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Chapter 209 The Only Pain and Resentment

"Director Xu, can you tell me what's wrong with him?"

Xu Qingling did not hide anything and told Qin Senru about his life in the mortal world.

"So that's how it is." Lu Xuan suddenly realized, but didn't seem surprised.

After all, that was something only someone so devoted to the country and obsessed with their career could do.

All these years, she had been waiting for Qin Senru to arrive in the underworld, but he never came. She never expected that the reason would be like this.

For a moment, Lu Xuan didn't know how to express herself.

“Now that my son has awakened him, why would Director Xu still come looking for me?”

"Although Old Qin has been awakened, he still has a deep-seated obsession, which may lie with you and your daughter."

"Is it me and my daughter?" Lu Xuan murmured to herself, her gaze somewhat vacant, as if recalling a distant past. That person's obsession was actually her and her daughter. How strange, how truly strange.

"So, what does Director Xu want me to do?"

"If you'd like, would you like to come with me to the mortal realm? I saw that the leave application you filled out was also about Old Master Qin, wasn't it?"

“Alright, then I will go with Director Xu. My daughter Zhilan doesn’t need to go.”

Lu Xuan returned to her home in the underworld, told her daughter Qin Zhilan, and then went out, intending to go to the human world with Xu Qingling.

Xu Qingling saw Qin Zhilan; she was gentle and beautiful, with clean and clear eyes—a very good girl.
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"Xiao Heng, do you think your mother and sister will be willing to come see me?" Since Xu Qingling left, this is the umpteenth time Qin Senru has asked this question.

His face was filled with apprehension and nervousness.

When everyone saw Qin Lao's appearance, they were also surprised. After all, Qin Lao was a big shot in their eyes, and he was always calm and composed and had a good grasp of everything.

Now that I'm about to meet Madam Qin, I'm actually so nervous.

To ease his father's tension, Qin Zhiheng pulled Ming Lao and others aside and had them discuss the projects at hand with his father.

This method was indeed effective. Old Qin immediately became immersed in it, losing all his tension. In fact, when he got carried away with his emotions, his irritable temper was revealed.

When Lu Xuan followed Xu Qingling to the experimental base, she saw that familiar figure, scolding the elderly Ming Lao like a grandson.

The figure was familiar, but Lu Xuan could also tell that the soul was indistinct, as if it was about to dissipate.

This guy always manages to get himself into this mess.

He was willing to give up his entire life, or even his life, for scientific research.

“Ah Zhen is getting old. You should give him some face when you scold him. After all these years, you still can’t change your temper.”

The familiar voice made Qin Senru, who had his back to Lu Xuan, freeze, and all his words came to an abrupt halt.

After Mingzhen exclaimed "Master's wife" in surprise, Qin Senru's hands trembled.

Until a hand was placed on his shoulder.

"What, you don't want to see me? Then I'll leave?"

"Don't leave."

Qin Senru turned around immediately and tightly grasped the hand that was about to be pulled away.

Looking at his wife's familiar face, he instantly burst into tears.

Everyone around them had left at some point, leaving only the couple.

"I... I thought you wouldn't come to see me."

Lu Xuan scoffed, trying to pull her hand away, but it was held too tightly, and she couldn't pull it away. "You also feel that you've let me down, that you think I won't come to see you?"

"I, I..." Qin Senru didn't know how to explain for a moment.

At this moment, Qin Senru was nowhere near the imposing figure he had in front of Elder Ming and the others; he seemed like a bewildered young man.

"How are you and Lanzhi doing in the underworld? I heard you haven't reincarnated yet?" Qin Senru wanted to ask why, wanted to ask if they were waiting for him, but couldn't bring himself to ask.

Lu Xuan glanced at him. "You still remember Lanzhi? I thought you had forgotten her." Qin Senru smiled bitterly. "Lanzhi is our daughter..." So how could I forget her?

His daughter, Lanzhi, had an intellectual disability and was unable to live like a normal person throughout her life; she also passed away before him.

That was Qin Senru's lifelong pain.

That's why he threw himself into his work so frantically after his wife and daughter passed away; perhaps he was using work to temporarily forget that pain.

"Thank you for your concern, Lanzhi and I are doing very well..."

Then, Lu Xuan told Qin Senru everything about her and her daughter's life in the underworld without hiding anything.

Qin Senru was overjoyed to learn that his daughter had regained her senses after arriving in the underworld.

Upon learning of his wife's current achievements in the underworld, he felt somewhat bewildered, yet not entirely surprised.

“I know you’ve always been a capable person.”

My wife has always been intelligent; otherwise, she wouldn't have been able to study abroad at a prestigious university and obtain two doctoral degrees.

Wasn't he attracted to a wife like that in the first place?

That's why I pursue it so diligently.

Ah Xuan also had her own pursuits and dreams, but she gave them all up in order to support his career and take care of their two children.

Now that Ah Xuan can realize her dreams and values ​​in the underworld, he is genuinely happy for her.

Old Qin looked up, as if he wanted to say something but then stopped.

"Qin Senru, are you trying to ask me if I've ever regretted anything all these years?"

Qin Senru's heart skipped a beat, and he smiled bitterly. His wife could always see through his thoughts so easily.

Just like in those years, his wife played an indispensable role in his achievements.

Lu Xuan slowly turned around, stared at Qin Senru, and said firmly, "Then I will tell you."

"I do not regret it."

"Never."

Qin Senru's eyes widened in surprise.

"Once I, Lu Xuan, make a decision, I will never regret it, and I can bear the consequences no matter what they are."

"Qin Senru, I know your abilities, and I also know how important the country is to you."

"The country is very important to you; it is your heart's faith."

"The same is true for me."

“I understand what your research means, so even if I have to give up my career and dreams to marry you, I will have to be the woman behind you.”

"I have no regrets."

Qin Senru's eyes reddened, and his throat tightened with emotion.

Lu Xuan's eyes also filled with tears, and her voice lowered, "I just didn't expect that Lan Zhi would have an intellectual disability."

Qin Senru stepped forward and gently embraced Lu Xuan. "I know that Lanzhi's illness is also a pain in my heart."

Children are the deepest concern in a parent's heart.

While she was alive, Lu Xuan always felt very reassured about her husband and son.

She knew that the father and son had essentially been handed over to the state.

She hardly had to worry about their future.

But what will happen to Lanzhi if she leaves?
To be honest, Lu Xuan's only complaint about her husband wasn't that he was always unable to come home and devote himself to scientific research, but rather that Lan Zhi's behavior was partly his fault.