Marriage Seduction Addiction

Chapter 473 A Love That Only Happened Once

Tang Xu heard it, but acted as if she hadn't, and didn't respond at all.

But after a while, Yan Shiyu clearly realized that she still hadn't fallen asleep.

They might not even have closed their eyes.

Yan Shiyu couldn't help but sigh softly, then reached out and gently pulled Tang Xu into her arms.

The moment their bodies touched, Tang Xu froze instantly, quickly reaching out to try and stop him, "Your injuries..."

"It's alright." Yan Shiyu pulled her even closer to him, holding her tighter, and murmured repeatedly, "It's alright... Yaoyao, go to sleep."

Tang Xu remained stiff for a long time before her body finally softened little by little. She pressed her face against his chest, and when she came to her senses, she realized that her tears had soaked through his robe.

More than a dozen hours have passed since the two of them decided to meet, and Tang Xu is not even aware of the changes in her mindset that she has gone through—because from beginning to end, she has been suppressing her emotions and not letting this unexpected reunion break through her rationality.

But when the night grew dark and quiet, he ultimately couldn't control himself.

"Am I dreaming?" Tang Xu finally asked softly.

"If it's a dream, then it's only my dream." After a long while, Yan Shiyu's voice finally rang out, "You shouldn't have such a dream."

For him, such a dream was an unparalleled and beautiful dream.

In his view, if her dream presented itself in this way, it would only be a nightmare—

The things he brought her were by no means pleasant.

Tang Xu remained silent for a moment before speaking again: "You are really used to being domineering, even trying to control what kind of dreams other people have."

This time it was Yan Shiyu's turn to be silent. Then he said, "I'm sorry."

Upon hearing those three words, Tang Xu paused for a moment, but did not respond. After a long silence, she finally asked, "Why did you release Mr. Jiang?"

This question was extremely important and crucial, but it was only now that Tang Xu finally asked it.

Yan Shiyu had also been waiting for this question for a long time, but when it came time to answer, he still hesitated for a long time.

“I didn’t want to let go at first,” he said, “but when I faced him, I couldn’t think of anyone or anything else besides you—”

He could have ended it all without regrets, giving those damned people, including himself, a quick and painless end.

But at the last moment, he hesitated.

No matter how hard I try to stop thinking about her, she's still all I can think about.

I think of her smiles, her tears, all the hardships she endured because of me, everything she bore alone, and her effortless confession...

She said she loved him.

How could someone like him deserve her love?

He should disappear from this world completely, giving her a peaceful and carefree life.

But, but...

What if she feels sad and distressed because of this?

Jiang Beiheng is dead. She will be sad, she will blame herself, and she may forgive him as the murderer, but she is afraid she will never forgive herself.

How much blame will she have to bear for this, and how much pain will she suffer?
The more extravagant hope is that it's because of him.

What if his departure becomes the source of her pain?

No one understands the pain of loss better than him.

Those he cared about and loved deeply have all left.

He personally saw them off.

He knows all too well what that feels like.

He couldn't bear to let her experience even a fraction of that feeling.

If she were to shed even a single tear because of his disappearance, it would become his deepest sin.

Besides, how could she only shed one tear?

In the end, he gave up. Because he knew that if there was even a sliver of hope left in his life, that hope would only come from her.

Even though this glimmer of hope might fill him with trepidation and confusion, it would also uncontrollably fuel his yearning and longing.

In the end, he released Jiang Beiheng.

But even after releasing him, I still couldn't calm down.

Unable to face my past self, unable to confront my long-held obsession, unable to soothe the pain in my heart, and unable to go back to her—

So he went to that forest of giant fir trees, forcing himself to stay awake in a familiar, extreme, and harsh environment.

But all I saw was the most blatant desire deep within my own heart—

Nobody loves him.

Those who once loved him are no longer in this world.

But when his life was completely shrouded in darkness, she told him that she loved him.

Just like before, she miraculously appeared in this forest of giant fir trees and saved him from his near-death experience.

His life seemed to be a constant struggle for pain and revenge.

Can't he live for the people who love him just once?

That incredible, absurd yet compassionate love—he might only experience it once in his life; once lost, it would truly be gone forever.

How could he let him down?

So, he eventually came back.

It's time to pay back all the debts we've owed for so long.

"Yaoyao, I'm sorry..."

Tang Xu was in a daze for a moment, then suddenly seemed to remember something and slowly raised her face to look at him. "So, the reason you know my nickname is because I told you back then?"

When they first met in that giant sequoia forest, as she tried to communicate with him in various languages, she mentioned her name, perhaps "Yaoyao" or "Yoyo" after a change in pronunciation. At that time, he couldn't understand anything, so she just blurted out a lot of things, to the point that she couldn't remember them clearly.

But he remembered it.

And I've remembered it for so long.

Until... the two met again.

Tang Xu couldn't help but reach out and gently stroke his face.

Why didn't you tell me sooner?

“Yaoyao, I’m sorry…” Yan Shiyu kept repeating.

Tang Xu was slightly dazed.

Yan Shiyu rarely says sorry.

I did say that quite seriously a few times before.

It was when he first learned that he was responsible for her car accident that injured her ankle, preventing her from ever dancing again.

But at that time, Tang Xu was unable to understand why he was saying "I'm sorry".

This time, she understood.

Not just because she said he was domineering, but because of many other things, many other things...

"You might have to pay back for all the things you've wronged me for a long time," Tang Xu said.

“Okay,” Yan Shiyu replied, “If this life isn’t enough, I’ll continue to repay you in the next.”

"I don't want your next life," Tang Xu said. "What would I do with something so ephemeral? I just want you to repay your debts properly in this life."

"it is good."

Upon hearing Yan Shiyu's response, Tang Xu seemed to finally calm down, gently closed her eyes, and thus finally fell asleep.