Who wants to be a male model after being reborn? I want to be a male god.

Chapter 149 Obsession and Knot

Xu Wen didn't dare to tell Gu Xingruo directly about his love affair in the car.

He was afraid that as soon as he finished speaking, the eldest lady would ask him directly: "What do you think is the meaning of life?"

Then he increased the speed to 200 or 300 on the spot.

His daily life of rebirth had just begun and it would soon be over.

However, the above are all Xu Wen’s fantasies. Gu Xingruo does not seem to be such an extreme person.

But saying it at this time might affect her driving condition.

So Xu Wen chose to shut up.

If you have anything to say, you can talk about it after you stop the car. Don't talk about such dangerous topics in such a dangerous place.

Gu Xingruo has been talking non-stop since she got in the car, and she keeps talking about things related to her family.

Talk about her house, her room, the decoration in the room, etc.

The eldest lady had wanted to share it with him for a long time, but she just never found the opportunity.

Xu Wen dealt with it casually.

As long as Gu Xingruo didn't speak, he would never take the initiative to start a new topic.

He had been thinking about how to put it in a way that would make it easier for the young lady to accept.

I thought about it for a long time, but couldn't come up with anything.

No matter what excuses or statements you use, you cannot deny something.

That means he already has a girlfriend.

After thinking it over, Xu Wen decided to say it directly. The more straightforward the better. A short pain is worse than a long one.

Perhaps if Gu Xing knew that he had a girlfriend, she would give up on him little by little, and they would become strangers again.

The eldest daughter continues to be a rich second-generation.

Xu Wenze slowly lived his own life.

From now on, the road is wide and each of them goes their own way.

There were few cars on the road on the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival. Perhaps everyone was at home enjoying the moon and celebrating the festival, and no one had time to go out and stroll around.

Gu Xingruo was driving very fast and was about to reach where she lived.

This is not the first time Xu Wen has come here.

In his previous life, when he had just been with Gu Xingruo, the eldest lady had brought him back.

That was the first time he saw such a big house and so many nannies, it was like filming a TV series.

The housing prices where Gu Xingruo lives are ridiculously high even now, let alone a few years later.

However, Xu Wen later heard that the villa was on Douyin City, and some owners were willing to sell their houses even if it meant losing money.

Calculated based on the highest housing prices ever, the decoration in the villa is basically given away for free.

When Xu Wen saw it, he had one thought: it was indeed discounted a lot, but he still couldn't afford it.

For the rest of the way, Gu Xingruo seemed to have nothing to say, and the two of them remained silent.

The eldest lady didn't say anything because she was afraid that Xu Wen would ask to get off the car directly at the roadside. The quiet atmosphere made her feel safer.

As long as he didn't say anything, she would drive him home.

Xu Wen just wanted to talk everything out after arriving at the destination, so he didn't ask to get off the bus early.

The two of them kept quiet tacitly, and then Gu Xingruo drove the car into the community.

When the car arrived at the door, Xu Wen felt that the security guards were so dedicated. Even at such a late hour, they still came out to salute when they saw the car coming back.

The security guard looks young and strong, only he can be called a security guard.

The security guard in their community seemed to be hard of hearing and couldn't hear anything being said.

I guess the entire security team combined wouldn’t be able to put together a complete set of teeth.

Although this was not Xu Wen's first time here, he was still shocked by the environment and atmosphere here.

There is even a lake in the very center of the community, with a park and pavilion next to the lake.

He really couldn't understand what kind of troubles the people living here had.

If he were given a villa here, he would definitely be the most cheerful boy in the world.

Gu Xingruo's house is located at the top of the villa area. It is the most prestigious location in this area and occupies the largest area.

After seeing the house in front of him, Xu Wen kept admiring it in his heart. He didn't ask for much, as long as he could have such wealth in this life after rebirth.

Then let him live the plain and boring life of a rich man.

It is hard to imagine that the starting point of someone else's birth is actually the end point of his struggle.

Gu Xingruo drove the car to the garage, and only when the car stopped and the engine was turned off did she finally breathe a sigh of relief.

She inexplicably felt like a child who was secretly doing something unnoticed by her parents.

When she was a child and lived with her grandfather, when she saw that it was past bedtime, she would try not to make any noise, watch TV as long as possible, and pretend that she didn't exist.

That's how she feels now.

"We're already here, why don't you go up and take a look? I have some delicious food at home!" She finally said what she had always wanted to say.

Gu Xingruo really couldn't think of anything about her home that could attract Xu Wen.

I had to use the tricks that adults often used to coax children when they were young, in an attempt to attract an adult.

She felt embarrassed after she said it.

