The story of Rose starts with being a brother

Chapter 215 A man's monologue: a wandering journey in pursuit of love
My name is Meng Yun, and I’m a young man who believes that pure love is supreme.

I grew up in Nagada, Northeast China. My mother taught me not to fall in love too early, so whenever female classmates wrote me love letters and asked me to go to the woods behind the school, I would sternly refuse them.

But I was also very envious of those boys in the senior grades who could ask girls to go to the billiard hall after school every day. Even in a smoky black Internet cafe where the fee was one dollar an hour, there were still girls who would accompany them all night, even if those girls didn't know how to play billiards or play other games at all, even if they could only look at their nails and listen to the boys bragging there.

Later, when I became a senior and was regarded as the handsome senior by my junior classmates, I began to envy my junior classmates again.

Because at that time I felt that this was the purest love.

The girl stayed up all night and got nothing, and couldn't even add sausage to her instant noodles, but she was still willing to accompany the boy like this. Doesn't this prove love?
But because of my mother's instructions, I couldn't reply after the girls wrote me love letters. I could only turn a blind eye to them when I checked whether their class was wearing red scarves or doing eye exercises. After the girls asked me to go to the grove and I rejected them, I could only accept their gifts and then sit with them at noon to have lunch, occasionally holding hands, occasionally hugging, and occasionally kissing. That's all.

My classmates said that I was in a premature love relationship. What a joke. Is this a premature love relationship?
I'm just friends with them!

So whenever I passed by the classes of my female friends and caused their classmates to make a fuss, I got a little angry. Isn't this causing me trouble?
Can it be love if the couple neither sticks out their tongue nor goes into the woods or corn fields?

One time when I was going home from school, I saw corn swaying in the village chief's corn field. I thought they were rabbits, so I tried to sneak over to catch them. But before I got close, I saw two white butts.

I was so scared that I almost screamed!
Fortunately, I learned a lesson from reading martial arts novels when I was young: only those who can remain calm even when faced with a catastrophe can become masters. So even when the teacher caught me reading novels during class and my butt was swollen from being spanked, I didn’t say a word. When the girls comforted me, I was able to sit down on the chair calmly and said lightly, “It’s okay, it’s okay.”

I guess this is also a key factor that increases my attractiveness in the eyes of girls at school. The price I pay is that my mother often complains that there is a thief in the house and that he steals every bottle of safflower oil I buy.

So with this kind of psychological quality, when I see people discussing love in the corn field in front of me, I can quickly calm down and move to a more hidden corner to peek, but unfortunately I can't see their faces.

The sky is the quilt, the ground is the bed, and the cornfield is the green tent. I think this is also love.

It was only later, when I saw the village chief being chased around the village by his wife with a hoe, that I realized that among the adults in the village, the relationship between the village chief and the widow Liu at the east end of the village was not love.

If that is the case, then the old director of the steel factory and his daughter-in-law who occasionally dance together in the town's dance hall are not in love, and the love of the cuckold man is not love.

I think it is because of the negative lessons I learned from adults when I was a child that made me so determined in pursuing true love!
I just want to find the pure love like that I had in my school days.

Later, I was admitted to the southwest from the northeast and came to Chengdu to attend university.

From now on, the sea is wide enough for fish to leap and the sky is high enough for birds to fly.

Perhaps every student has heard this sentence from their teacher in junior high or high school.

"Everything will be easy when you get to college. No one will care about you. You can have fun however you want and date however you want!"

The truly powerful lies are not entirely false, but ones that are mixed with truth and falsehood. Therefore, this sentence that every teacher says, which is neither true nor false, coaxes students into entering university year after year.

Students who are struggling in the sea of ​​books and studies are also willing to have a taste of this big cake. Nothing is better than quenching thirst by looking at the plum!
Not long after I entered college, I met a girl who I thought was my love.

Her name is Rosie. I met her when I registered for school at the beginning of the semester, and my heart started beating faster for her involuntarily.

