My girlfriend is a cellist

"Requiem?"

Gan Yanyu muttered to herself when she saw the name.

Before Gan Yanyu could finish browsing the music score, Lin Tian beside him quickly put away his notebook and closed it like a child.

"This piece of music is beyond our current capabilities."

Lin Tian was serious.

"Just like "Pathetique" mentioned earlier, I didn't think it through when I wrote it, so I won't take it into consideration."

"Why?!"

As soon as these words were spoken, Gan Yanyu quickly expressed his dissatisfaction.

"Isn't it weird to say 'I can't handle it' before I even play it?!"

"Lin Tian, ​​don't you believe in my cello?"

Gan Yanyu said urgently,

"Is there any music that I can't play right now?"

Gan Yanyu's rhetorical question made Lin Tian silent for a while.

“Not the same thing”

"Lin Tian, ​​I just think you are weird!"

Gan Yanyu looked a little angry.
"This is our most important competition. Even if you think it's inappropriate, since we've written it, we should give it a try together, right? It's come to this point. Is there anything you can't just say to me?"

Gan Yanyu could no longer bear it and told Lin Tian everything in one breath.

In her opinion, Lin Tian’s behavior was really incomprehensible.

Rather than saying that she was angry, it would be better to say that she was confused and puzzled!

Things were already a bit strange from the moment he directly determined that Gan Yanyu couldn't play the "Pathetique" just now, and now there was another song that he simply didn't let her watch.

but,

How could Gan Yanyu be someone who would stop exploring music?
The more Lin Tian said this, the more Gan Yanyu couldn't bear it.

"It's already this time, is there anything you can't confess?"

Gan Yanyu said seriously,
"I told you everything."

Although it's difficult.

But Gan Yanyu told Lin Tian about his heart disease only after careful consideration.

However, he had just finished speaking, and now it was Lin Tian's turn to be dishonest.

“That’s the problem.”

Lin Tian covered his forehead, feeling quite helpless.

In response to Gan Yanyu's question, he hesitated and lowered his head to think for a while.

Then the boy raised his head.

Suddenly he asked a question that seemed to have nothing to do with the current situation.

"Teacher Gan."

Lin Tian paused and asked,

"Have you ever thought about our future lives if we successfully win this competition?"

“Yes.”

Gan Yanyu replied without hesitation,

"Getting married, of course!"

"Why do you ask this suddenly? Don't you want to marry me?" Gan Yanyu frowned slightly, and her voice suddenly became softer.

"of course not!"

Lin Tian said seriously,
"I am looking forward to my wedding with Teacher Gan every minute and every second. Even now, while I am talking to you, I am thinking about kissing Teacher Gan on the mouth."

".Fool."

Gan Yanyu cursed softly. Lin Tian's words jumped so fast that she didn't have time to react.

"only"

Lin Tian lowered his head, thought for a while, and asked again,
"So, what about after you get married? Have you thought about what to do?"

"Well, actually I'm still thinking, if possible, I want to go to Thailand. Maldives is also OK."

Gan Yanyu thought for a moment and smiled.
"Of course, after all, this is our honeymoon. If you have any place you want to go, you can also suggest it and we can discuss it."

"What happens next?" Lin Tian asked.

"And then?"

"Ah."

Lin Tian paused again.

As if he had instantly transformed into a "bargainer", he asked directly:
"After we get married, how are we going to live? Which city are we going to live in? Will we have children? How many children do we want?"

"What should our 30s be like? Where will we be when we are 40 or 50? Do we have other hobbies besides music? When we retire one day, what will we do?"

"."

Lin Tian asked questions one after another continuously.

For a moment, Gan Yanyu was completely unable to resist.

For a moment, the girl was speechless.

Facing Lin Tian’s question, after a while——

"I don't know."

Gan Yanyu pursed her lips.

"I haven't thought about such far-reaching things, but, but!!"

Gan Yanyu said loudly,
"It's not because I don't love you! I just..."

“That’s the problem!!”

Lin Tian interrupted Gan Yanyu and said pointedly,
"You just never thought about what your future will be like. The self in your subconscious mind is not worthy of living so far into the future!!"

