Iron Snow Clouds

Chapter 5047 (Five Thousand and Forty-Seven) Reflection
"You said that your discomfort passed quickly. What was the reason for that?" asked the Gray Hand Man.

"Maybe... maybe it's because I've become indifferent to some things... I don't care so much about hypocrisy, and I don't want to hide away, so... so I let myself stay under the spring sun, and after staying for a while... I felt... I felt the feeling of being illuminated by the spring sun... It was so good. Warm... and comfortable. The spring sun doesn't have the scorching feeling of the summer sun... It doesn't give people a sense of cruelty. The winter sun doesn't have a scorching feeling, but... but the biting cold wind in winter itself, and that... blizzard that I once saw that buried people... can also give people a sense of cruelty." The man said, "Not only that, I saw the light reflected on the bright grass at that time, and I... I really like to see that kind of light, that kind of light... I don't know how to describe it... It just gives people a feeling... I don't know how to say it... Or as I said just now, it seems to be talking to me..."

"What do you think it's telling you?" asked the Gray Hand Man.

"I don't understand... I definitely don't understand." The man said, "I didn't intend to understand, but... but it seems that when I heard its voiceless words, I... I felt as if... it was telling me... not to do something that would end my life. I... I don't know how to put it more clearly... Maybe... maybe the grass itself is a life, and the sunlight it reflects... seems to be talking to me silently... Those words themselves... are related to life? I... I don't know... These are all what I came up with now, and I feel a little absurd myself, but... but I will tell you whatever I think... I am not a person who wants to deceive you... I don't know what I am thinking. I don’t know what I will think about at any time. Actually, when I tell you this, my heart is a little confused... The feeling is very complicated... A feeling that seems to be unclear... After getting rid of that feeling, now I think about it... Actually, life... is just like that... What is life? Isn’t it just something that doesn’t count? Yes... This should be my normal thinking. Hey, I don’t know why I thought so much just now... So many abnormal things... Maybe it’s just because you asked that... But... No matter what caused me to think that way, what I told you must be the truth in my heart... What I think in my heart... I can only say... I didn’t lie to you... Really... I really didn’t lie to you. "

The Gray Hands Man listened to that person talking a lot again, and naturally felt a little dissatisfied. However, because he had experienced the despair before, the Gray Hands Man did not feel annoyed again at this time.

The Gray Hand Man said patiently, "It's okay. Just tell me whatever comes to your mind. I didn't say you would deceive us."

"Oh...oh...I see." The man said, "Yeah...you shouldn't think so. Am I...am I overthinking again? I don't know...why do I overthink? Sometimes...sometimes it's hard to control...my thoughts...it seems that I can't control them that easily...I...there's nothing I can do."

(End of this chapter)