Then she quickly thought about what snacks she had at home and what she could take out to eat if Xu Wen went upstairs.

"I won't go up." Xu Wen loosened his seat belt.

He planned to explain everything to Gu Xingruo here and have a showdown.

The garage was quiet and no one would disturb them, so it was perfect for chatting.

"Let's go and take a look. It won't take long. We..." Gu Xingruo was still struggling, but all she got was Xu Wen shaking his head.

She didn't know how to continue.

"The main reason I came back with you is because I have something to tell you." Xu Wen spoke slowly.

"What?" Gu Xingruo found that her heart began to beat wildly.

Xu Wen's expression was obviously no different from usual, but she suddenly had a bad feeling.

The sixth sense in her heart was frantically reminding her to escape from here.

"I already have a girlfriend." Xu Wen said this without any hesitation.

If he wanted to continue to keep Gu Xingruo hanging, he had various ways to do it.

He is now much better at getting along with women than he was in his previous life, and knows how to control them better.

A task as difficult as Gu Xingruo's was very easy for him.

But Xu Wen chose to give up. He no longer wanted to keep anyone hanging, cater to anyone, or rack his brains to please women.

Everyone should have their own life, right?

So does he, and so does Gu Xingruo.

When Xu Wen said this, the atmosphere in the car fell silent for a moment.

Gu Xingruo just stood there, unable to utter a word.

The bad premonition in her heart finally came true at this moment.

This time she didn't cry, she didn't even react, she asked in disbelief: "You are lying, right? You are lying to me, right?"

She subconsciously thought that this was an excuse Xu Wen made up.

"Don't worry, I will definitely not pester you like I did some time ago. If you don't want to go up with me, then don't go up. I won't send you so many messages in the future." Gu Xingruo began to speak incoherently.

She would rather believe that Xu Wen was just making excuses because he was annoyed with her than believe that he really had a girlfriend.

"I didn't lie to you, Xia Ning and I are together." Xu Wen interrupted Gu Xingruo and confirmed again.

After saying this, the eldest lady finally calmed down again.

Gu Xingruo didn’t know what to say or what to say now. She lowered her head and looked at the co-pilot.

Maybe she simply couldn't accept the news and was hypnotizing herself that all this was fake.

Before she could react, tears had already flowed down the corners of her eyes and fell on her skirt with a plop.

Gu Xingruo wore a white skirt to look good today, and now there are water stains on the skirt. Xu Wen didn't say anything else. He had said what he wanted to say, and now it was up to Gu Xingruo to digest it herself.

"Why her, why not me?" Gu Xingruo's tone was tearful.

Her voice was soft, but clearly audible in the quiet car.

Gu Xingruo didn't understand.

She used to think that Xu Wen didn’t want to be in a relationship, so he never agreed to her proposal.

If I want to fall in love, I will definitely choose her as my girlfriend.

But now Xu Wen is in a relationship, but his girlfriend is not her.

Gu Xingruo didn’t understand, she really didn’t understand.

Why did Xu Wen choose Xia Ning instead of her?

Is there something she did wrong?

"I don't understand! I really don't understand!" Gu Xingruo raised her head and shouted at Xu Wen at the top of her lungs.

She desperately wanted to know an answer from him. She thought that she could gain love through hard work, but in the end, it all came to nothing.

"Is it because she kissed you? I can do that too!" Gu Xingruo began to find excuses for herself.

"Don't even mention kissing. You can do whatever you want. I'm the only one in my house. Come up and you can do whatever you want." She continued through gritted teeth.

At this moment, all modesty, shame, etc. are gone.

She just wanted to use the simplest and most brutal way to keep the one she loved.

As long as she can be with Xu Wen, she is willing to pay anything.

Gu Xingruo's eyes became redder and redder. She stretched out her hand and wanted to pull Xu Wen to her side.

But no matter how strong girls are, they are still weaker than boys.

Xu Wen directly pressed Gu Xingruo's hands on the seat, making her unable to move.

Although the young lady was imprisoned, her body was still struggling.

"Calm down and listen to me!" Xu Wen changed his usual gentle tone and shouted harshly.

Gu Xingruo was shocked by the voice and the cold look.

She stopped struggling and her momentum gradually weakened. She blinked and looked at Xu Wen, then leaned on his arm and cried silently.

Gu Xingruo felt aggrieved. She kept repeating, "Tell me, tell me, since you want to fall in love, why can't it be me?"

We clearly agreed to consider dating after entering college.

big liar!
Xu Wen looked at the young lady who was crying in front of him, listened to the questions she asked, and scenes of memories emerged in his head.

Why didn't he choose Gu Xingruo?

In fact, the answer is very simple, that is, he never believed the love she spoke of.

