The sick beauty became popular after she brought her ex to the show

The night wind is intoxicating.

Su Ye held the phone in his hand, and the vibration notification after Xi Yu added him as a friend seemed to still linger in the touch of his palm.

He came to his senses and wanted to pick it up to take a look, but Xi Yu standing in front of him spoke again.
"You told me to wait before, are you free now?"

Su Ye was a little slow to react. After thinking for a while with his slow brain, he remembered that it was the stylist who mentioned the old scar on the back of his head in the dressing room.

The shock on Su Ye's face disappeared, he pursed his lips, put the phone in his hand into his coat pocket, and raised his head to look at Xi Yu.
"Yeah, I'm free."

Xi Yu didn't say anything else and waited quietly for Su Ye to speak.

He recalled that when he came to the crew today, he saw Su Lan squatting in the parking lot.

Su Lan was shocked when she saw him. Xi Yu guessed that Su Lan was so scared because she didn't expect there was someone squatting in the car next to her, and also because she saw that the person squatting at her was Xi Yu.

However, the frightened look on Su Lan's face only lasted for a moment, and she quickly recovered and became calm again. She even nodded when she saw Xi Yu.
"I guessed you would come to see me."

This is what Su Lan said to Xi Yu at the time, and Xi Yu did not say anything about it.

The two found a very private cafe next to the hotel and sat down at a booth facing each other.

As soon as Su Lan sat down, she sighed with disappointment.

Xi Yu was not unfamiliar with Su Lan. The Su family was not in Nanshi. Only Su Ye, who was studying in Nanshi, and Su Lan, who was developing her career in Nanshi, were here. Because of Su Ye, he had met Su Lan several times.

As Su Lan said, she knew that Xi Yu would come to her sooner or later.
Because Xi Yu had looked for her a few years ago.

After Su Ye left, Xi Yu was unable to recover for a short period of time. He didn't understand why Su Ye left without saying goodbye, and he didn't understand why Su Ye cut off all means of contact.

An Sijia and Jiang Congfeng from the same group were also hit hard, especially the team leader An Sijia, who was depressed for a long time after finding that she could not contact Su Ye.

Xi Yu was not a person who could just sit and wait. After failing to contact Su Ye, he immediately went to find Su Ye's aunt Su Lan.

Su Lan was already planning to set up her own entertainment company at that time, but it was still in the start-up phase and was very busy soliciting investment and building relationships with various parties. Xi Yu suppressed his emotions and waited for a long time before he finally found Su Lan near her company.

At that time, Su Lan also had a frightened look on her face, but after the fright she understood and said exactly the same words.
'I knew you would come to see me.'

Memories should be linear, and should be straightened out in chronological order. But once he encountered Su Ye's incident, Xi Yu felt like the protagonist in a science fiction movie.
The past, present and future are intertwined, making people's emotions uncontrollably chaotic.

He remembered that he asked Lidya Su two questions very directly at that time.

Where did Su Ye go?
Why did Su Ye leave?

But Su Lan looked very embarrassed at the time, and did not answer Xi Yu's two questions for a long time. She waited until the coffee was completely cold before sitting opposite Xi Yu and opening her mouth.

Maybe it was because Xi Yu's expression was too horrible at the time, Su Lan's first words were "Don't hate Xiao Ye."

Xi Yu didn't say anything, neither confirming nor denying.

Su Lan seemed reluctant to mention too much. She just repeatedly said that Su Ye was not in good condition and could not continue to support the high-intensity work of the boy group, but she never mentioned why Su Ye wanted to leave.

This made Xi Yu feel ridiculous.

During the days he patiently waited for Su Lan, he found out that although Su Lan was busy, she was not so busy that she could not see anyone.
To put it bluntly, Lidya Su knew he would come, so she had been avoiding him.

Xi Yu didn't understand why he had to hide. Only a guilty person would do such a thing.

