The aloof beauty always has weak legs; the crazy boss is too ruthless.

Chapter 118 Living Together

The moment the door closed, Mu Sen forcefully pushed Lu Siqi against the back of the door, grabbed her chin, and scrutinized her with bloodshot eyes: "I know that in your eyes, I am just a playboy, not a devoted and good man like Gu Shi. It is because I know this that I have never confessed my feelings to you."

"Not saying it doesn't mean I don't want to; it's just that I'm worried that if I say those things, you'll label me a womanizer again."

"Whether you believe it or not, I have to say it this time: you, Lu Siqi, are my first woman, Lin Chen's first woman."

"I admit that at first I was just attracted to your body and didn't have the romantic feelings or affection that men and women have for each other. But as we've spent these past few months together, I've realized that I can't live without you."

"Otherwise, why would I repeatedly break the rules and even agree to date you?"

"I knew I would lose before that bet even started!"

Seeing that she didn't respond, Mu Sen became somewhat exasperated, "I have completely lost to you, Lu Siqi!"

Do you understand what I'm saying?

Lu Siqi was still immersed in his words: "You, Lu Siqi, are my Lin Chen's first woman."

She looked at him in disbelief, "Really... the first one? But you clearly..."

He seemed so skilled when he did it, how could he be the first one?
"Why would I lie to you about something like this?" Mu Sen got angry just thinking about it. "Do I have to give you a medical certificate?"

Seeing that she still looked doubtful, Mu Sen didn't explain any further and simply let her feel it for herself through his actions.

"Think about how long it took me the first time?" His voice was really hoarse.

Some memories were evoked, and compared to his past self, he was indeed much more skilled in the present.

……

After verifying the information, Lu Siqi sat in Mu Sen's arms, leaning against his chest, looking at the bustling city view outside the floor-to-ceiling window. She suddenly remembered the scene when she was in the special zone, often sitting on the rooftop watching the soldiers training on the parade ground.

The sound of bugles, the soldiers' resounding slogans, the rhythmic sound of running...

"I want to go back to the Special Economic Zone." This was the first time in months that Lu Siqi had faced her own heart; perhaps it was the psychological gap after her debauchery, but in any case, she had a premonition that her life would be completely changed because of Mu Sen.

She longed for her new life but also felt a strong sense of resistance.

Just like with Mu Sen, she wanted to let loose, but was also reserved and couldn't quite let go.

That's why she wanted to go back to the "original point"—the Hong Kong Police Force.

Let's see if she still craves this kind of indulgence after returning to the Special Administrative Region.

Mu Sen, however, seemed to have seen through her long ago. After taking a few puffs of his cigarette, he stubbed it out and brushed the wet hair from her forehead. "You're not suited to be a good girl forever, because deep down you're not the kind of woman who lets her family control her life."

"You want to go back to the Special Administrative Region just to see whether life in the Special Administrative Region suits you better, or whether a life of constantly seeking excitement suits you better."

Turning her face to him, Mu Sen looked directly at her. "Actually, these two lifestyles don't conflict at all."

"Be good when you want to be, and indulge yourself when you want to seek excitement. Life is only a few decades long, why live a life that never changes?"

Lu Siqi met his gaze without blinking. "Is this why you secretly ran away from your family to join the army in Beicheng? Inheriting the family business is just routine for you, while joining the army and infiltrating the enemy is your way of indulging in a reckless and thrill-seeking lifestyle?"

"..." Unexpectedly, she asked this question. Mu Sen frowned slightly. "If my answer is yes, will you be very disappointed in me?"

"The reason they discovered I was an undercover agent wasn't to protect my country, nor to punish evildoers, but simply because I enjoyed the thrill of being an undercover agent, manipulating the enemy from the shadows..." He trailed off, noticing her eyes dimming in disappointment, and chuckled self-deprecatingly, "I knew you'd react like this. Right now, you're probably thinking I'm unworthy of being a soldier..."