Although my heart often beat like this when I was in junior high school and high school, and even when I saw Widow Liu, it would beat like this, and it wasn't just my heart that beat. Well, since that day when I secretly saw the wonderful love between the village chief and Widow Liu, I never dared to look her in the eye again.

But it doesn’t matter. Since my heart beat like this when I saw Rosie, it proves that she is most likely my love.

Isn’t it said in a book?
There are 20,000 people in this world who will fall in love with you at first sight, but unfortunately you may not meet any of them in your entire life.

I feel that I am very lucky. I have met several people like this in my life. The one I am meeting now is Rosie, and I have a feeling that she will be a very unusual one among those 20,000 people.

Otherwise my heart rate wouldn't be so crazy, like a war drum beating in my chest, urging me to ride my horse and wield my sword to get her back.

Although the frequency dropped during military training, there was no other way. The sun was scorching, and there were not as many sunscreen cosmetics as there are now. Even Rosie, a fair-skinned girl, was tanned.

But it doesn’t matter. After the military training, the sound of war drums in my chest sounded again. It’s time to attack.

However, just when I was preparing for battle, Rosie was kidnapped!

Things change unpredictably. It turns out that I'm not the only one who has my eyes on her.

From then on, I understood a truth: when it comes to love, you can't wait too long. The situation on the battlefield is ever-changing and the results are fleeting. By the time you finish wiping your armor and sword, feeding your horse and sleeping, your target is long gone!

So, after this defeat, I officially turned into a fish in the sea and a bird in the sky, no longer bound by the net cage!
My heart keeps beating "thump thump", and my love keeps running towards me.

In fact, regarding college, not only did the teachers tell a lie, many students also told a lie.

"I didn't have a boyfriend or girlfriend before because my teachers and parents didn't allow me to fall in love too early, not because no one liked me."

Well...pre-university schools actually have a very good feature, which is that they will forcibly eliminate all differences among students except their grades.

For example, wearing uniform school uniforms can make the differences in students' family backgrounds less obvious, and not letting them fall in love too early can make the differences in students' attractiveness to the opposite sex less obvious...

However, just like some classmates can be seen to have a better family background even if they wear the same school uniform as you, even if early love is not allowed, some classmates are popular with the opposite sex... There is no need to make excuses saying that the face cannot be covered, some people can have a good relationship with the opposite sex without relying on their faces.

However, after entering university, many students made the sad discovery that the fact that they were single had little to do with the prohibition of premature love.

I am very lucky. No, not lucky, but I have such ability. I know that I have good popularity with the opposite sex since elementary school.

Although I didn't dare to engage in an open premature love affair due to my mother's high pressure, the hands of the girls I touched and the mouths of the girls I kissed could probably be put together into a deck of cards.

Of course, this is not puppy love, that is, falling in love early... Is this love? Obviously not!

However, after coming to Chengdu to attend university, my journey to pursue love instantly accelerated.

Although I was sad for a while because Rosie was taken away by someone else, it doesn’t matter. How could a young man of eighteen or nineteen hang himself on a tree?

In fact, I am not a casual man. Every relationship I have is signaled by my heartbeat.

Doesn’t pure love start with a heartbeat?
But, perhaps it’s because of the different times. In the past, transportation was slow, and people had very few people they could fall in love with. Some people might even only fall in love with one person in their entire life. But with the development of the Internet and transportation, the frequency of my falling in love has increased a little bit.

Perhaps the 20,000 people who fall in love at first sight mentioned in the book will no longer be out of reach as the times progress.

Since Rosie, I have met several more people I like. Although the feeling they bring to me is not as strong as that of Rosie, but now that the battle drums have been sounded, I have to follow the call of my heart.

As luck would have it, during this period, Rosie and I were perfectly out of sync. She had a boyfriend and I was single, I had a girlfriend and she was single again. Even my good brother Yu Fei often felt sorry for this strange miss between Rosie and me.

