Film and TV: Starting from childhood, I will give up Zhong Yi

Chapter 288 Losing the ability to love, enthusiastic Wen Xue

On September 9, the late summer sun was still a bit scorching.

The counselor organized a class meeting for the freshmen. The freshmen had just entered school, and everything needed to be explained in detail, from the distribution of books and military training arrangements to the application procedures for canteen meal cards and library borrowing cards.

Lin Yuan walked to the door of the classroom and looked around. With the liberation of thought and the development of fashion, the girls' clothes have become more and more fashionable and colorful compared to a few years ago.

But compared with later generations, it is still much more conservative.

He vaguely recalled the dazzling scenes in university classrooms in later generations.

A girl in a floral halter dress walked by holding a book, her long legs shone like jade in the sun, and her white feet were made even more attractive by her one-strap sandals.

Girls wearing JK uniforms, their calves are vaguely visible between black stockings and Mary Jane shoes;

The girl in the belly-baring shirt holds a milk tea, her youthful waistline swaying gently as she walks, her skin faintly visible under her ripped jeans, showing her youthful vitality.

University life in the future is still better. He couldn't help but miss the feeling of being able to wear his youth on his body and swing around.

Lin Yuan quietly asked the girl near the door: "Classmate, is this the history department classroom?"

The girl blushed slightly: "Yes."

After expressing his gratitude, Lin Yuan walked into the classroom and found an empty seat in the back row and sat down.

Among the freshmen in the history department, there are slightly more boys than girls, about 60:40.

Everyone was chatting in groups of three or four. The roommates had become familiar with each other, and the girls' silvery laughter could be heard from time to time.

Not long after, the counselor walked quickly into the classroom. After a brief self-introduction, he began to explain the admission matters one by one.

After all the precautions were explained, it was the turn of the freshmen to introduce themselves. The classroom was instantly filled with whispers, and everyone was obviously looking forward to this session.

Having just finished three stressful and tense years of high school, I naturally wanted to break free from the constraints and meet some compatible opposite sex when I went to college.

Boys spy to see if there are any pretty girls, and girls observe to see if there are any handsome guys.

Girls also have admiration and curiosity about the opposite sex.

Lin Yuan, however, was not interested. He didn't care much about all this and had no intention of getting involved.

The main thing is that this is not happening in the future. If some girl were to give up and accuse him of being a hooligan, she would be asking for trouble.

Anyway, there are plenty of girls for him to be naughty with, so why bother looking for these ignorant girls?

Of course, if she's pretty enough, then he won't say anything.

When it was Lin Yuan's turn to go on stage, he also briefly stated his name and family situation.

However, many people recognized him or had heard of him. There were sporadic whispers from the audience, and several students whispered to each other with expressions of sudden enlightenment.

Some girls even stared at him as if he were prey.

After everything is over, today's events will come to an end.

The freshman orientation will begin tomorrow, and then the military training will begin.

After the meeting, counselor Chen Xuewen asked the students to leave first, but called Lin Yuan alone.

"Tomorrow there will be a freshman assembly. Principal Wen has designated you to speak as a representative of the freshmen. You need to prepare your speech." He instructed in a serious tone.

Lin Yuan nodded, simply wanting to inspire the new students of Nanjing University with his own experience.

It was almost noon when Lin Yuan walked out of the gate of Nanjing University, and the sun made him feel a little hot.

He first went to his sister Sanli's junior high school. The brother and sister had a simple bowl of noodles at a snack bar near the school, chatting and laughing while eating. Then he watched her return to school and then turned to Wen Xue's house.

Lin Yuan knocked on the door.

After a while, Wen Xue opened the door.

Lin Yuan greeted, "Sister Wen."

She was dressed very intellectually today, wearing stockings under a dress, and her peach blossom eyes through glasses looked particularly bright and charming.

Wen Xue asked, "Have you eaten?"

"Ate."

Lin Yuan responded, then followed Wen Xue into the house and sat down on the sofa in the living room.

Wen Xue turned around and went back to the room. When she came out, she was holding a Seagull camera in her hand.

"This is a gift for you." Wen Xue said half-jokingly, "You are studying history. If you come across cultural relics or girls you like in the future, you can take pictures of them."

"Sister Wen, thank you." Lin Yuan did not hesitate to take the camera. It would have seemed too fake to pretend to refuse.

"As long as you can use this," Wen Xue pretended to inquire casually, "The pen I gave you a few years ago may be almost broken."

Lin Yuan shook his head: "It's fine, I've been using it all the time."

Hearing this, Wen Xue couldn't help feeling a little disappointed, remembering that Lin Yuan had once said that he would always carry a pen with him. If he did, he would probably take it out.

But she quickly suppressed her disappointment and said, "Then let's start the interview."

"Okay." Lin Yuan sat up straight, ready for the next interview.

Wen Xue opened her notebook, the tip of her pen hovering over the paper: "As the top scorer in liberal arts, why did you choose the history department?"

"I like it. I have liked reading history since junior high school. The wisdom and courage of the ancients always give me a lot of inspiration."

