I am the only one who practices magic: I practice magic in the city

Chapter 573 The Real Me
Is this Ning Yu?

Fang Yu was somewhat surprised.

Of Liu Feifei's two personalities, Ning Yu's personality is actually closer to a "sexual" state.

Ning Yu's "asexuality" has little to do with "asexuality" among the more than one hundred genders in the West. It is mainly because Ning Yu is essentially a childhood personality created by Liu Feifei.

Moreover, this childhood personality is not the same as Liu Feifei's "real childhood personality," but rather a childhood personality "beautified" by her memories and imagination.

In fact, most children begin to have a vague sense of interest when they are three or four years old, and they may have a crush on someone of the opposite sex when they are five or six years old. Liu Feifei is no exception.

However, Liu Feifei's special experiences caused her to develop a strong sense of self-loathing in her subconscious, making her yearn for the simplicity of childhood and thus creating the "Ning Yu" personality that was similar to but not identical to her real childhood.

This personality lacks any sense of interest and is not interested in either the same or opposite sex.

Therefore, when she was with Fang Yu before, although Liu Feifei was the one in charge, Ning Yu, who shared the feelings, always reacted in a daze and at a loss.

Apart from Liu Feifei, who was emotionally distraught after experiencing a personality breakdown, and briefly pulled Ning Yu out of her predicament, Ning Yu has almost never truly faced this situation on her own, let alone taken the initiative to confront it.

Is this the reward I'm giving her for relieving her of her burden today?
Fang Yu's gaze narrowed slightly, and the initial enchantment essence was activated, revealing Liu Feifei's spirituality in his eyes.

Immediately afterward, Fang Yu couldn't help but frown.

The blue spiritual energy that originally belonged to Ning Yu was surging rapidly under his gaze, and with each surge, the blue spiritual energy would fade a little.

Spiritual breakdown!?

how come?
Liu Feifei naturally possessed more spirituality than others, which allowed her to split into two personalities, enabling each personality to remain independent and relatively stable.

Otherwise, most people would have gone mad or died long ago.

Like some people with DID, who have more than a dozen personalities, the more personalities they have, the more likely they are to have a mental breakdown or die.

In addition, on the day Liu Feifei's spiritual collapse occurred in Haipu, he had already used the "Spirit Stabilization Technique" to re-stabilize the spiritual structure between Ning Yu and Liu Feifei.

Now that the spiritual stability of the two personalities is almost the same as that of ordinary people, how could their spirituality possibly collapse?
Wait, this doesn't seem to be a spiritual breakdown.

Upon closer inspection, Fang Yu realized that this situation was different from what had happened in Haipu a few months ago.

In his vision, as Ning Yu's outer blue spirituality faded, Liu Feifei's inner red spirituality was also changing.

The red aura is also turning lighter, and the dividing line between the two spiritualities is no longer so clear.

"Pay attention, look at me."

Just as Fang Yu was studying him more carefully, Ning Yu, who was sitting on him, cupped his face in her hands, her eyes sparkling, as if she wanted to imprint Fang Yu in her mind.

"Stop for a moment, there's something wrong with you." Fang Yu was about to leave when Ning Yu stopped him again.

"No, this is my first and last farewell."

Ning Yu was breathing rapidly, her eyes glazed over as she looked at Fang Yu.

Looking into Ning Yu's eyes and observing her surging spirit, Fang Yu had a sudden realization.

Is Liu Feifei's spirit about to be reunited?
Fang Yu immediately understood what had happened.

After removing Liu Feifei from the list of peripheral personnel of the Imperial City Bureau's Feiliantai Guanfeng Pavilion, he removed the biggest source of psychological pressure from Liu Feifei.

However, this also caused Liu Feifei's dual personality to lose its psychological basis.

Furthermore, Ning Yu was originally Liu Feifei's yearning for her own purity. When Ning Yu's "purity" disappeared and she developed feelings and a grudge against herself, it was as if Ning Yu had "grown up," further narrowing the differences between their personalities and allowing the two personalities to begin merging again.

Since Liu Feifei is the primary personality and Ning Yu is the secondary personality, this fusion is inevitably dominated by Liu Feifei's "alluring demeanor".

However, the speed of this integration is a bit too fast.

For most people with dissociative identity disorder, even when the different personalities begin to merge, it is an extremely long process that can last for months or even years.

Because DID patients instinctively resist fusion, each personality often tries desperately to retain itself, as these are essentially the patient's "survival strategy".