Lin Tian gritted his teeth and roared at Xiao Gan in person.

This is Gan Yanyu.

On the surface, she is positive and sunny. She seems to be extremely motivated about everything and always seems to be pursuing lofty goals.

but
Deep down in her heart, she never thought that she could live to a normal age. She couldn't imagine herself at 40, 50, 60, or even when she and Lin Tian retired.

Perhaps, she was full of expectations for her marriage with Lin Tian, ​​and she had great yearning for their future.

However, all of this is based on the mentality of "live one day at a time".

This is Gan Yanyu.

It has been like this since the first day Lin Tian met her, when she sat on the rooftop enjoying the breeze.

Always pessimistic about your own life and the lives of others.

During the time that the two of them were together, Gan Yanyu changed a lot, but this was the one thing that Gan Yanyu never changed.

If it was someone else, Lin Tian wouldn’t care.

However, if the other party is Gan Yanyu.
Lin Tian couldn't accept it!

Lin Tian still remembers what Gan Yanyu said in the coffee shop that day:

——The most perfect death is to collapse on the stage after playing the best song with no regrets in life.

For Gan Yanyu, perhaps such a destination is what she has always dreamed of in her life.

However, Lin Tian could not allow this.
There must be a place for Gan Yanyu in his future.

Her life does not only belong to her own. A long time ago, both of them have given their lives to each other!
After Lin Tian's words, it was Gan Yanyu's turn to remain silent.

Lin Tian stared into Gan Yanyu's eyes, waiting for her reply.

But Gan Yanyu remained silent for a long time, and finally, he clenched his fists gently.

"Perhaps, you are right, Lin Tian."

Gan Yanyu said softly,

"I don't know what I should do either."

It's not something that Gan Yanyu can change just because she wants to.

After so many years, this mentality has already been rooted in the girl's heart.

Now, even if I force Gan Yanyu to look to the future and imagine a life with Lin Tian when she is 30, 40, or even growing old together,
She also hardly feels real.

It's not her fault.

A girl who has never been favored by fate.

How can we make her look forward to the future of this world?

"."

Lin Tian turned his head and looked at the notebook. "Symphony No. 6: Pathétique".

Tchaikovsky's last work.

A song that shows the inner struggle and pain of life at the end of its life.

This is why Lin Tian couldn't let Gan Yanyu play such a song on the final stage.

Lin Tian was worried that Gan Yanyu would be killed by his extreme substitution.

And "Requiem".
This song is also a last work.

Lin Tian also had his reasons for not wanting Gan Yanyu to touch him.

In 1791, an anonymous client (actually Leitjep, a servant of Count Walzegg) visited Mozart in black and commissioned him to compose a Requiem to mourn his deceased wife.

At that time, Mozart, who was already seriously ill, developed a sense of fatalism.

He believed that this was a "requiem" for himself, and even regarded the man in black as his "messenger of death."

then,

Thus began the creation of the world’s greatest and most influential Requiem.

In the last few months of his life, Mozart completed the complete composition of the two parts of "Entrance Chant" and "Kyrie", as well as parts of "Further Lyrics" and "Offering Chant".

He passed away when he was writing the eighth section of "The Day of Crying".

What is "destiny"?
This is "destiny"!
The rest of the Requiem was written by Mozart's student Süssmayr based on drafts and oral instructions.

From the moment he accepted the commission, Mozart anticipated this outcome.

To this end, he incorporated all his views on "death" into this song.

It's death too.

Two milestone musicians in the history of world music gave completely different definitions in their last works.

Tchaikovsky's death is the pain and struggle in the "Sixth Symphony "Pathetique". He focused all his attention on the question of "what is the meaning of life", and the focus was on "individual".

Mozart's death is full of "heavenly light" in the Requiem. It is like the brilliant interweaving of brass and chorus in the Sanctum Sanctorum, where what emerges is more like a "God" perspective, a calm and sacred attitude towards death.

Both songs also showcase the "aesthetics of death".

One is about the death of "personal perspective".