But this also made Rosie and I become brothers, just brothers, yet different from brothers.

Whenever I was heartbroken, I would go to her to talk. She would comfort me and sometimes help me figure out why the relationship failed.

People often say that how to judge whether a person is the love of your heart is that when you are with her/him, you will involuntarily reveal your true feelings, whether it is happy or sad.

Or maybe the other person can tell your joy or sorrow from the fluctuations in your state of mind, and give you comfort and reassure you.

If we judge by this, then there is no doubt that my true love is Rosie.

So I think this method of judgment is inaccurate. After all, sometimes I don’t hide my feelings towards Yu Fei. Especially when talking about some topics between men, we often smile at each other and think of the same obscene things. Could it be that I have other thoughts about Lao Yu?
It must be impossible!

Then it can only prove that I really treat Rosie as a brother?
Moreover, if one can accurately judge whether the other person is one's destined person based on one's inner voice, then I believe that every psychologist in the world will be the beloved of countless patients.

Therefore, this is why in the medical community, the development of feelings between psychologists and their patients is considered a violation of professional ethics.

I think that's a bit like the situation between Rosie and me.

I am a patient and she is my psychologist. The feelings I have for her violate professional ethics and this is not love between us.

Later I graduated from college and was still looking for my love.

I have met many girls and have had my heart broken many times, so many times that I think the war drum in my chest is about to be beaten to pieces.

But I have never been with a girl for more than two years.

It turns out that the journey to pursue love is so long.

I am so lonely even though there are many girls around me, who are beautiful, lively, literary and so on, and make my heart beat every time. But I have only been with them for a short time, and what is left is a deeper loneliness.

The fiery Xiaojie, the melancholy Lingling, the petty-bourgeois Shangdan... and many more girls whose names I can hardly remember. They passed by me briefly, and I also passed by them briefly.

Only loneliness remains.

Sometimes I even envy the previous generation. There was not so much love in their union. In an era when whistling on the street could result in being arrested and sent to jail, love was an abstract and vague concept.

The matchmaker brought together a boy wearing an ill-fitting suit that was one size too big and a girl with a big red flower in her hair. As long as the girl lowered her head shyly and the boy took out candy from his pocket and handed it to the other girl, the matchmaker would clap her hands and shout happily, "It's a good match, they are in love!"

The parents of both sides will then happily begin discussing the bride price and dowry.

Is this love?
I don’t think so, but I’m a little envious.

I have been moved so many times, but I have never felt that the relationship between me and any girl can compare to the relationship of the previous generation, which was not even love.

Until later, I met Lin Jia.

By then, Rosie had already joined a Fortune 500 company, and I could no longer go to her like a patient to soothe my emotional trauma.

Another development of the times. Since 2008, my country has ushered in the second major infrastructure era and the 3G era.

In the era of large-scale infrastructure, as the name suggests, when buildings made of reinforced concrete embody the term "city" as a steel forest, what follows is the realization of "close yet far away" transportation. The term "global village" has appeared in the streets and alleys, and in everyone's after-dinner conversation, which is epoch-making.

3G, the third generation of mobile communication technology, supports high-speed data transmission, has faster speed, larger bandwidth and better user Internet experience.

This is another carnival for netizens like me who grew up with the development of the Internet.

The Internet is very fast now, and every time I go online, I will change the person I like once or even many times.

Twenty thousand may not be enough for me. Just when I was sadly thinking that I could no longer pursue love by the frequency of my heartbeats, Lin Jia appeared.

At that time, I was a small supervisor in a design company, and she was just a small salesperson. When I went to her company to discuss business, I met her unexpectedly.

The moment I saw her, the drums that should have been mute and broken were struck again, and made a deep and loud sound. The sound of the drums mobilized every cell in my body. They were ready to fight again and roared at me in unison: "Lead us to charge again!"

So I went for it. I was willing to take another gamble, this time it would be mine, true love.

Fortunately, my bet was right.

