I am the only one who practices magic: I practice magic in the city

Chapter 547 Life Reflection Simulator
Shen Lijun felt lightheaded, drifting aimlessly in a thick fog.

This is where?

Am I dead?

Where is that ungrateful, heartless man?
Is this the world after death?
It's good that you're dead, it's good that you're dead, it's all over.

But why do I still hate it so much?

Why do I feel no sense of relief?

Am I destined to remain forever in this endless fog?
Is this my punishment?

No, I'm not wrong, the one who's wrong is that ungrateful wretch!
I was so good to him!

She was completely devoted to him!

But him!

They didn't care at all about my efforts!

Even if I was wrong... it's only because I trusted him too much!

That's why I let him be surrounded by so many women!
I knew earlier...

If I had known, I should have cut off his contact with all the women from the very beginning!

In my dream, Shen Lijun spoke with a string of exclamation marks.

If there is a next life, I will definitely...

"Do you think so?"

Who is speaking?

Shen Lijun looked around blankly, when a huge, emotionless voice came from the thick fog.

"In that case, do as you wish."

"Remember, the path to redemption is right beneath your feet."

What does this mean? Before Shen Lijun could react, she felt dizzy and a dazzling light burst forth before her eyes.

Hmm... After an unknown amount of time, Shen Lijun opened her eyes with difficulty, her gaze unfocused.

I could faintly hear singing coming from somewhere.

The sound of the waves remains the same? Does anyone still listen to such old songs these days?

Where am I? Why does it feel so strangely familiar?
The wooden door was encased in tinplate, and behind it hung two bath towels, a set of keys, and a faded coat.

Inside the room, four iron-framed beds were placed against the wall, and under each bed was a cement platform with a wooden desk.

On the table were a toothbrush holder, an enamel basin, a bottle of medicated oil, an English dictionary, stacks of textbooks covered with calendars as book covers, and a diary, also covered with a calendar cover, with its corners curled up from being turned over.

The walls were painted white, with green paint applied one meter from the ground to prevent people's clothes from getting the white paint on them.

There was some mold at the corner where the roof met the wall, and the green paint on the wall was mottled and worn.

! ! ! ! ! !
This is……

This is my university dormitory!
Shen Lijun's gaze fell on the celebrity calendar on the wall, where Sally Yeh was smiling sweetly with beautiful eyes.

Shen Lijun had no mind to reminisce about these familiar scenes; the numbers at the bottom of the calendar made her dizzy.

3038! ?

How is this going! ?
I was reborn?

Shen Lijun trembled as she tried to reach for the tattered diary, but found that she couldn't lift her hand at all.

"Shen Lijun! Shen Lijun! Someone is looking for you downstairs!"

The voice of the dormitory supervisor came from the window downstairs.

Someone's looking for me? Who's looking for me?

Before Shen Lijun could react, she felt her body stand up uncontrollably, grab a comb and hair tie from the table, and frantically start tying her hair in front of an oval mirror.

Through the mirror, Shen Lijun saw her youthful face from more than 20 years ago.

Her face showed a shy and happy expression.

Why can't I control my body?
Shen Lijun watched as she finished combing her hair, then took out a white plastic bottle from a locked drawer, carefully squeezed out a small amount of product, and meticulously applied it to her face.

Dabao SOD Honey?
I miss those days when, to prevent my roommate from using my baby product, I would lock it back in the drawer after each use.

There are no good people in her dorm. The other three always get together and talk badly about her, thinking she doesn't know.

Ha ha.

Shen Lijun's consciousness followed her body as she jogged downstairs. As soon as she stepped out of the dormitory, she heard herself call out joyfully, "Jianfeng!"

Immediately afterwards, a familiar yet unfamiliar face appeared in her line of sight.

It was him! That ingrate! That heartless bastard! That shameless man!
Shen Lijun felt a surge of anger.

Yes, that's right. By this time, she had already started dating this man, but he was still talking to those female classmates and junior girls!

"Lijun, there's a Youth League dinner tonight, I have to go."

Shu Jianfeng's voice was very gentle, but his expression was a little apprehensive.

I remember now! I remember now!
It was at this event that he met Gao Lan!
Back then, I had so many arguments with this heartless man because of Gao Lan, and he still told me that we were just ordinary friends!
He said nothing ever happened between them, haha, it's just that nothing happened before, right?

Do you think I don't know what that woman is thinking? You know her intentions perfectly well, so why don't you just yell at her and send her away?
You're blaming yourself for being paranoid? If you hadn't done anything to make me suspicious, would I have been paranoid?
I was so stupid back then, I actually agreed to let him attend this dinner party.

