Can not doing what one wants be called rebirth?

Chapter 280 278. The Meaning of Forever

The moonlight was gentle, passing through a corner of the curtains and landing on the big bed in the hotel suite.

Guan Yongyi squinted his eyes and could clearly hear his own heartbeat.

Plop, plop, plop.
It's really like what people often say, like a little deer jumping rhythmically in your chest.

She suddenly recalled everything that had happened since she met Lu Jincheng.

The first time they were alone together was when she asked Lu Jincheng to have dinner with her, saying that she wanted to "thank him for his help in moving."

The second time they were alone together was when Lu Jincheng went to the law firm and consulted on some legal matters. She then dropped him off at school.

The third time was one day before her birthday, when Lu Jincheng gave her a kitten.

the fourth time.
Until that time, Lu Jincheng used a lame excuse and a long-winded reason to run to her house to chat and relax.

The two watched a movie, drank craft beer, and chatted casually.

The big boy with the sunny smile, after brewing a series of foreshadowing words for a very long time, gently pulled her little hand.

Guan Yongyi actually felt that perhaps he should be more reserved.

But maybe he was drunk at the time, or maybe it was some other reason.

But she just slapped her wrist symbolically and let him hold her hand and continue talking.

This was the first time in Guan Yongyi's life that she had such intimate physical contact with a man.

Not long after, Lu Jincheng came to her house to chat in the name of Mianmian.

Although it's a bit unoriginal, the girl who has tasted heart-throb for the first time still feels that everything is fresh, beautiful and worth looking forward to.

And Lu Jincheng had obviously dressed herself up. Every time I saw her, her clothes and hairstyle were spotlessly clean, which set off her strong and firm body, and her outline was vaguely visible in the summer.

Guan Yongyi was very sure that the other party was an experienced driver.

With the tacit approval from last time, Lu Jincheng became more confident.

He made up an excuse, pretending to teach the kitchen newbie how to make fried eggs, and then shook his hand again.

Cooking together, chatting while eating, even if it's just random everyday topics, it feels extraordinarily romantic and interesting.

Holding hands, hugging shoulders, hugging waists, and hugging.

Lu Jincheng took every step carefully, eroding his comfort zone bit by bit.

Continuing to recall, it was that hasty and sudden
first kiss.

She actually didn't have much left of her memory of that day.

She only remembered that at that time, she forgot to dodge.

I felt dizzy and my legs were weak, but I felt like the world was spinning and my whole body was shaking. Just like that, I gave myself my first kiss.

For a moment, it seemed as if time stopped.

The sun rises and the moon sets, the stars move, the earth beneath your feet turns into clouds, the air around you is as warm and sweet as ice cream, and all the scenery under the blue sky turns into some kind of halo.

Since childhood, Guan Yongyi has fantasized about her first kiss many times.

Every girl reads novels, watches TV, and watches online dramas.

The mothers around me often reach out and cover their eyes when these scenes happen.

At this time, I would sneer from the bottom of my heart and complain secretly.

"It's just a kiss, so what?"

But when all this really happened, she was panicked yet extremely sweet to find that just these things could make people feel like they were falling into the clouds.

As they continued to reminisce, the two confirmed their relationship and the distance between them gradually became closer.

Until it showed up here.

"Wait a moment."

Guan Yongyi subconsciously called for a stop.

Those pitiful eyes and that low, hoarse voice sounded a bit sweet.

"Ok?"

"I, I'm a little scared."

It's fear, it's terror, it's something else.

But it’s not impossible.

Her voice was as soft as a mosquito's buzz, but it represented a certain firmness.

This is actually the most direct declaration.

After saying this, Guan Yongyi closed his eyes tightly and asked for whatever he wanted.

It seemed like dozens of seconds had passed before she felt her whole body floating in the air.

A strong arm passed through her neck, supported the junction of her thighs and calves, and lifted her up.

She was not as tall as Zhou Si Ning, but her body was more delicate. Being held in her hands like this, she didn't dare to open her eyes.

The lights in the room had long been turned off.

As soon as she was carried to the center of the big bed, the short-haired girl immediately felt a rough surface on her back, as if someone had put something under her.

She just lay there, waiting. Lu Jincheng half leaned against the head of the bed, making some rustling noises.