In the conversation five years ago, Su Lan was unable to give a clear answer in the end. She just kept apologizing to Xi Yu. However, the tone did not sound like she was expressing apology on Su Ye's behalf. Instead, it sounded like a heavy helplessness.

After that, Xi Yu never saw anyone related to Su Ye again.

Five years later, he and Su Lan sat face to face again, but not in the same coffee shop, and their moods were completely different.

"Aunt Su, why did Su Ye quit the group?"

This time, Su Lan did not dodge the question like she did five years ago.
"Xiao Xi, you should also know that Xiao Ye has health problems, right?"

Xi Yu nodded.

He knew because he had lived with Su Ye closely for a whole week.

"Xiao Ye..." Su Lan pinched the handle of the coffee cup, "He has severe induced asthma. It's usually fine, but no one can predict when it will relapse. Xing Li persuaded him to quit the group because of this reason."
"It's not that he doesn't want to contact you, it's that the contract for leaving the group is very strict. He is not allowed to appear on camera or contact teammates within five years to avoid affecting the subsequent development of the new members."

Lidya Su took a sip of coffee. "Plus, Xiaoye left the group without a word. This is definitely unforgivable from your perspective. Even if I try to contact you, I'm afraid it won't lead to any pleasant results, except for breaking the contract."

Xi Yu's voice was calm, but his fingers were still clenched.
This reason sounded reasonable and made him feel quite uncomfortable, but it still failed to completely convince him.

"Xingli wouldn't persuade a major member to quit just because of asthma."

Su Lan's shoulders suddenly slumped slightly, as if she was sighing silently.

"Well, not really."

Xi Yu looked at her, "So?"

Su Lan did not answer, but suddenly asked a question.
"Xiao Xi, do you think Xiao Ye is very cowardly? Do you think he doesn't trust you enough? When something like this happened, he didn't even consult you and just signed the contract by himself?"

Xi Yu did not deny it.

Su Lan sighed again, "I won't refute the second half of the sentence. Xiaoye does lack trust in others a lot of the time, but the first half is absolutely not true."

She looked up and looked at Xi Yu seriously.
"Don't think Xiaoye is timid. Maybe it's not the same from your perspective, but for Xiaoye, that contract must be one of the bravest decisions he has ever made in his life."

Su Lan later talked a lot, perhaps with a sense of guilt and compensation towards Xi Yu, and told Xi Yu a lot of things that he didn't know before.

"You also know that Xiaoye is confused. She didn't know how to take care of herself. After going abroad, she couldn't get used to the food outside. Later, she learned to cook by herself. When she went to the Chinese Super League, she didn't know the difference between dark soy sauce and light soy sauce, and she even sent a message to ask me."

Lidya Su said this with red eyes.
"He could have just called, but he always thought it would disturb others and only sent WeChat messages. I was busy at the time, and it took more than an hour before I saw his reply. Guess what he did?"

Xi Yu felt uncomfortable in his throat.
"He's been waiting in the supermarket."

Su Lan was slightly stunned and wiped the corner of her eyes.
"Haha, how did you guess that, Xiao Xi?"

Su Lan shared a lot.
"Later, he learned how to cook, but his cooking skills were not particularly good. Every time I asked him what he had eaten, he would take pictures and send them to me."

If Su Ye was not eating when Su Lan sent the message, Su Ye would wait until the next meal, take a photo, and send it to Su Lan.

"You said he was confused, but he unexpectedly remembered these things very clearly. But it could also be that he was too lonely out there, with few people to talk to."

Su Lan even took out her cell phone and found a few photos that Su Ye had sent to show Xi Yu.

The tableware in the photo is very beautiful, with various paintings and strange craftsmanship, bright colors. No bowl or plate is a set, and they are placed on the table casually, giving a sense of chaotic and disordered life.

The dishes were just as Su Lan had said, ordinary home cooking. Some were pretty good, but some looked a bit weird. I didn’t know if the wrong seasonings were used, but they were black and looked like freshly picked pickles.