"Your book, To Live, is very popular. When will you consider continuing to write?"

"I am writing something now, but it may be different from what is on the market. I hope it will be liked by readers in the future."

Wen Xue paused, her eyes becoming more cautious: "How confident are you that the transformation sprint will be successful?"

"About 50%." Lin Yuan smiled and said calmly, "Either success or failure."

"You are an Olympic champion, a top scorer in liberal arts, and a best-selling author. Aren't you afraid of failure when you make such a decision? If the outcome is not satisfactory, the reputation you have accumulated before may be ruined, and you may be seen as an unrealistic person in the eyes of others."

Lin Yuan was silent for a moment, then he exhaled slowly: "The road ahead is long and hard, but I will start over again. From the moment I made my decision, I was ready. I just need to go all out and live with my conscience."

"The interview is over." Wen Xue closed her notebook and locked her eyes with him. "Tell me the truth. Are you really not under any pressure? I won't write this in the report."

Lin Yuan looked a little lonely at this time, and said with a wry smile: "Once the arrow is shot, there is no turning back. Life is a gamble. You either achieve success or lose everything."

"How can you be left with nothing?" Wen Xue subconsciously retorted, "All your achievements will not be erased."

Lin Yuan's face showed bitterness: "Sister Wen, I..."

Lin Yuan swallowed the words back when they came to his lips, turned them into a heavy sigh, and finally lowered his head.

Wen Xue was stunned.

She sat down next to him, put her palms gently on his tense shoulders, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

In her eyes, Lin Yuan has always been a young man who faces everything with a smile, as if nothing can stump him.

She had never seen Lin Yuan so vulnerable before, which aroused her desire to protect him as a mother.

Normally, Wen Ju'an was always secretly against her and never gave in to her.

Feeling the warmth on her shoulder, Lin Yuan suddenly held her hand with his backhand, with a hint of cautious trepidation in his eyes: "If I tell you this, you won't laugh at me, right?"

"I will not."

Lin Yuan pursed his lips and said, "I don't know why, but I seem to be unable to do it since some time ago." "Unable to do it? What do you mean?"

Lin Yuan looked at Wen Xue, a trace of struggle flashed across his handsome face. He leaned close to Wen Xue's ear and spoke a few words in a low voice.

Wen Xue's face was instantly filled with surprise. Lin Yuanke had just entered college. He was at the age of youth and vigor, and his wonderful life had just begun. How could he encounter such a thing?

"How could this happen?" Wen Xue's voice was tense. "Is it because the training was too tiring? Or are you under too much psychological pressure?"

"I don't know." Lin Yuan continued, "I used to... when I thought of you, I would busy myself for a while, but then I don't know what happened, my body became weak and I couldn't get excited about anyone."

Wen Xue's cheeks felt hot, and she turned her face away and coughed lightly to hide her embarrassment.

"You feel unwell," she bit her lip and said, "didn't you go see the team doctor?"

Lin Yuan lowered his head and smiled bitterly: "I am too embarrassed to go, perhaps this is the price to pay for being young and frivolous.

Mencius wrote that when Heaven is about to confer a great responsibility on a man, it must first make his mind and will suffer, his muscles and bones tired, his body hungry and empty, and his actions frustrated. This may be what Heaven wants me to bear.

Sister Wen, I have been holding this matter in my heart for over a month, and I really don’t know who to tell. Don’t worry, I feel much better now that I have spoken out. I will resume my normal training next.”

"Lin Yuan, listen to me. You can't hide your illness and avoid seeing a doctor, okay? You are still young, don't do anything that you will regret in the future. Come with me, I will take you to the hospital."

Wen Xue stood up and was about to take Lin Yuan to the hospital. There must be a reason for the body's weakening. If it was because the training intensity was too high, then he should be well taken care of. If it was a psychological reason, then he should be given the right medicine.

"I won't go." Lin Yuan said stubbornly, sitting on the sofa without moving. Instead, he gently pulled Wen Xue back. "Maybe one day in the future, it will get better naturally."

Wen Xue was anxious and angry, but seeing Lin Yuan like this, it would be useless to force him. She understood Lin Yuan's concerns, but this kind of thing should naturally be taken seriously.

Since Lin Yuan didn't want to go to the hospital, she would find out the truth and then go see a doctor.

Wen Xue had no choice but to ask: "When did you first discover it?"

"After I returned to Yanjing from Los Angeles, I was busy with activities all the time. I felt bored. I saw your photo and suddenly thought of it."

"How do you have my photo?" Wen Xue wondered.

“Actually, it’s not a photo.” Lin Yuan took out a photo frame from his bag. It was a picture of Wen Xue’s profile carefully carved out of a peace leaf. The veins of the leaf turned into hair, and the gaps on the edge of the leaf outlined her soft jawline.

"This is the leaf that fell on your head in the autumn of that year. I carved it into your image and then framed it. I wanted to give it to you, but I liked it myself so I kept it. Sister Wen, I don't need it now anyway, so I'll give it to you."