Judging from their spiritual manifestations, the fusion process between Liu Feifei and Ning Yu is proceeding very, very quickly. At this rate, they may complete the fusion in just a few more minutes.

Such a rapid integration suggests only one possibility: Ning Yu voluntarily relinquished control without any resistance.

In Fang Yu's observation, Liu Feifei and Ning Yu's spirituality was like two giant galaxies colliding, with countless nebulae shattering and reforming in the collision, bursting out with dazzling light.

For every bit of Ning Yu's spirituality that dissipates, Liu Feifei's spirituality grows stronger.

Fang Yu sighed softly.

Well, it's okay, although it's a bit of a shame that we won't be able to have double the happiness anymore.

But an illness is an illness, and if you're sick, you have to get treatment.

Someone has a sunken forehead, but a tumor grows on their forehead and suddenly bulges out. You can't just leave the tumor unremoved because it makes them look prettier.

Fang Yu had previously considered whether to completely separate Liu Feifei and Ning Yu's spirits, use the creation chamber to recreate a body for Liu Feifei, and turn them into two completely different people.

However, after careful examination, it was found that this path was not feasible.

During the Great Arcane Age, the philosophical question of "The Ship of Theseus" did not exist.

There will be no questions like "Who am I, who am I?"

The reason lies in the uniqueness and indivisibility of spirituality in the material world.

The spirituality of intelligent beings is unique; no two spiritual imprints are exactly alike in the world. Spirituality constitutes the subject of the intelligent life form "I".

Although spirituality can be torn to pieces and all spiritual imprints erased in the astral plane, there is no way to divide a complete spirituality in the material plane.

Even if a legendary mage goes to the astral plane to split the spirit, the split spirit will quickly disintegrate, and the spiritual imprints on it will completely disappear, reverting to the most basic spiritual fragments.

Although Liu Feifei's spirituality is divided into two parts, the underlying structure is still interconnected, and it is essentially still a spirituality, only the upper levels are different.

In other words, spiritual reunion is the best outcome for Liu Feifei.

However, this kind of integration is somewhat dangerous; the reconstruction of the spiritual framework requires the consumption of a large amount of life essence.

If the fusion is completed over several months or years, and only a small amount of life essence is extracted each day, the problem is not too big.

However, with such a rapid fusion, Liu Feifei simply doesn't have enough life essence to accumulate. The fusion will fail halfway through, and there is a considerable possibility that it will lead to a mental breakdown.

Furthermore, Liu Feifei's current fusion is more like a devouring; Liu Feifei has devoured Ning Yu's spirituality.

Although Ning Yu took the initiative, when Liu Feifei realized this, she inevitably felt extremely guilty, and might even split off a completely new personality.

Since that's the case, then I'll help you.

Fang Yu drew a circle in the air with his finger and cast a level 2 Desire spell on himself – “Senses Amplification”.

This spell greatly enhances one of the target's five senses, making it exceptionally acute. Despite being a desire spell, it actually possesses considerable practical and supportive capabilities.

This was the first time Fang Yu had used it on himself.

We can't afford not to amplify it. Relying solely on Liu Feifei and Fang Yu without holding back, trying to independently refine essence into qi is just wishful thinking.

After a tremor, Ning Yu's expression shifted, her gaze unfocused, and then, upon refocusing, two streams of tears flowed down her cheeks.

The remaining Ning Yu personality was no longer enough to maintain control of the body, so it retreated into the depths of consciousness, and Liu Feifei took over the body again.

"Little rain, little rain, why?"

Although Liu Feifei couldn't see her own spiritual state, she had just sensed that the outer layer of Ning Yu was becoming weaker and weaker, while she herself was becoming more and more lucid.

Faced with this situation, she had almost no options.

If Liu Feifei had to choose, she would rather be the one who gets swallowed up.

"Feifei, don't cry. You're right, I am you, and you are me. We are one person."

"I haven't disappeared; rather, we've become one again, never to be separated again."

"I love you, and I'm so happy to be with you again."

"I love him too. Being able to experience what it feels like to be in love while I am still an independent person, I have no regrets."

Liu Feifei shook her head and wept. She could feel Ning Yu's consciousness rapidly merging with hers.

At this moment, the thoughts, feelings, memories of the two personalities... countless images flashed rapidly through her consciousness.

Ning Yu's feelings, Ning Yu's memories, Ning Yu's thoughts, at this moment, all became her feelings, her memories, and her thoughts.

She finally understood that all along, it wasn't her protecting Ning Yu, but Ning Yu protecting her, giving her a reason to persevere.