Among those photos, the most frequently photographed item is the broccoli lettuce.

Lidya Su is like the kind of parent who is eager to share her parenting experience with others.
"He is the best at making this dish of lettuce with oyster sauce. I guess that's why Xiaoye always makes this dish."

There is one photo that is different from the others. Su Ye is also in that photo. It is a selfie.

Xi Yu couldn't help but move closer.

In the photo, Su Ye was wearing a rather thick coat and a familiar blue wool scarf around his neck. His hair was completely different in length from now, only reaching the same length as his neck. The color was still very light, but it looked soft and straight, with the ends of his hair puffing up against the scarf.

This hairstyle makes Su Ye look very well-behaved and like he is about seventeen or eighteen years old. His temperament is very similar to the ID photo of Su Ye when he was a student that Xi Yu had seen.

The side-parted bangs were draped in front of Su Ye's eyebrows. Her eyes were slightly curved, the corners of her mouth were raised, and the hand that was not holding the phone was stretched to her face and made a "V" sign.

On the table next to Su Ye were the home-cooked Chinese dishes he had prepared himself, four dishes and a soup, which looked very sumptuous. Next to it was a small box of frozen cream cakes with a price tag.

Xi Yu looked at the dishes that were not too exquisite but very rich, and asked, "Does he share the house with others?"

This amount is not something one person can eat.

Lidya Su shook her head. "He's very busy, and Xiaoye doesn't really like socializing with people. He lives alone."

Xi Yu hummed, trying to control the complicated emotions in his heart.

Seeing these photos is like having a gust of cold wind hit you in the face.
It wasn't very cold, but it made people feel uncomfortable. Even though Su Ye had a smile on his face, Xi Yu always felt that there was a chill in his heart.

"Oh - Xiao Xi, you think this is too much food, right? Actually, I was also very surprised that day, but I was quite happy. I asked him if he was entertaining friends."

Xi Yu's tongue pressed against his lower teeth.
It has nothing to do with his own mood. When he saw this photo, he sincerely hoped that Su Ye was not alone during the time he was in a distant foreign country, and that he had friends around him who could play and laugh together, just like he did in Oril before.

"Xiaoye told me that he was not at home alone." Su Lan recalled, "But he really looked very happy at the time. It was rare for him to be in such a good mood."

Su Ye used to only post photos of dishes he cooked. This was the first time Su Ye sent a selfie to Su Lan.

"He was really happy. I used to tease him and ask him to send me selfies, but he was always embarrassed. Later I stopped teasing him like that, but this photo was sent by himself."

Xi Yu looked at Su Ye’s outfit in the photo.

The coat and scarf are thick, but it can still be cold in the middle of winter.
It looks like the first month of winter, about the end of the year.

Xi Yu spoke before his reasoning.
"Is it his birthday?"

December 12st is Su Ye’s birthday.

Lidya Su shook her head. "No, this photo seemed to have been sent to me in January. Let me take a look."

Xi Yu frowned slightly. It was a bit too early to wear a coat in January.

"Oh, isn't it here? It's a picture from four years ago."
Su Lan tapped the photo, and the year, month, day and time stored in the album popped up.

2019年1月6日，夜间9:35。

When Xi Yu saw the time, his eyes couldn't help but freeze on the row of small numbers.

Su Lan found that something was wrong with Xi Yu, "Xiao Xi, what's wrong with you?"

Xi Yu listened to Su Lan's words and slowly turned his stagnant eyes, "Aunt Su, can you send me this photo?"

Lidya Su nodded. "Of course, I can send all of these to you, but is there anything wrong with this time?"

Xi Yu held the coffee cup, and the warmth flowed into his body through his fingertips.
"January 1th, the announcement date of the 6th Golden Music Awards."