Wen Xue looked at the lifelike leaf painting in his hand and thought that Lin Yuan was truly a man of great talent and dexterity.

But the last sentence, "It's not needed now", made her blush for a moment.

Especially after what Lin Yuan said before, she felt the photo frame was a little hot when she touched it.

"Are you sure you haven't suffered any injuries?"

"Probably not. I don't have these impressions."

"Come with me." Wen Xue took Lin Yuan back to her bedroom.

The high heels that Lin Yuan gave her were placed in a prominent position at the head of the bed.

Obviously it was intended to be replaced at any time.

"Let me see what's going on?"

Wen Xue had already made up her mind that after finding out about Lin Yuan's condition, she would go to the hospital to inquire about the situation on his behalf.

Lin Yuan naturally refused repeatedly. There are differences between men and women, and how could he let Wen Xue see his body?

But he couldn't resist Wen Xue's insistence.

Wen Xue went to check Lin Yuan's physical condition, but felt a rapid tremor under his skin.

Wen Xue's breathing suddenly stagnated.

. . .

The helplessness in Lin Yuan's eyes just now disappeared, and he looked at Wen Xue with a burning gaze: "Sister Wen, please put on your high heels, so that we will be about the same height, and I can take a good look at you."

Wen Xue turned around and walked to the head of the bed, changed out of her home slippers and put on high heels.

The sound of her black high-heeled shoes hitting the ground was crisp, just like her beating heart. She stood in front of Lin Yuan again.

Lin Yuan's brows relaxed, he slowly lowered his head, and slowly moved closer to her cheek at a speed that Wen Xue could react to.

Wen Xue froze in place. When she turned her face away slightly, she felt a touch like a dragonfly touching the water on her cheek.

"Sister Wen, thank you. I thought I had lost the ability to love, but you made me believe that I can still love."

Wen Xue clutched the hem of her skirt and tried to stay calm: "I'm glad you're okay."

In the following time, the air became sticky.

After finishing, the two sat on the sofa in the living room. Lin Yuan flipped through a magazine from Wen Xue's home, while Wen Xue lowered her head to knit a sweater, but the more she knitted, the more messy it became, and she couldn't help but get distracted.

Even though something intimate had just happened, Lin Yuan acted as if nothing had happened, which made Wen Xue feel empty inside.

It was not until Wen Ju'an came back from school that Lin Yuan took out the pen given to him by Wen Xue from his arms, took the little girl's textbook and began to explain the questions. This scene made Wen Xue feel warm in her heart.

It turns out that he did bring a pen with him.

Lin Yuan did not stay for dinner. After tutoring Wen Ju'an for a while, he left in a good mood.

After leaving Wen Xue's house, Lin Yuan went straight back to Ma Suqin's house.

The life of a day student is free and comfortable. There is no need to be checked in the dormitory and there are no restrictions. As long as there are no classes, he can come home and hug Ma Suqin and play happily.

Just now, it was all thanks to Lin Yuan's efforts to control himself that Wen Xue did not become suspicious. It was not until Wen Xue reached out her hand close to him that he groaned at the right time and pretended to have some reaction.

As the saying goes, you should help people to the end and send the Buddha to the west. Wen Xue naturally wanted to see Lin Yuan was completely fine before she could feel at ease. Lin Yuan had no choice but to let her check him over and over again.

……

The next day, Lin Yuan returned to Nanjing University wearing a slightly loose military training uniform.

When he went on stage to speak as a representative of the freshmen, he looked at the densely packed crowd below the stage and began to talk about his indissoluble bond with Nanjing University.

“Dear leaders, teachers, and dear classmates, hello everyone, I am Lin Yuan, a freshman in the History Department.

I visited NTU six years ago. Six years later, I returned here as a student, which filled me with emotion.

My primary school teacher Wen Qinghua was also a student of Nanjing University. It was with his encouragement that I made further progress on the path of writing and have now become a well-known writer.

The motto of Nanjing University is "Sincerity, Simplicity, Magnanimity, Hard Work and Practice".

My teacher has demonstrated this with his actions. In the future, I will be like him and become an excellent NTU student. Thank you all.”

Everyone is carrying the fancy sedan, firstly to flatter each other in business, and secondly to package themselves with an image of being grateful.

The reason why he spoke so briefly was because Lin Yuan couldn't bear to see his little Aries Chang Xingyu sweating in the sun, so he deleted and deleted the originally prepared speech again and again.

It was a pity that his sympathy for Chang Xingyu was in vain. Several senior leaders of the school gave long speeches which took a long time to finish.

As soon as the freshman meeting ended, military training began.

After standing at attention and marching for a whole day, many students who usually lack exercise were exhausted, and their shoulders and legs were sore and painful.

In the evening, Lin Yuan saw Chang Xingyu and his roommates sitting together eating in the cafeteria, and he winked at her.

Of course Chang Xingyu understood what Lin Yuan meant. After dinner, she found an excuse to send her roommate away, and then the two of them walked out of the busy cafeteria one after the other in tacit understanding.

(End of this chapter)