No, I must stop it!

Shen Lijun tried her best to control her body, but she couldn't even control one of her little fingers.

Sensing the younger version of Shen Lijun nodding slightly, as if about to repeat the mistakes of the past, Shen Lijun's consciousness let out a silent roar.

We can't agree to that!
"No, we agreed that you would come with me to study tonight."

The young Shen Lijun spoke resolutely, staring sternly at Shu Jianfeng's impossibly handsome face in front of her.

? ? ? ? ?

They rejected it outright?
I think I agreed back then!

Could it be that……

Shen Lijun's consciousness suddenly surged, and she began to silently recite...

Shu Jianfeng was taken aback, his face showing embarrassment: "Lijun, but this is a dinner hosted by the Youth League Committee. We're graduating soon, and the teachers in charge of job assignments will be there too. And I'm a member of the Youth League Committee..."

"That's not OK!"

The young Shen Lijun looked Shu Jianfeng up and down and said disdainfully, "What I despise most is a man who doesn't keep his word. Either you shouldn't have agreed in the first place, or if you did, you should have done it!"

Shu Jianfeng was startled and took a small step back, stammering, "Okay, okay, don't be angry. I'll tell them I'm not going tonight, okay?"

Become!

Shen Lijun almost let out a cheer.

Really!

Although I can't control my body, I seem to be able to influence my younger self's mind! This time, I will definitely not let the tragedy repeat itself!

"Jianfeng, you need to know that in this world, only I truly love you, and only I truly care about you."

The young Shen Lijun spoke in a slightly gentler tone, and when Shu Jianfeng across from her heard what Shen Lijun said, his expression gradually softened.

"When you study tonight, bring your phone book, oh right, and your yearbook too."

The young Shen Lijun straightened Shu Jianfeng's collar and said gently.

It worked! Shen Lijun was greatly encouraged.

I can indeed influence my thinking when I was younger!

What's the point of carrying a phone book and a yearbook? Hehe, of course, it's to cross out all the women's contact information!
After ten lifetimes, Fang Yu advanced to the eighth level of arcane mage. After mastering the essence of basic enchanting, he integrated the doctrines of the four major schools of prophecy, sorcery, enchanting, and transformation. He also created fourth-circle ritual spells by drawing on the architecture of AI models.

Fang Yu considered this to be the most difficult and ingenious spell model among all the standard fourth-circle arcane spells.

It is also the offensive spell with the smallest alignment shift created by Fang Yu.

Because the purpose of this spell is not "harm", but "redemption".

People forget many things, but these things don't disappear from the brain; instead, they are stored in the brain's neural networks as fragments of memory.

This spell will piece together the fragments of memory in a person's brain, and the missing parts will be filled in through prophecy and AI-like generation, constructing an incredibly realistic dream world in the recipient's dream.

The recipient will experience their life repeatedly in their dreams from a third-person perspective.

This third-person perspective is not exactly like watching a movie, but more like a video game, where the thoughts and choices of the subject during the experience directly affect their behavior in the dream.

This spell could also be named "I'm Doomed, I'm Surrounded by Dreams" or "Life Reflection Simulator".

Since Shen Shuyao's birthday, Fang Yu has secretly observed Shen Lijun several times and analyzed her spirituality.

Shen Lijun's personality disorder structure is extremely typical, with a clear mixed state of paranoid and borderline personality, and also accompanied by obsessive-compulsive personality traits.

Such people cannot be described as good or bad; their motivations are based on emotional reactions and attribution logic that differ from those of ordinary people.

For example, Ting Hai in The Greed of Man is a typical example of paranoia and borderline personality disorder.

Outsiders see Ting Hai as rotten to the core, but Ting Hai sees himself as a benevolent Buddha.

In reality, most bad people know they are doing bad things, but people like Ding Xie and Shen Lijun don't; they live entirely in their own world of logic.

In modern psychiatry, these three personality disorders are considered to be independent of each other, but in reality they often coexist in a mixed form.

These two personality disorders are essentially unsolvable, mainly for two reasons:

First, although paranoia and borderline personality disorder may not seem as serious as mental illnesses such as schizophrenia, and patients may have normal cognitive and behavioral abilities, these two disorders are deep-seated psychological structural problems, while schizophrenia is a problem of neurotransmitter dysfunction.

Secondly, and most importantly, these people lack one of the most basic human abilities: normal empathy.