"Ahh!" Su Lan responded with sudden realization, and the ending tone suddenly rose.
She stopped talking and glanced at Xi Yu.

At the 2019 Golden Music Awards, Xi Yu won the "Best Newcomer in Pop Music Award", one of the three most prestigious awards at the Golden Music Awards. It was also the first highlight of Xi Yu's career after he went solo.

The Golden Music Awards live broadcast time is 8 pm, and the main award will be announced at about 9 pm. Su Lan calculated and vaguely found that the time just matched.

She was busy with work at the time, and her assistant would sort out the Golden Music Awards winners list later. Moreover, the photo taken by Su Ye was taken during the day, when the midday sun was just beginning to slant. She also scolded Su Ye for having lunch so late.

The time difference matches perfectly.
Su Lan raised her eyes.

The handsome young man sitting opposite him was leaning against the booth, his back slightly hunched, one hand clenched into a fist on the edge of the table, and the other hand reaching into his pocket, as if trying to take something out.

Xi Yu's dark-colored hair with a slight curve fell down from the side of his face, blocking his eyes.

Su Lan guessed that Xi Yu might want to take out a cigarette out of habit.

Xi Yu still retained a little bit of rationality and did not do anything inappropriate in the coffee shop. After a while, he pulled his hand away and placed it on his knees like Su Ye.

"Aunt Su, how has Su Ye been doing these years?"

As soon as this question was asked, Xi Yu already had the answer.
No, not good.

He saw with his own eyes Su Ye's pale complexion, his thinner figure than before, his difficulty concentrating at times, and the pills and injections hidden in his bag.
And the old wound on the back of Su Ye’s head that he had never noticed before.

Su Lan could probably guess what Xi Yu was thinking at the moment.

She just felt a strong sense of disharmony for a moment, and the slight connection between the two children seemed to go beyond the scope of friendship.
Su Lan didn't figure it out, nor did she think deeply about it. Her attention was focused on the handsome young man in front of her.

"Xiao Ye he..." Su Lan thought for a moment.

She also didn't know whether to say "yes" or "no."

It's hard to say, Su Ye's living conditions are not so bad that people are worried. At least after Su Lan saw Su Ye go abroad, Su Ye did not give up on himself or become depressed as she worried.

Su Ye is still living his life very seriously. It’s unclear whether he has any goals, but at least he is not just doing things perfunctorily.

But let's say okay.
Su Lan glanced at the picture on the screen of her mobile phone. There was a small cherry stuck in the half-frozen cake exposed on the edge of the photo, which looked a little wilted after melting.

"I do not know."
Finally, Lidya Su sighed and said this.

"No one can tell what happened unless they are involved, but Xiaoye should have his own judgment in his heart."

Su Lan felt that, at least Su Ye had not regretted his choice so far.

"I don't know if you can tell, but Xiaoye is actually a very cautious person. He always anticipates what will happen next before taking every step. For him, these five years of life should be within his expectations."

Su Ye signed the contract only after he was prepared to face all these.

Xi Yu thought quietly.
So Su Ye had already anticipated that after he left, the players of Oril would have better development, right?
Su Ye had long thought that one day in the future, at a moment that everyone was paying attention to, he would see Xi Yu accept the award and go on stage to give a speech.

Similarly, Su Ye must have expected that he could only offer silent celebration alone in front of the TV, in a corner that was gradually forgotten by people on the other side of the ocean.

There was a long silence in the booth.

Xi Yu lowered his head and looked at his hands that were loosely resting on his knees.
Little by little, it was stained with a lot of moisture.

It was as if when he was talking to Su Ye that night, the snowflakes in the night sky fell into his palm one by one, and with the warm temperature, melted into soft and quiet water droplets.

All the indescribable anxiety and impulse of the past five years turned into something tangible and fell into Xi Yu's palm.