One is the fate of "God's perspective".

What is also shown here is the thoughts of two musical masters, Mozart and Tchaikovsky, on the meaning of their own lives.

How to choose?
Between Mozart and Tchaikovsky
Lin Tian chose Beethoven.

"The Emperor, right?"

After careful consideration, Lin Tian gave his own opinion.

"Let's not talk about other topics for now."

"Let's get the main thing done first."

Although Lin Tian is still very worried about Gan Yanyu's psychological "illness".

But all he can do now is to join hands with Gan Yanyu in the finals.

Gan Yanyu herself said "I don't know".

If he pushes further, there will be no result.

So far, Lin Tian has never let Gan Yanyu play the song about death.

From now on, I won't let her try.

This is the only thing he will insist on no matter how Gan Yanyu makes a fuss.

Among the many songs I tried tonight,

In fact, after choosing and choosing, Beethoven's "Emperor" is the most touching.

As a work that represents the entire glorious era of classical music, "The Emperor" deserves its reputation, with both deep enough emotions and superb technical display.

A very good choice.

The only difficulty is how to perform it to the best of its ability.

"I'll think about it again."

Gan Yanyu was a little hesitant.

"Row."

Lin Tian did not force Gan Yanyu. After all, the selection of songs for the finals was crucial. He did not think that a conclusion could be reached tonight.
"Then take a rest tonight."

Lin Tian said.

So much happened throughout the day.

In the evening, I took Gan Yanyu to explore a vast ocean of classical music.

It's time to be exhausted.

"Tomorrow, let's choose the music tomorrow."

Lin Tian stroked Gan Yanyu's head.

He deliberately did not dwell on the previous topic.

"it is good."

Gan Yanyu still nodded obediently, but she looked at Lin Tian, ​​as if she wanted to say something but hesitated, and seemed to be worried about something.

"what happened?"

"fine."

"Ah."

After the brief conversation, Lin Tian stood up and sent Gan Yanyu back to the apartment.

"Good night~"

Just before closing the door, Gan Yanyu smiled.

"OK, good night."

into the night,

Gan Yanyu lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling.

In her hand, she was holding Xiaotian's doll.

She suffers from insomnia.

The girl's mind was filled with what Lin Tian had said to her today.

——That’s the problem!

——You just have never imagined what your future will be like. In your subconscious, you don’t deserve to live that far into the future.
When Lin Tian said these words, the painful expression on his face and the gaze he gave him were deeply reflected in her mind.

"I'm sorry Lin Tian"

The moonlight shines through the window, casting a ray of silver light on the girl's face.

The girl murmured softly, sitting up in bed.

“I still want to give it a try.”

Lin Tian had a dream.

He dreamed that he and Gan Yanyu were standing on the final stage, playing a piece of music together. The dream was very vague, and he didn't hear clearly which piece of music it was, but all he knew was that their performance was beautiful, and the audience cheered for them. However, a backstage staff member accidentally knocked over a candle, and a raging fire burned down the Golden Hall.
Lin Tian suddenly woke up from the bed.

He covered his head and felt dizzy.

Since coming to Vienna, similar dreams about competitions have occurred from time to time.

But this is the first time it's so scary.
As Lin Tian was thinking about this, he heard the sound of a cello.

He was stunned for a moment, put on his shoes and walked out of the room.

In front of him, Gan Yanyu was sitting in front of the piano, playing the cello, and on the table was an open notebook.

Songs played:

It's Mozart's Requiem.

Lin Tian smiled bitterly.

Yes,

No one in this world can stop Gan Yanyu from exploring music.

Even though, in front of him, Gan Yanyu was always well-behaved.
Looking at Gan Yanyu's back as she played "Requiem", Lin Tian's heart suddenly tightened.

Isn't this a kind of fate?
Hearing the footsteps behind him stop, Gan Yanyu was slightly startled.

She stopped playing the bow, turned around and saw Lin Tian.

"Sixth Symphony, Requiem. Choose struggle or fate——"

Lin Tian said to Gan Yanyu solemnly,
"You choose."

(End of this chapter)