In the past, on every night when he drank until he fainted, every night when he had to smile, and every night when he did disgusting things, he couldn't help but blame Gu Xingruo.

If she really liked him as much as she said, then why didn't he show up again?

Since going abroad, he has completely disappeared and has never logged into QQ again.

Xu Wen had also thought about this when he returned the tens of thousands of dollars to Gu Hong.

Maybe if he paid back the money earlier, Gu Xingruo's father would forgive her earlier, and she would be able to come back from abroad earlier.

Then the two of them were together again, just ordinary together.

At some point in his life, the young and naive boy had fallen in love.

But then, a long, long time passed and Gu Xingruo never came back, so long that he had forgotten that sincerity, or had completely lost the ability to be sincere.

Xu Wen has met many people, heard many words, suffered a lot of losses and received a lot of education.

He understood one thing more and more.

The only one who can truly save him is himself.

When it started over again, he never believed anything Gu Xingruo said, not even a single word.

If she really liked him as much as she said, she wouldn't have never come to see him.

Xu Wen knew that Gu Xingruo was only a teenager, and it was unfair to judge her for things she had never experienced.

But he really didn't want to face this relationship anymore.

Xu Wen inexplicably thought of the divination Yang Yiyao gave him. She said that he was a chameleon and would have different personalities when facing different people, and it was difficult to judge which one was the real him.

He had always been like this in the past. In order to survive, he had always played both sides.

He wears different masks, and sometimes he even forgets which one is the real him.

Xu Wen has been pretending for too long, this time he wants to say what he really wants to say.

He patted Gu Xingruo's back gently, and when she raised her head, he said seriously, "I really can't believe your feelings."

Gu Xingruo's eyes were dull, she didn't understand what Xu Wen said at first.

But the other party did not give her time to breathe.

"In fact, your feelings for me are no longer love, but obsession, because I am the first person you like in your life."

"Obsession is not love. You want to keep pestering me and not give up because I am not with you yet. You will always have a filter for me."

"If I were to be with you someday, it might be sweet at first, but if we ran into any difficulties, you would quickly give up."

"Obsession cannot support a love, so I can't be with you. I also hope that you can get over your obsession as soon as possible."

Xu Wen expressed his thoughts in the most straightforward way possible, hoping that Gu Xingruo could understand.

In his opinion, the reason why the young lady kept holding on to him in this life was simply because she had not fulfilled her obsession in her youth.

The reason why she could give up so easily before was probably because they had been together before, so she was no longer enchanted by him. Only after they became a couple did she realize that her former white moonlight was so ordinary.

In addition, there are many obstacles ahead, including resistance from both sides' families, so Gu Xingruo, who is in a high position, will naturally give up.

She thought that since I was such a good person, there must be better options, and since this one didn’t work, then she would try the next one.

Perhaps many years later when she mentions herself, she will just refer to her first love in her youth with some regrets.

The eldest lady has a better life, so she will naturally forget about him completely.

Although the above are all Xu Wen’s own imagination, he feels that it is indeed the one closest to reality.

He doesn't believe in melodramatic stories like cancer and car accidents. He has seen too many people like that, and he only believes in reality.

Gu Xingruo stopped crying because her head felt a little dizzy. She tried her best to understand what Xu Wen meant.

She doesn't quite understand words like obsession and filter.

This statement is as difficult to understand as the car light theory that Xu Wen once talked about.

He said that the reason why she felt there was light on him was not because he could shine, but that the light might be the light of the car or the light in her own eyes.

Gu Xingruo didn’t quite understand it, but she wrote it down and named it the car light theory.

Cao Yanan later translated for her: "He just wanted to say that he is not that good, just ordinary, simple as that."

Now Gu Xingruo understood.

She retorted: "I don't think so. I think he is the best person I have ever met."

After hearing this, Cao Yanan rolled her eyes and told her not to tell her and to talk to Xu Wen instead.

Now that her best friend is not around and there is no one to translate for her, Gu Xingruo can only try to understand it on her own.

After a long while, she said, "Are you trying to tell me that I don't care about you and just want to have some fun, so I should stop bothering you?"

I was thinking too much and even spoke in Northeastern dialect.

"That's about what I mean." Xu Wen nodded.

With his experience of watching Douyin in his previous life, he could barely understand what Gu Xingruo was saying.

"It doesn't matter! If you don't believe me, I will try harder. I really want to be with you forever." Gu Xingruo sniffed and chuckled.

"I have a girlfriend." Xu Wen emphasized again.

Gu Xingruo: "It doesn't matter! We can break up even if we are together."

Xu Wen: “.”

Okay, I still don’t understand.

I don't think this is abuse, it's just a common husband-chasing crematorium

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