Want to see Su Ye.
Want to see him immediately.
I want to hug him, kiss him, run my fingers through those soft, light hair, and stroke that old scar.
He wanted to say a lot to Su Ye, and he also wanted to listen to Su Ye talking to him word by word.

Su Lan didn't say anything, leaving Xi Yu enough silence.

After a while, when Xi Yu moved slightly, Su Lan once again caught a glimpse of the pair of eyes that had appeared on the billboard outside Nanshi Airport for five consecutive years.
The corners of the eyes are slightly red.

She said, "You must have a lot of questions you want to ask me, and I am willing to tell you all of them."

Su Lan hesitated for a moment, "But Xiaoye is a very secretive person. There are many things that even I don't know. If you ask me, I may not get the absolutely correct conclusion."

Su Lan made a great determination.
She vaguely felt that her handsome nephew was about to run away from her wings and run to another person.

Su Lan was worried, but she felt that this was how it should be.
"Go ask him. If the time comes, I think he'll be willing to tell you everything in person."

Xi Yu slowly came back to his senses from his long thoughts.
His hands were wet again, and he glanced at them in sudden realization.

This time it was real snow, falling from the night sky and into the palm of his hand.

Tiny snowflakes also began to gather on Su Ye in front of him, sticking to the ends of his hair.
Xi Yu reached out and brushed it away, and his fingertips just happened to brush across the old scar on the back of Su Ye's head.

Su Ye moved a little, but did not dodge.

There was a very conflicted look on that pretty face, as if she didn't know how to start.

Xi Yu suddenly wasn't so anxious anymore.
"It's snowing and cold outside. Let's go back to the room and talk."

Su Ye frowned slightly, still thinking. Hearing this, he subconsciously nodded and followed Xi Yu. He didn't react until he entered a room that was a circle larger than the guest bedroom.

There wasn't much in the room where Xi Yu lived, and there was no ceiling light. There were only some sheet music scattered on the stool at the end of the bed, and paper and pen on the dark gray-black table further away.

Su Ye glanced at a bottle of water label stuck in the notebook on the table and immediately felt embarrassed.

Xi Yu went to the wine cabinet, took out a bottle of warm oolong tea and handed it to Su Ye.

Su Ye suddenly recalled that he was squatting beside the bathtub, covering the bottled water with hot water. He felt a little embarrassed and moved his toes in the warm slippers.

But Xi Yu didn't say anything, just leaned on the table and looked at him.

Su Ye thought about how Xi Yu didn't say anything when he glanced at his Weibo collection interface just now.

Although Xi Yu is two years younger than him, he is really attentive, Su Ye thought quietly, unscrewed the cup of oolong tea and took a sip, his embarrassment turned into shame.

After finishing the drink, Su Ye stood there, and after a while he asked tentatively, "Then I'll go back first?"

Xi Yu's eyelids twitched, revealing a little smile, "Have you forgotten something?"

Su Ye tried hard to recall and suddenly realized.
By the way, I added him as a friend before, and then talked about the scar on the back of his head.

Xi Yu observed Su Ye. Su Ye's confused and forgetful behavior seemed to have become worse than before.

How did he learn to cook? It's incredible.
If he were there, he could teach Su Ye these things better.

Xi Yu spent his junior high and high school years abroad, so he has plenty of experience in independent living.

Speaking of old injuries, Su Ye couldn't help but reach out and touch the back of his head. After thinking for a while, he spoke.
"this is--"

"Even the stylist who only did your hair once knew about it. I was the only one who was kept in the dark."
Su Ye saw Xi Yu lowering his head slightly and tilting his head to the side, and there was an imperceptible sense of lowness in his tone.

Combined with the fact that Su Ye had just released Xi Yu from the blacklist, and Xi Yu's childlike smile at that time.
Xi Yu's sudden behavior now is very lethal to Su Ye.

The expression on Su Ye's face suddenly became sad, and the corners of his slightly upturned eyes seemed to droop a little.