Her cheeks were already flushed from being drunk, and her pretty eyes were kept closed because she was embarrassed. But at this moment, she could not help but open her eyelids a little to peek at what the man was doing.

She only saw the last move.

Lu Jincheng untied the restraints and kicked his pajamas off the head of the bed like trash.

She didn't dare to look.

She lay on her back with her eyes closed, letting him kiss her little by little starting from her forehead.

She knew that Lu Jincheng liked the heroic look in her eyes and eyebrows the most, saying that she looked very much like a female star from the 1980s and 1990s, and he would praise her all the time.

From the forehead to the eyes, to the tip of the nose, to the cheeks, and then down along the white skin, he learned it by himself.

Do you like it?

He should like it, right?

That's why I linger so much.

It felt like there were a few little people dancing hand in hand at the tip of my heart, and it started to feel hot again. It was a completely unfamiliar experience.

I couldn't help but bend my left and right legs together, using the overlapping of the inner skin to relieve the lingering tension.

He was like rowing a boat, swaying more than a hundred centimeters from the tips of his hair to the tips of his toes.

It was occupied little by little.

Sweat, breathing, fingers, rising and falling constantly, making him feel completely confused.

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She didn't know what the correct response was.

I can only blindly follow the call of my genes, the tones seem to be locked together, and it seems that it is useless to control them deliberately.

"Hmm, hmm."

She felt that the taut string in her mind seemed to have a crack.

It's going to break.

Guan Yongyi twisted her body, and was stuck by the man's waist, unable to close.

Lu Jincheng held the ankle in his hand, holding it tightly.

Or rather, it had already been lost.

I was already defenseless when I was applying body lotion in the bathroom just now.

My legs are so slender and white that even girls can't help but love to touch them.

But at this moment, as if with the dual blessing of body lotion and moonlight, it appears more gentle and full of inexplicable attraction.

How would he look at me?
Oh my God, isn't this too embarrassing?

The more I think about it, the harder it is to control myself.

Guan Yongyi seemed to instinctively want to cover it up, but another kind of expectation and fantasy concealed hope.

Soon the expectation came true.

Lu Jincheng placed his hands on his waist, with his fingertips curved and hooked along both sides.

"Baby, lift yourself up."

Such an extremely gentle voice is simply irresistible.

She kept her eyes closed throughout the process, using her thighs to lift half of her body and arch her waist.

She cooperated with him and snuggled into his arms.

Even though the windows and doors were closed, she just felt like a cool breeze blowing across her whole body.

Her figure is the kind that everyone envies. She will never gain weight no matter how much she eats. She is definitely not comparable to those ordinary beauties who only know how to diet to lose weight.

Part of the reason for choosing this narrowest style is because.

The edge of the fabric can be supported by the protruding bones on both sides in the area between your pelvis and thighs.

The firm lower edge of the abdomen allows the two support points to form a flat line.

This is the most charming pelvic dimple for girls.

It is a natural ravine that symbolizes the perfect form and final posture.

Since there is a cool breeze blowing at this moment, it must be
He must have lifted the cotton and linen fabric from the position of the two pelvic bones.

Let him go.

No matter how innocent the outfit is, it must be restored.

No matter how perfect the cover-up is, it will be removed.

This was his lover, so of course he didn't tear her apart with force. He just slowly and gently rubbed her from top to bottom.

So what’s next?

Do you want to hide under the quilt?

"Lv Jincheng, wait a moment."

She was too shy and her mind was too confused.

She was a little scared and confused, and couldn't help but call out Lu Jincheng's name as if she was calling for help.

"I, I'm a little scared..."

The short-haired girl clenched and released her pearly teeth, and her arms wrapped around the man's neck, making a sound like a kitten shivering in the cold wind.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'm here."

Lu Jincheng's voice was a little hoarse, and his Adam's apple made a strange sound.

He leaned forward on his knees, supporting his entire body with his forearms and elbows, covering the girl.

Like all girls, Guan Yongyi has fantasized about this scene countless times.

And many of my truly important and unfamiliar experiences were given to this man.

This man made her forget the boundaries and her heart was in turmoil.

Holding hands, hugging, kissing, being touched
But she didn't expect that she would have some special and unfamiliar experiences.

