsed, but I eventually made it out.

But when necessary, even the top-level pressure-resistant pressure cooker needs to be deflated, otherwise it will really explode.

Although my life so far can be described as full of misfortunes and bad luck, it also has some bright spots and is not something that I can't show off.

Is it worth a look?
At least, apart from feeling a little sorry for myself, I haven't let anyone down.

I have done my best for everyone in the first half of my life. I have a clear conscience and am proud of it.

At seventeen I didn’t think my life was ruined, and at twenty-five I certainly don’t think so.

No matter how hard or difficult it is, I have come this far. Not only have I not been defeated, I am still doing things that seem to be inconsistent with such a fate, such as pursuing my dreams.

He did not let his mother collapse, but pulled her back from the abyss and took on the responsibility of the family alone.

Still pretty cool, right?

Looking back over the years, I increasingly agree with one point - keep alive, everything will turn around.

As the oldest joke in the world goes, no matter which direction you go, you are moving forward.

Lift your legs and move forward. As long as you walk, you are moving forward.

In fact, it can be seen from these words that although I have a miserable life, life has not left me with much negative energy.

In other words, I don't allow it to remain in my life.

Life itself is bitter enough, don’t torture yourself anymore, just smile.

I personally have almost no violent temper, never quarrel with anyone, and my emotions are always extremely stable.

Maybe it's innate, or maybe it's because I've been unlucky for a long time, but my mentality is generally peaceful and I tend not to write those emotions into books.

I am a person who has experienced suffering, so it is impossible for me to praise difficulties.

But I want to say to every friend who has been or is currently going through hard times:

"You are awesome! You are your own heroes! We are all the best!"

Finally, back to the topic, I have talked so much, but the core point I want to express is:
This book is really, really, really important to me now!

There is no way I can cut up a book!

impossible!
Absolutely impossible!
trust me!

I will definitely finish writing it well, that's right.

Please, help me write a masterpiece, so that my life won’t be so tiring——

begging!
In the closing remarks of my previous book, I wrote: I have encountered a lot of malice from others, and I have also felt a lot of kindness.

I am indeed a bit unlucky. I always meet the wrong people in life, so it can't be said that I have a good life.

But I am also lucky.

I have received help from so many people and have finally gotten to where I am today.

I am fortunate to be born in this country, grow up here, and meet everyone in my life.

There are many people who have helped me in my life.

There was help from the country, society, friends, and relatives... all the help, big and small, kept me from falling.

When I was a minor, I received the state’s minimum living allowance; when I was admitted to university, I accepted financial aid from caring people in the society; after university, I received financial aid scholarships.

My friends have helped me in the most difficult times. Believe me, I have not let any of them down.

I am especially grateful to my close friends. It is their presence that has kept me spirited at many critical moments.

Love you guys! Thank you~
Looking back now, perhaps, the help was big or small, and the money was more or less, but no matter what, it was all life-saving to me who was helpless at that time.

This favor is very important.

I know very clearly that I have come this far with the help of everyone.

I will not fall down easily until I repay these favors.

When I was younger, I was reluctant to talk about these things because of my so-called self-esteem, but now I will no longer hide them.

All of this has shaped me into the mentally healthy person I am today, and I will return the favor to those in need in the future.

Also, dear readers, you are my bread and butter, but you are more than just my financial backers.

They are friends, but also like dear relatives and brothers whom you have never met.

Although we are separated by the Internet, you know my story, have read my words, and understand my spirit.

We are just friends.

I try my best to take every comment from everyone into account, as they help maintain my mental stability - if they don't scold me, well.

Of course, if one day you really can't find me, I will definitely bow my head temporarily under the pressure of life, and work hard to make a living and support my family - maybe I will go to Africa to live permanently.

Go and fight with life until I feel settled and then come back to pursue my dream.

However, I think that kind of situation is unlikely to happen.

The current status of this book seems to be pretty good, or rather, it far exceeded my expectations.

I never dared to imagine that I could have so many monthly tickets!

I am grateful for everyone's support and reading, every reward from every big shot, and every complaint and correction in the comments.

Finally, I was able to be recommended by Sanjiang. This was entirely due to everyone's preference and the trust of the editor, which gave a rookie like me the opportunity to obtain it. Thank you again and again.

If this book can be successfully completed and become a masterpiece, it will at least solve 80% to 90% of my current problems, and I will be able to create with greater peace of mind.

I have loved reading online literature since I was a child, and online literature has indeed changed many of my ideas. Like many people, I have always wanted to write a book to depict the world in my heart since I was a child.

Later on, I actually did that. Although things didn’t go well, I still liked writing novels.

I really do like writing novels, otherwise I wouldn't be so bad at it and persisted on it for so long.

This matter will depend on your support and help.

So!

No matter what, let us stride forward!
Even if fate makes us bow down, even if life is always full of sadness.

But so what?

As long as we are not completely defeated, we still have hope.

Walk with your heads held high, my friends.

Towards a brilliant victory, or towards a grand ending.

Don't turn, don't bow your head, stride forward!

charge!

charge! !
charge! ! !

……

……

This time, I don’t want to end with “But I just don’t want to turn!”

It has been used too many times and has been proven too many times.

I was so excited that I spoke incoherently and said too much. Please bear with me.
Finally, I would like to end with a passage that I like and have been touched by recently.

"No matter your origin, education, or family background."

"As long as you dare to be yourself."

"There will always be someone who loves you!"

Thank you for liking my story.

Thank you for seeing me at this moment and at some point in the future.

I really, really can’t thank you enough for that.

Thank you for being willing to love me.

My dear friend, if no one loves you for a while, please don't worry.

After wading through the long river of malice, you will eventually be embraced by kindness.

As long as you don't give up.

There will always be someone to love you!
To put it another way, you at least still have a grateful love from me.

grateful! ! !

Love you!!!

2024/11/14

Bahren!
Having said so much, I almost forgot about the main thing.

It will be available on the shelves at 12 noon tomorrow, and I will still update it at 6 pm. The first chapter needs to be posted manually, so it will be a little later than 6 pm.

It will be on the shelves tomorrow, please place the first order, please place the follow-up order!!!
Hehehehe uh ...

By the way, if the first order can be three thousand, why not try some decent women's clothing after I lose weight?

　12208 words. Why do I feel like there aren't many people on Qidian who have longer words than mine?

　　That’s true. After all, few people are as idle as me to talk so much in the free chapters. (scratching my head)

　　Even if I can’t be the first in other things, being the first in this kind of thing doesn’t seem bad, right?

　　Hehehe, I’m so awesome!

　　In short.

　　My dearest friend, please accept this long love poem I wrote for you:

　　Also, please place your first order!!!
　　
　
(End of this chapter)