Practical teaching: Starting from the soul traveling through Dragon Garden

Chapter 11 Shiina Hiyori's Monologue

I seem to have changed, becoming childish and blind, and the culprit for this change is Ryuen.

I didn't want to change from the beginning. I just wanted to find a quiet place to read. My world is in books, and I shouldn't be busy with classes.

It was Ryuen who dragged me into this chaos, but why me? Why did Ryuen call out my name at the beginning of the school year, even though we didn't know each other before.

Does he like me? No, maybe not. Ryuen just likes to flirt with pretty girls. He has already flirted with quite a few girls, hasn't he?
Maybe Ryuen is such a frivolous person. He said that superficial people don't judge people by their appearance, but I feel that his inner heart is very different from his appearance. I want to explore his heart and want to understand him. Is this a romantic feeling?

No, no, it's just curiosity. I just want to understand the book Longyuan.

He has no sense of boundaries, he touches me easily, he is also very rude, he snatches my hairband, but other than that he doesn't do anything else offensive! I don't understand him, he must have some feelings for me.

I don't have any particularly good friends in this school, and I don't want to maintain that kind of false friendship, but Ryuuen seems to be different. Even if I try to get rid of him or escape from him, he will pull me back to his side.

I don't seem to have the right to reject him. Ah, this is a bit self-deceiving. I don't have the courage to reject him. No, it's my heart that I don't want to reject him. Why?
Do I like him?
Probably not, he is not my type! In my mind, the prince should also like reading, be quiet, polite and modest.

But Ryuen is rude and frivolous! But he is indeed knowledgeable, his opinions, the books he has read, his thoughts, he is really a mystery, a mysterious man, I can't see through his feelings.

He called out my name so easily, Hiyori. He was the first person in school to call me that. Even though it was in a text message, I didn't feel disgusted. Should I be happy? Does this mean that our relationship has taken a step closer? No, Ryuen just wanted me to help him stop someone. He has always been like this, calling out other people's names so easily. In his heart, I may not be that special.

Why did he ask me to stop the boy from Class D? Was it to make it easier for him to bully the girl with big breasts? Damn it! Boys are always attracted to girls with big breasts! Ryuuen is such a superficial man! Obviously, the value of a woman does not lie in her breasts!
Does he like that girl? Does he want to force that girl? I saw him grabbing that girl's breasts. Although it was the girl who took the initiative, Long Yuan did not refuse. Dirty girls only use their dirty bodies to seduce men. I hate that girl!
I really want to know what happened between them, but why is Longyuan unwilling to explain to me?
It’s funny to think that Ryuuen got hit in the face by a girl.

Is it funny? Don't lie to yourself. I wanted to rush out at that time, but I held back. I also wanted to care about him and help him treat the wound on his face, but why didn't I do anything or even say a word of concern?

I still care about why Ryuen didn't explain it. And the last kiss. What does Ryuen mean?

I lay on the bed, letting my hair fall, and gently touched my forehead, where Ryuuen left a mark.

I am very distressed. I have changed and become less and less like myself. I don't want to see Long Yuan in my mind anymore. I want to change back, but is it really okay to change back?
I don’t know, and I don’t want to think about it anymore.

Instead of thinking about Ryuen, I forced myself to think about things related to reading, and the plot of "The Little Prince" which I read recently.

The book is about the little prince who traveled to other planets after quarreling with the rose and met all kinds of people. In the end, he returned to the asteroid B612 with the help of the snake.

Am I a rose or a fox?

Don’t think about it. I am who I am, Shiina Hiyori. I am not Ryuuen’s rose, nor am I his fox. We are just book friends. Yes, we are just book friends.

I should keep some distance between me and Long Yuan.

After figuring it out, I was ready to go to bed, when suddenly I remembered that I had planned to go to the store to buy a handkerchief. I forgot about it, so I'll go this Saturday and buy a few black headbands by the way, as it's time to replace mine with new ones.

I fell asleep, a deep sleep. I forgot what I dreamed about. I only remember that when I opened my eyes, I was in a very happy mood.

(End of this chapter)