Wait a minute, this is probably a more important experience that is unavoidable.

It all happened in Shanghai this winter, it all happened in her best friend's hometown, it all happened when she was in the most chaotic mood.

When chaos, guilt, excitement, embarrassment, confusion and other messy emotions were intertwined, she even felt it was a bit absurd and ironic.

Although the hotel was luxurious enough, it was by no means the scene where she had given herself up as she had imagined.

It was obviously not the scene she had imagined, but she was willing from the bottom of her heart.

Maybe it’s just like the topic I prepared for the debate, the standard of love is reserved for those who don’t love.

When the person you truly love appears, even if he or she does not meet any of your standards, you will still sink hopelessly.

That is certainly the same thing.

Whether emotionally or physically, she was sinking, and so was he.

A couple with deep love, a natural relationship, and a spring of blossoming and bearing fruit.

That's it now.

Her whole body seemed to be burned through by fire, and her blushing face could be seen clearly even in the darkness.

The girl no longer resisted, her misty eyes full of affection as she stared at the man.

"If one day I had a big fight with her, would you leave me?"

".How can it be."

Lu Jincheng lowered his head, gently kissed her on the cheek, and laughed in silence.

"Don't talk nonsense. How could I not want you?"

"What if?"

"No what ifs, no ifs, no ifs."

"That means you will always love me, right?"

"Yes, of course."

Lu Jincheng couldn't help but grin, and patiently reached out his hand and scratched the tip of her nose.

I didn’t expect that the usually aloof Guan Yongyi would also nestle in the arms and ask questions to the little girl.

"fraud."

Guan Yongyi still remained lying on his back with his little mouth pouting.

"But there is no forever in this world."

The short-haired girl's tone was actually a little depressed.

"When I say I'll love you forever, I don't mean there really is forever in this world."

Lu Jincheng buried his head in her short hair and slowed down his voice.

"It's the degree to which I love you at this moment that gives me the courage to say forever."

In the darkness, the girl's pupils seemed to be glowing.

She took the initiative to kiss him, pulling the man's head closer and pulling it towards herself without limits.

This was the best answer she had ever heard about forever since she was a child.

The switch of love seemed to be full of magic, like a bolt of lightning striking the bodies of the two.

The affection for each other was like a flood that broke through the dam, causing the sea level to rise rapidly.

Until the lovers who have become one are gradually drowned.

"dbwabdawdbaef, ok?"

As if looking forward to the upcoming hug.

Guan Yongyi whispered softly, but hugged him tightly, her short hair at the temples was wet with sweat, and her skin was rosy and smooth in the moonlight.

"Okay."

She closed her eyes.

She gritted her teeth and tried her best.

She took a long, deep breath.

come on.

It’s okay if it hurts a little.

"ah!!!"

She clenched her brows tightly as she faced a heavy blow that was unforgettable.

"you you walndlawliefsb"

The sob that had been lingering in my heart for half a day finally came out of my mouth.

The flood control embankment collapsed in an instant, and the person's consciousness went from blurred to clear. The voice that had been mute all night suddenly became clear, almost sharp enough to wake up the neighbors.

She was held tightly in Lu Jincheng's arms.

It was too deep, the two people hugged too deeply and too tightly.

She just felt dizzy and couldn't tell what she was feeling.

Is it wonderful, bitter, or just something I imagined?

She wanted to regain her sanity, but found that it was gone. She wanted to complain about the pain, but found that her vocal cords were numb. She wanted to struggle, but found that all her limbs and joints were completely weak.

Guan Yongyi almost felt that he had fallen asleep again, and time seemed to have stopped.

She just lay there, her body completely limp, as if she was about to melt into Lu Jincheng's body.

Just lie there, savoring the aftertaste of paradise, closing your eyes and looking at the colorful halo in the air.

I don’t know if it was a dream or reality, but I could vaguely hear the voice of my lover.

Lu Jincheng hugged himself and told the unfinished eternity.

“In fact, it’s never that far away.”

"After 650,000 hours, when we are oxidized into wind, we can become two adjacent bubbles on the same glass of beer, and two grains of dust nestling under the same street lamp."

"The atoms in the universe will not annihilate. As long as we love each other, we will be together in the end."

(End of this chapter)