"No." Lu Siqi shook her head, frankly stating her true thoughts: "I know that even if you are seeking excitement, you still bear the mission of a soldier at all times. Otherwise, you wouldn't have chosen me as your trump card, so that I could escort all the informants and undercover agents back to the country after something happens to you."

She continued with a firm gaze, "You have great love in your heart, but you are unwilling to admit it because you have never liked to publicize your own merits."

The tense atmosphere instantly eased. "Don't think so highly of me."

He kissed her forehead and gently reminded her, "Always remember that I am a bad man."

"Why?" Lu Siqi asked.

"Because only if you treat me as a bad man, and one day in the future you find that I am not as good as you think, will you not be very disappointed in me."

Lu Siqi understood: "Are you implying that if we break up one day, we shouldn't act like some couples and never speak to each other again?"

"Can't you think of something positive?" Mu Sen reached out and touched the tip of her nose, finding her somewhat straightforward personality quite adorable. "Do you have to think we'll break up?"

"There will always be a day when we break up," she said with relief. "But you're a non-marriage advocate."

What she meant was: You can choose not to get married, but that doesn't mean I can date you for the rest of my life.

"Isn't it better to be in love for a lifetime?" Mu Sen found her idea somewhat absurd. "Why do you all care about that marriage certificate? Do you have to rely on that marriage certificate to bind each other when you have no feelings for each other? And then show affection in front of outsiders, even though you're already tired of each other, you still have to maintain your marital relationship because of the marriage certificate and your family's reputation?"

Unexpectedly, he reacted so strongly. Lu Siqi was stunned for a moment, and suddenly a pair of figures flashed through her mind—her mother, Meng Xianjin, and her father, Lin Weidong.

His parents' marriage has always been a topic of conversation in both political and business circles.

Considering his unwavering determination not to marry, and what he just said...

Is it possible...

Lu Siqi didn't think any further, because her intuition told her that her guess might be correct.

“You guessed it, my dad has been having an affair for a long time, but my mom is still stuck in the past love between her and my dad and hasn’t moved on.” Mu Sen rarely talks about his family, especially about his father’s affair, which he has never mentioned to anyone. Tonight is the first time he has talked about this shameful thing in his family: “When I was 17, that woman came to the Lin family with a big belly to assert her dominance over my mom. My mom couldn’t take the blow and lost control of her emotions. She stabbed the woman in the stomach, and the 8-month-old fetus died in the womb.”

"When my dad saw that my mom had completely gone mad, and my grandfather insisted on not divorcing my dad and mom in order to protect the family's reputation, he sought out the most authoritative psychotherapist in the United States to erase all of my mom's memories of this period, so that she could only remember the love between her and my dad and completely forget that my dad had an affair."

After hearing his words, Lu Siqi was about to comfort him when she heard him laugh and say, "Actually, this is good too. At least my mother doesn't have to live in hatred and pain forever."

"Later I asked my dad if he had ever loved my mom, and if he did, why did he cheat on her? Guess what he said?" At this point, there was a hint of mockery in his smile. "He said that he had only ever loved my mom, but she had changed. She was no longer the person he loved in terms of personality and appearance. So he found a replacement based on the standards my mom had when she was in her twenties."

Isn't this answer ridiculous?

Lu Siqi agreed with him: "It's really ridiculous."

Because she just couldn't understand how a man could only love his wife from when they were dating.
He even went so far as to find "replacements" who looked like his wife when she was young.

He even went so far as to claim that he had only ever loved his wife.

“Your dad probably only loves the wonderful feeling he had when he first fell in love with your mom.” After saying this, Lu Siqi couldn’t help but sigh, “You should be proud of your mom, at least your dad married her because he loved her.”

"Because as far back as I can remember, my parents have always lived a respectful but distant relationship; they even slept in separate rooms." She laughed as she spoke of this: "Before I understood love, I always thought that's how marriages were—to live together with someone suitable, treat each other with respect, have a child, and then just make do."