I am the only one who practices magic: I practice magic in the city

Chapter 549 Humanity can only find salvation through its own efforts (4500)

"Shen Lijun! Someone's looking for you downstairs!"

Hearing the dormitory supervisor shouting downstairs again, Shen Lijun slowly opened her eyes.

It was still that familiar dormitory, exactly the same as when I first reincarnated.

Shen Lijun subconsciously stood up, pushed open the screen window, responded to the downstairs, and then froze.

Huh? I can control this body now?

Shen Lijun didn't comb her hair this time; she simply gathered it up, stood up, and went downstairs to the dormitory building.

"Lijun, there's a Youth League dinner tonight, I have to go."

Shu Jianfeng looked at Shen Lijun with trepidation.

Shen Lijun stared at Shu Jianfeng's face in a daze.

Is it still not over?
I've already given up completely, but they still won't let me go?

What exactly is the path to redemption that the voice spoke of?
"Lijun?" Shu Jianfeng saw that Shen Lijun had not spoken, and fear appeared on his face.

"If you don't agree, I won't go. Please don't be angry, okay?"

Shen Lijun snapped out of her daze and looked at Shu Jianfeng's expression with a complicated look in her eyes.

Am I really that scary?

So, it turns out you were just afraid of me.

"The teacher in charge of assigning meals for the Youth League Committee is also going today, so I should go too."

Shen Lijun controlled her emotions, took a deep breath, and smiled.

Shu Jianfeng was stunned for a moment, then his face lit up with unbelievable surprise: "You agree?"

Shen Lijun nodded and looked quietly at Shu Jianfeng: "You'll be graduating and being assigned jobs soon, so it's good to participate in more social activities."

Then Shu Jianfeng remembered something and mumbled, "Uh, there's something else. I heard Gao Lan is going too."

Immediately afterwards, Shu Jianfeng quickly added, "I swear, there's nothing between us, we're just ordinary classmates."

Seeing Shu Jianfeng's anxious expression, Shen Lijun said calmly, "I know, it's okay, you go ahead. I'm going to Anyu Corner tonight anyway."

Shu Jianfeng asked cautiously, "Are you angry?"

Shen Lijun smiled and said, "No, I'm really not angry. I'm not that petty."

Shu Jianfeng still found it hard to believe, looking Shen Lijun up and down.

He had many girls who liked him since he was a child, and he had contact with some of them, but almost every girl who dated him would fall in love with someone else.

Only Shen Lijun, although she wasn't particularly beautiful, was still considered pretty.

Most importantly, Shu Jianfeng could sense that Shen Lijun truly cared about him.

He could even cry all day if he said just one word to another girl because he was jealous.

Although he sometimes finds it annoying and thinks the other person is unreasonable, it gives him a strong sense of emotional security.

Perhaps this is true love?
Since I can't find someone I love, finding someone who loves me isn't bad either.

But now, Shen Lijun's performance has completely exceeded his expectations.

Lijun actually agreed?
Does she not love me anymore?
Besides being afraid of angering Shen Lijun, Shu Jianfeng actually felt a bit anxious and uncertain.

"You're really not angry?"

Shen Lijun gradually adapted to her rebirth, feeling both amused and annoyed: "I'm really not angry. I'm graduating soon, and more socializing is a good thing."

Seeing that Shen Lijun's expression didn't seem fake, Shu Jianfeng breathed a sigh of relief and revealed a happy smile: "Okay, then I'll go."

After saying that, Shu Jianfeng took the initiative to extend his arm and give Shen Lijun a hug.

When Shen Lijun smelled the scent on Shu Jianfeng, she almost burst into tears.

Having lived ten lifetimes, this was the first time Shu Jianfeng had ever taken the initiative to hug her.

The female students from the teachers' college who were passing by looked at the couple with smiles.

Although Fang Yu and Shen Shuyao were not yet born at this time, in a sense, college students of this era were much more open-minded than college students more than 20 years later.

In the dream, Shu Jianfeng did not notice anything unusual about Shen Lijun. After releasing Shen Lijun, he happily waved and turned to leave.

After taking only a few steps, Shu Jianfeng hesitated and turned back, looking hesitant: "Why don't you come with me?"

Shen Lijun was startled, and a warm current she had never felt before flowed through her chest.

It turns out that as long as I can be a little more understanding of him, he will care about me.

What have I been doing all these years?!

Shen Lijun squatted on the ground, sobbing uncontrollably.

"Lijun, Lijun, what's wrong?" Shu Jianfeng hurriedly helped Shen Lijun up.

"You're still angry after all. I'm not going, okay?"

Shu Jianfeng said nervously.

"No, I'm not angry, I'm happy." Shen Lijun wiped away her tears and showed a genuine smile.

Time flies, and years pass quickly. In the dream, Shen Lijun and Shu Jianfeng remarried a year after graduation, and their daughter was born two years later.

After having children, the family was filled with even more laughter and joy.