From childhood to adulthood, this is the first time, and perhaps the only time, that I have invested such deep emotions in a person of the opposite sex other than my mother.

I love Lin Jia.

It turns out that true love feels like this.

As gorgeous as summer flowers and as sweet as autumn fruits, it is worth my hard pursuit for so many years.

In order to better protect this love, I decided to start a business. Money is a man's courage and it is also the power to protect love.

In fact, Lin Jia does not have high material demands. She does not demand to be rich as those popular chicken soup literatures say.

At that time, I could only let her squeeze into the small rental house with me. From the door to the living room, bedroom and kitchen, all our belongings were filled. If we suddenly bought some big item, we might not even have to turn around to make room for each other.

But we still love each other very much, and she never complains or blames anything about it.

She was very beautiful, the most beautiful girl in class. Many of her classmates and colleagues were surprised that she would live in a rental house with me. But amidst all the surprise, there was more ridicule, ridicule at her and at me.

But she never paid any attention to it. No, she only pretended to ignore such things when she was in front of me. Sometimes when I woke up in the middle of the night, I would see her arguing on the phone with colleagues or classmates who had done weird things to her, and she always ended up deleting and blocking those people.

I think no man would remain unmoved in this situation, and this also made me more determined to start my own business.

Entrepreneurship is a word that makes people excited just by hearing it.

It represents hope and the future. For me, this word leading to the future is to better protect the present, to protect Lin Jia, and to protect love.

But at the same time, entrepreneurship also brings risks, and it means immediate poverty before the future arrives.

My life, which was already tight, became even more difficult when I started my business.

But Lin Jia was very considerate of me. At that time, the living expenses of her and I were basically supported by her salary.

At this moment, I seemed to experience the mutual support of the previous generation.

Compared to them, the love between Lin Jia and I is true love.

Whenever I finished my business and it was already dark, Lin Jia was still in her little nest in the rental house, watching soap operas to kill time while waiting for me to come home. When I came back, she would reheat the cold food and then eat with me.

Lin Jia has a special skill, which is that she likes to break the eggs when making instant noodles so that all the soup can be absorbed into them.

I swear this is the best instant noodles I have ever eaten in my life.

But in fact, this is just an ordinary bowl of egg instant noodles, but I don’t know why it makes me obsessed.

I think there should also be a seasoning called "love" added here.

Love is abstract and illusory, but it can be attached to anything and add extra and better value to it.

I was reminded of a TV series I watched before called "Love Apartment".

On Valentine's Day's Eve in the first film, Lu Zhanbo's year-end bonus was only enough to give Lin Wanyu a coat or a necklace. When he was struggling with this, his friend Lu Ziqiao said to him: "If such a thing is given to her sincerely by a man, it will be given additional value, such as deep affection, so such a thing is more precious than another one."

Similarly, after the gender swap, Lin Jia's egg noodles, which should have been ordinary, became extraordinary after being infused with her affection.

And given our IOU financial situation, the only hobby she had was to go to the half-price movies with me on Tuesdays.

With her conditions, she could find a man who would allow her to go to high-end restaurants and expensive amusement parks at will, but she only wanted to watch a half-price movie with me.

Even if there was a movie she really wanted to see, she would not add any more burden to our budget. If the movie was taken off the screen because of a delay due to my work that day, she would just sit there and sulk.

At that time, the words I said most were: "When we have money."

Under the dim yellow light of the rental house, she accompanied me through my poorest times.

But later, when I was lying on the expensive mattress in the large flat in the city center worth millions and reminiscing about it, I thought that the experience of turning over in that cramped rental house and making the small bed creak must have been my richest time.

Because I have the wholehearted love of a girl, and I have also obtained the love that I have been pursuing for a long time.

The times of poverty will eventually pass, and my entrepreneurial journey will finally bear fruit.

I was finally able to move Lin Jia from the rental house to live in a spacious house.