He dropped the oolong tea in his hand, walked quickly to Xi Yu, grabbed Xi Yu's hand and pressed it on the back of his head.
"I-you can touch me if you want, don't be sad, okay?"

Su Ye held Xi Yu's hand, moved forward, bent down slightly so that he could be lower than Xi Yu, and moved in front of Xi Yu, gathering words that he thought were appropriate and coaxing Xi Yu softly.

"Don't be unhappy. She just saw it by chance."

As Su Ye coaxed him, he felt a strange sense of disobedience.
There were only two people who had been coaxed by him like this, one was Zizi and the other was Xi Yu now.

Su Ye couldn't help but say, "Why are you acting like a child?"

The other hand in his hand moved. Su Ye quickly stopped talking and held Xi Yu's hand tighter.
He moved closer, and his forehead accidentally rubbed against Xi Yu's nose.

Xi Yu didn't say anything.

Now - he can't be said to be pretending.

When Su Ye took his hand and touched the old wound, Xi Yu seemed to be back to the time when he was face to face with Su Lan, and his heart was so blocked that he couldn't speak.
He didn't want his emotions to make the atmosphere, which had finally become somewhat relaxed, even more depressing.

But Su Ye was really stupid. She whispered softly and bent over to coax him. Her slender five fingers grabbed his hand and rubbed his soft and smooth hair again and again.

Seeing that Xi Yu didn't respond for a long time, Su Ye simply pursed his lips and leaned close to Xi Yu's ear.

"Xi Yu, are you being reasonable?"

The end of the sentence is placed very lightly, seeming a little light and floating, with a bit of the haziness unique to Su Ye's voice.
And I also felt a little ashamed, I don’t know why.

Before Xi Yu could think clearly, he heard Su Ye speaking again, and her warm breath brushed past his ears like a feather.

"According to what you said, you are the only one who has been with me, right?"

After saying this, Su Ye glanced at Xi Yu who was standing nearby. Just as he was about to let go of the hand that was pressing on the back of his head, the hand he was holding suddenly exerted force.
Pressing Su Ye's head, he pulled his whole body into a warm embrace.

Xi Yu also leaned close to Su Ye's ear and said, "Shui Shui, you are really brave."

Hearing this name, Su Ye opened his eyes wide, and his whole body softened all of a sudden. Half of his face was resting on the back of Xi Yu's neck, with a bit of sullen helplessness, "Xi Yu, you lied to me again."

Xi Yu held Su Ye's waist and rubbed his face gently against Su Ye's long hair.
"Well, I fooled you again."

Su Ye placed one hand on the edge of the table, his tall body overlapping with Xi Yu's, and his whole body slowly warmed up.
It was not the temperature of the hot air from the air conditioner, but the warmth that Xi Yu brought to him.

The moonlight poured in.

Su Ye quietly stretched out his hand, as if to embrace the illusory and invisible light.
As if he didn't want Xi Yu to notice, he silently tried to catch the lights floating in the air.

Then Su Ye's palms felt warm.
His hand stretched into the air was intercepted by Xi Yu, and his ten fingers were intertwined and clenched.

So warm, like a dream.

When Su Ye saw Xi Yu win the award that year, he sat in his apartment eating cake and imagined himself holding a bouquet of lilacs in his hand and going on stage to give it to Xi Yu.
Xi Yu would probably hug him, and he could take this opportunity to quietly lean over to Xi Yu's ear and say, "Congratulations on winning the award."

Su Ye blurted out what was in his mind in a chaotic manner, and a word floated out at an infinitely close distance, with a bit of random and fragmented joy.
".Congratulations on your award."

He was hugged a little tighter.

Xi Yu whispered in his ear, not wondering why he suddenly said that, but just spoke with a little smile.
"It seems we are still missing a bouquet of flowers, Teacher Su."

Su Ye rubbed against the warmth and spoke softly.
"I'll supply you."

(End of this chapter)