Although arguments and bickering were inevitable, these past few years have been the happiest of Shen Lijun's ten lifetimes.

It made her almost forget her past life, forget those days that kept her up at night with regret every time she thought about them.

Sometimes she even felt that if this life were to end like this, it wouldn't be a kind of forgiveness from God.

But occasionally, Shen Lijun would still feel a little lost.

Because the daughter is not Shen Shuyao.

Although Shu Jianfeng's father still named the child Shu Yao, the child bears no resemblance to Shen Shu Yao in either personality or appearance.

On the contrary, she is very much like Shen Lijun in the past.

In fact, in these ten reincarnations, the children she gave birth to each time were different, but in the previous reincarnations, she simply did not pay attention to her children.

"Daughter, stop watching TV! You'll be late for school! Hurry up and eat breakfast!"

Like most families with children, Shen Lijun and Shu Jianfeng were like they were in a battle early in the morning, one busy packing things for their daughter and the other busy making breakfast for her.

"I don't want to eat it! I said last night that I wanted a fried egg with soy sauce and sesame oil on one side! Why isn't there sesame oil?"

The little girl with her ponytail had a rather strong temper; she sat in the dining chair looking quite unhappy.

Shu Jianfeng coaxed his daughter, "We're out of sesame oil. Dad will definitely buy some after get off work today, okay?"

"No! You don't love me at all! You're all just pretending! You can't even remember what I said!"

The little girl shoved the plate off the table and onto the floor, shattering it on the ground.

Shu Jianfeng bent down with a helpless expression and picked up the broken pieces of the plate on the ground.

"what!"

Before Shu Jianfeng could react, a sharp shard grazed his finger, and bright red blood immediately flowed out.

"You're so useless, you can't do anything right."

The little girl curled her lip in disdain.

"Snapped!"

The little girl covered her face in disbelief, looking at her mother, who had always been kind, with fear.

"Who taught you to treat your father like that?! Apologize to your father!"

Shen Lijun's eyes blazed with fury as she glared at the little girl.

"Wah~" The six-year-old girl burst into tears.

"She's still young and doesn't understand. Why are you hitting her?" Shu Jianfeng was so startled that he quickly picked up his daughter and hugged her tightly, saying, "Don't cry, baby. Don't cry, baby."

"Ignorant?" Shen Lijun laughed angrily, "When Shu Yao was her age..."

At this point, Shen Lijun suddenly stopped and stood there, stunned.

"Shu Yao? Isn't our daughter Shu Yao?" Shu Jianfeng looked puzzled. "Wife, what are you talking about?"

A hint of sadness lingered in Shen Lijun's eyes, her nose slightly red. After standing there for a long time, she waved her hand and said, "You take... her today. I'm not feeling well." Under Shu Jianfeng's surprised gaze, Shen Lijun returned to her bedroom, locked the door, and wept uncontrollably.

In that instant, she recalled everything she had done to Shen Shuyao in her past life.

Before the divorce, she would beat and scold her daughter. After the divorce, her personality became even more eccentric. Whether it was her life, studies, relationships, or even her daily routine and habits, she would fly into a rage or threaten suicide if her daughter disobeyed her in the slightest.

The slap she gave Xiaoshuyao was actually a slap to herself.

The happier her life is now, the more guilty she feels about her daughter from her past life, and the more she misses her.

"Shuyao, my Shuyao, where are you, my daughter..."

"Why haven't I seen you in all these reincarnations? Mom knows she was wrong, she really knows she was wrong. Please let Mom see you one more time, okay?"

Shen Lijun knelt on the ground, her hands gripping the bedsheets tightly, crying her heart out.

Just then, she felt some solid framework in her mind shatter completely with a snap.

The white light instantly engulfed her consciousness, and in the blink of an eye, Shen Lijun's consciousness reappeared in the thick fog.

This time, however, the voice did not appear. The misty fog churned violently, and all the fog gathered together, forming a portal made of smoke.

The space, which was originally filled with smoke and obscured everything, seemed to be covered by a transparent dome, and outside the dome, countless stars twinkled like breathing.

Shen Lijun stared blankly at the starlight outside the dome.

These starlight points appear both near and far, as if the concept of "distance" has ceased to exist in this space.

The moment she saw the door, without any explanation, she immediately understood that as long as she stepped through this door, she could end this cycle of reincarnation.

"Thank you." Shen Lijun's consciousness bowed to the air.

"Humanity can only find salvation through its own efforts."

That calm voice appeared again.

Just as Shen Lijun was about to ask something, she felt her consciousness involuntarily enter through this doorway.

Amidst the dizzying spin, Shen Lijun felt utterly lost.

ended?
No, it's not over yet; I still have things to do.

"Mom! Mom! Nurse, my mom's awake!"

"Lijun? Lijun?"

In her hazy state, Shen Lijun seemed to hear someone calling her name repeatedly in her ear.

There seemed to be beeping sounds coming from many instruments around.

There were also many chaotic footsteps around him.