But just as the beauty of summer flowers only lasts for a moment and the sweetness of autumn fruits only lasts for a moment, my love with Lin Jia has gradually come to an end.

I always say "When we have money..."

It turns out that I can only do these seven words that can be displayed. Those things in the ellipsis that I can't remember are what I really need to do.

Unfortunately, I forgot. Why did I forget?
I don’t know, I don’t know why I don’t even know the reason for forgetting.

Lin Jia accompanied me from a rental house to a big house, and from 3G to 4G. In five years, we have gained a lot and also lost a lot. What we have may be lost in the future, but what we have lost, I think, will never come back.

Five years!

It can open up an oasis of thousands of acres in the vast sea of ​​sand, it can make a steel forest rise from the uninhabited wasteland, and it can also gradually destroy a love that was thought to be indestructible.

Just as summer flowers wither and autumn fruits rot, my love with Lin Jia has also come to an end.

It is said that nine out of ten love stories in the world end in tragedy. I have always been dismissive of this statement in the past. I think it is nothing more than the regret of those who cannot protect their love afterwards!

But later I understood that this sentence was not false. When I said this sentence, I found that what I thought at that time was not completely wrong. It turns out that I really regret it.

I also recalled that when I accompanied Lin Jia to watch some romance movies, the male and female protagonists had misunderstandings and could never explain themselves or remained silent. I really didn’t understand at that time, and even thought it was melodramatic and boring. Until I was in the situation myself, I was even more silent than them.

Is this love sweet? Is it bitter? It’s both!

I still remember the promise we made when we were snuggling together and watching "A Chinese Odyssey" in that rental house: if we left each other one day, I would dress up as Zhizunbao and shout "Lin Jia, I love you" ten thousand times in the most crowded place, and she would die of an allergy to mangoes.

Later, when I really dressed up as Zhizunbao to fulfill my promise, I found that there was a misunderstanding. Fortunately, it was just a misunderstanding.

I haven't lost this love, nor have I become lonely again.

Even though I met Xiao Meng during this period, it was just an act of deliberate provocation towards Lin Jia when I was briefly separated from her.

Just like when a child is wronged at home, he or she will threaten to run away from home. In fact, he or she just wants to make the adults anxious because of his or her running away from home, as if this is the only way to prove that the other person still loves him or her.

It’s childish, but who can not be childish in a relationship?
Later, Lin Jia went on a business trip, and I still kept in touch with her online. The unknown speculation and expectations due to being in different places made me once again savor the heart-pounding feeling I had when I was with her at the beginning.

As long as the heart is still beating, then the love is still there.

Until I met Xia Lu, the girl who made my heart beat fast again.

We had the same ridiculous experience, which was attending our ex's wedding together.

Then she became one of my 20,000 favorite guests.

As the times advance at a rapid pace, our love is also developing rapidly.

From meeting to falling in love, and then to knowing each other, yes, we fell in love first, then got to know each other, and then got married, it only took less than three months.

This is equivalent to less than one twentieth of the time I spent with Lin Jia, and two percent of the time I knew Luo Xi.

But things in this world are unpredictable, and the charm of life largely comes from unknown changes.

I married Xia Lu.

Xia Lu is also a beautiful girl who makes me feel loved.

I think my wandering journey in pursuit of love has come to an end with Xia Lu.

In love, there is no such thing as who starts first, who lasts longer, or who is most unforgettable and who will definitely be with the other to the end.

At different times, I met different people, fell in love with different people, and married different people. I think the journey of pursuing love is probably the same for other people in the world.

I love Xia Lu and marry her, and that's enough.

Now, I have a wife and am about to have a child.

The past may go with the wind.

I remembered my good brother Yu Fei told me that as long as I managed my time well and used all kinds of beastly means, I could be a qualified scumbag. If I hadn’t lost all my love overnight, I would have almost believed it!
My name is Meng Yun, and I am a young man who believes that pure love is supreme.

This is my story and my ending.

(End of this chapter)