The Spirit World

Chapter 839 Reincarnation Chapter My dear... My dear wolf...

I'm so sorry, my dear wolf.

I should say sorry to you, maybe that can ease your sorrow.

I don't understand, I can't respond, I can't imagine.

I am not a kind sheep.

I have, to be honest, a lot of bad intentions.

I am not someone who can be deeply loved.

I am not someone who can make others... so affectionate and loving.

Perhaps I should be able to understand or comprehend such a thing.

My expectations for you and myself should never come back to me.

I am unwilling and unable to carry so many heavy things.

I should be a carefree, heartless person who doesn't care about anything more than anyone else in this world.

I am just a sheep.

It is just a person who does not need care from others, is treated affectionately by others, and can respond to the affection of others.

I am too, too self-deprecating to others, not just because I am a sheep and I will not, and do not want to, hurt others.

But when I think about it and do it this way, I can’t do anything at all… and I can’t respond…

How I don't want myself to be like that...

A person who goes with the flow.

So I'm rebelling.

My dear wolf.

How inferior I am.

How full of despair I am.

How much I want to be resolute. I want to be reckless. I want to use everything I have to love, love... love...

I have always been, and should be, a person...

I think so...

My dear wolf...

I should always think so...

My dear wolf...

I should always be a person, you should believe me, and I should do the same.

So lonely, so isolated, so depressed.

I should accept loneliness, I should accept this incomplete self.

I know that your love is selfless and does not require any return from me. It does not require any return from me.

This makes me even more...unrelieved.

I am so small, so...

In this way, I should respond to your love one by one...

It is so insignificant and so unworthy.

I'm working hard, I'm changing, I'm using all I have to respond, to make myself worthy of your love.

My dear sheep.

I really don’t know how I can deserve your love… How can I, like this, get your love without hesitation… I, like this, I have low self-esteem… I can only live in this identity, this insignificant me…

Accepting, selfishly, your love.

I am just a sheep after all...

My dear wolf...

I shouldn’t…

I should……

I……

I can't explain it clearly...

You know……

I can’t…still feel this way…

I deserve to be alone...

I deserve it, to bear all this alone...

It's all what I deserve... Everything is...

I deserve this for being like this...

I don’t want to…

I do not accept...

I don’t argue…

Nor can...

I am so sad...

I really...

I can’t…

I can’t do this…

I do not know what to do……

I can’t imagine…

I can't respond...

my love.

my dear……

My dear wolf...

My dear everything...

Please forgive my incompetence...

Please forgive my insignificance...

Please forgive me...

Such a deep...

This is the kind of thing that I can’t even forgive myself for…

I don’t have time these two days, I’m too busy…

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