The air smelled of disinfectant and plastic.

"Director Han, my mom's awake! Waaaaah! Could you please check on her quickly and see if she's alright?"

Shu Yao? Daughter?
That voice, which I had longed to hear again so many times in my dreams, now resounded in my ears, choked with sobs, real, and filled with anxious cries.

Shen Lijun opened her eyes with difficulty, and could vaguely see many figures.

She tried to move her fingers, but it felt like she was trying to move a frozen piece of wood.

My throat felt as dry as burnt sandpaper; I wanted to call out, but could only manage a faint whisper.

She was unconscious for almost two more days than Shu Jianfeng, and given that her physical condition was already worse than Shu Jianfeng's, her condition after waking up was far worse than Shu Jianfeng's.

Even with intravenous nutrition, ten days of bed rest and no food or water had reduced her body's control to a minimum.

After her pupils gradually adjusted to the light in the room, Shen Lijun finally saw the figure in front of the hospital bed clearly, and her eyes instantly shone with an unprecedented brilliance.

“Shuyao…” Shen Lijun struggled to raise her hand, wanting to stroke her daughter’s face.

Was everything before just a dream?
Or is the current scene a dream?
For a moment, Shen Lijun could no longer distinguish between illusion and reality.

But whether it's an illusion or reality, she's already content to be able to see her daughter again.

"Shuyao, I'm sorry, Mom... was wrong."

Shen Lijun's vocal cords sounded like they had been sanded, and she managed to say a few words with difficulty, tears streaming down her face.

"Mom, don't say that. How are you feeling? Are you alright? I was so scared, so scared that you would all just leave like this..."

Shen Shuyao grabbed her mother's hand and burst into tears as well.

"You've just recovered, so let the doctor check you out first, and then drink some water."

A familiar, gentle voice came from beside my ear.

Shen Lijun turned her head slightly, looking at that familiar yet utterly unfamiliar face with a complicated expression.

“Jianfeng…”

But seeing the look in Shu Jianfeng's eyes that was completely different from his last life, Shen Lijun suddenly smiled with relief.

No matter how happy the previous life in the dream was, one still missed the happiness of the first half of life in reality.

Since you've already missed your chance, don't force it.

The nurse next to her carefully fed her some glucose, while two doctors massaged her somewhat numb limbs and performed various examinations on her.

To Shen Lijun's surprise, Shu Jianfeng seemed to hold no grudge against her for trying to take her down with him. Moreover, he seemed like a completely different person, no longer timid or hesitant in his speech and behavior.

"Jianfeng, I had a very long dream..."

After recovering slightly, Shen Lijun looked into Shu Jianfeng's eyes, only to find that her ex-husband's gaze was unwavering, staring directly into her face.

"I got it."

Shu Jianfeng interrupted Shen Lijun, a hint of regret on his face.

Shen Lijun's body trembled slightly: "You too...?"

Shu Jianfeng nodded silently, then sighed: "The only one who can save us is ourselves."

Shen Lijun's eyes glazed over for a moment.

Shen Shuyao looked at her parents, puzzled, and blinked.

What's going on? Why are they both acting strangely after waking up?

However, how long has it been since I've seen my parents get along so harmoniously?

Previously, I was worried that my mother would lose control again after waking up and seeing my father, but now it seems that this accident has changed both of them a lot.

"Shuyao, could you give me your phone?" Shen Lijun struggled to sit up from the hospital bed.

Shen Shuyao pursed her lips, picked up her phone, unlocked it, and handed it over.

"Mom, your phone isn't with you. It's probably still at Dad's house. Use mine for now."

Shen Lijun took the phone, gave her daughter a forced smile, and then dialed three numbers.

After the call connected, Shen Lijun paused for a moment before speaking, "Hello, I want to turn myself in..."

Shen Shuyao snatched the phone from her mother's hand, hung up the call, and stared at her mother in disbelief.

"Mom! What are you doing?"

"Give me your phone." Shen Lijun looked at her daughter sternly.

"No way! Do you know what you're doing?!"

Shen Shuyao angrily took two steps back while holding her phone.

Shen Lijun's gaze was calm: "I'm the one who harmed your father, and I should pay the price."

Upon hearing this, Shu Jianfeng, who was standing next to him, immediately stood up: "Lijun, don't be impulsive, I've never blamed you."

“It’s not a matter of whether you find it strange or not.” Shen Lijun took a deep breath. “This is my redemption.”

Hearing Shen Lijun say this, Shu Jianfeng paused for a moment, sat down next to Shen Lijun, and held her left hand.

Shen Lijun turned her gaze to her daughter, her eyes gentle: "Originally, I was worried that having a criminal record would have a bad impact on you, but you didn't plan to take the civil service exam in the future, and your career is very successful now, so I'm at ease."

"People should be responsible for their own actions."

Just then, the police called Shen Shuyao back.

"Give the phone to Mom. She'll be alright."

Shen Lijun extended her right hand, her gaze resolute.

(End of this chapter)