Shen Lijun can only construct her cognition based on her own feelings and does not have the ability to integrate emotions from the perspective of others.

When subjective feelings dominate everything, any behavior can be interpreted as "harming me" or "denying me" in their eyes.

In other words, no matter how psychologists guide them, these patients with mental disorders find it difficult to put themselves in others' shoes and consider issues from their perspective, let alone acknowledge that they have a problem.

This state is not the same as simple selfishness.

Many people with paranoid personality disorder have a strong altruistic complex and a willingness to give. They are willing to give their all for their family, community, and country. However, if these efforts are not recognized or questioned, they will develop extreme distrust and hostility.

Even the most skilled psychologist needs the patient's cooperation and desire for treatment in order to improve the patient's condition.

The patient didn't think there was anything wrong with him, and even Floyd's presence couldn't help.

Moreover, compared to other modern medical fields, the development of clinical psychology is almost mystical. Many psychologists who have earned their doctorates for over twenty years, charging hundreds or thousands of dollars per hour for consultations, have never successfully treated a single patient throughout their entire careers.

Shen Lijun is exactly the kind of person who "doesn't think there's anything wrong with her at all."

Some researchers who specialize in paranoid personality disorders believe that people like Shen Lijun have a highly closed cognitive perspective and find it difficult to develop genuine self-reflection abilities.

To improve the mental state of such people, we must allow them to shift their perspective to that of an objective third party, so that they can discover the problems themselves and correct their personality flaws.

This is just a hypothesis, and even the person who proposed it isn't sure about it.

Because there is no technical means to allow patients to shift their perspective to a third party, not even hypnosis.

But arcane magic works.

In her dream, Shen Lijun was thrilled to discover that she could influence her younger self's thinking. That very night, she blacked out all the women's contact information in Shu Jianfeng's phone book.

In the days that followed, Shen Lijun became even more vigilant, not giving Shu Jianfeng any opportunity to contact other women.

After graduation, Shen Lijun strictly forbade Shu Jianfeng from attending any classmate reunions.

Class reunions are just a way to break up couples. If you cared about me, why would you attend such a dangerous gathering?
At first, Shu Jianfeng enjoyed being controlled by Shen Lijun, but soon he became increasingly silent.

Because Shu Jianfeng did not participate in any social activities, he was not assigned to a small state-owned store after graduation, and was not taken away by the Xiguan Finance Bureau.

Within a year or two, the state-run stores went bankrupt, and Shu Jianfeng was forced to leave the port, where he drowned his sorrows in alcohol every day.

In the third year after graduation and the fourth year of their relationship, on an ordinary afternoon, Shu Jianfeng disappeared without warning.

It wasn't an argument, it wasn't a sulking, and they didn't even leave a note.

It's like they've vanished into thin air.

"Why!?"

"Why do you still hurt me even though I've been so good to you!?"

"Right, it's because we're not married yet. The longer a relationship lasts, the easier it is to break up! I shouldn't have given him so much time to overthink! That must be it!"

Shen Lijun's consciousness watched her younger self smash everything in the room, muttering to herself.

"Are you sure?"

The voice that she hadn't heard for who knows how many years reappeared in Shen Lijun's mind.

"I'm sure!" Shen Lijun's mind jolted, filled with excitement. "This time, I'll marry him right after graduation! I'll make him give up completely!"

"as you wish."

The emotionless voice uttered four words, and then Shen Lijun felt dizzy. When she opened her eyes again, she was at the graduation ceremony, and the dean of the teachers' college was giving a speech on the playground.

"Jianfeng, let's get married!"

As soon as the ceremony ended, the young Shen Lijun went to find Shu Jianfeng, who had already started working.

This time, under her pressure, Shu Jianfeng and she got married right after graduation. After the marriage, Shu Jianfeng came home later and later, and their arguments became more and more frequent.

Finally, two years later, when Shen Lijun was pregnant, Shu Jianfeng disappeared again.

"No, this can't be, this can't be! It must be because of Chen Jiao, he's the one who led Jianfeng astray!"

"Next time, I will definitely not let him continue to associate with these scoundrels!"

"As you wish." The emotionless voice appeared again.

In the third cycle, Shen Lijun completely controlled Shu Jianfeng's social circle, and she did not allow Shu Jianfeng to have any further contact with either men or women.

As a result, this time it only lasted a year. Before the two even graduated, Shu Jianfeng couldn't stand the surveillance and personally broke up with Shu Jianfeng for the first time.

(End of this chapter)