Ning Yu is her, and she is also Ning Yu. She has the same fishing net as Ning Yu, but in order to maintain her anchor point, Ning Yu can only make herself "pure".

"Xiaoyu, Xiaoyu, no, no..." Liu Feifei hugged Fang Yu and kept crying. Her body trembled and her consciousness became hazy.

"Goodbye, Feifei. Please tell him for me that I'm very happy. Ugh, I'm so sleepy. I'm going to sleep."

The already faint blue spirituality uttered its final murmur.

"Hey, if you're going to say goodbye, then say goodbye properly. Why do you need to pass on a message?"

Fang Yu's voice suddenly rang out in the consciousness space that originally contained only Liu Feifei and Ning Yu.

Liu Feifei trembled involuntarily, looking at Fang Yu in disbelief.

Within her consciousness, the last remaining trace of Ning Yu's spirituality emitted a surprised glimmer.

"How...how could you..."

Ning Yu rallied her spirits as if in a final burst of energy before death. Just as she uttered a question, she felt a surge of powerful life force rapidly nourishing her spirit, and her consciousness, which was on the verge of dissipating, was stabilized once again.

"Save Xiaoyu." Liu Feifei naturally heard Fang Yu's voice in her consciousness as well, but she didn't have time to be surprised as to why Fang Yu could speak in her consciousness space. She asked anxiously.

"She's about to disappear!"

"Please, you must have a way, right?" Liu Feifei looked at Fang Yu pleadingly, a far cry from her usual seductive demeanor.

"I'll do anything you ask, as long as you can save her..."

Liu Feifei's habitual path dependence.

Fang Yu shook his head: "Once your spirituality begins to merge, this process is irreversible. If you forcibly separate, your spirituality will dissipate, and at most you can only maintain the current state."

"But this is only temporary. She is too weak right now. Even if you are asleep, her spirit may be involuntarily devoured."

Spirituality?
Liu Feifei blinked; this was the first time she had ever heard this word.

"Your dual personality is essentially your spirituality split into two parts. If you haven't heard of spirituality, that's okay; you can think of it as the soul."

Fang Yu gave a brief explanation.

Tears streamed down Liu Feifei's face. Ning Yu was silent for a moment, then whispered in her mind, "It's really okay, Fang Yu. With you by her side, I have nothing to worry about. You may not know how much Feifei loves you. I've never seen her so happy in all these years."

"Oh, right, don't bully Dongdong anymore. It's so pitiful. It was abandoned when it was just a kitten. Feifei, please take good care of it for me."

Ning Yu raised dozens of stray cats, and Dongdong was the most beloved one among them. Fang Yu had also met it.

"And what about you?" Fang Yu's voice echoed in Liu Feifei's mind, "What are you like?"

"Me? What do you mean by 'me'... I... I..."

Even in her consciousness, Ning Yu could speak haltingly.

Fang Yu smiled slightly and stopped teasing Ning Yu in his mind.

"Although I cannot separate you again, nor can I truly turn you into two people, I can make you truly merge, rather than one being devoured by the other."

Fang Yu said solemnly.

True integration?
Liu Feifei looked at Fang Yu, puzzled.

"Don't understand? Hmm... how should I put it..."

Fang Yu stroked his chin and thought for a moment: "That's right! Have you seen Dragon Ball? Trunks and Goten practiced that fusion technique, which turned them into Gotenks. Also, Goku and Vegeta put on the Potara earrings of the Supreme Kai and fused into Vegito and Gogeta. It's that kind of fusion."

Seeing Liu Feifei's blank expression, Fang Yu was a little disappointed: "Haven't seen it? Never mind, you just need to know that this is not a devouring relationship, but a merging relationship."

"The merged you is no longer the Liu Feifei or Ning Yu of today, but the real you after your personalities have merged."

"Would you like that?"

The real me?

Liu Feifei's breathing quickened: "No matter what, I can't let Xiaoyu disappear alone, even if I... disappear too, I'm willing."

"Fifi!"

Ning Yu was extremely anxious. Wasn't this a case of both of them getting caught in the crossfire?

"Don't worry, none of you will disappear; your spirits will simply re-merge. Ning Yu, your consciousness could disappear at any moment, so I won't ask for your opinion."

After saying that, Fang Yu rubbed his five fingers together slightly, and a transparent test tube that shone with a golden light appeared in his palm.

"If there's anything you want to say to me, tell me in person after we've reunited."

(End of this chapter)