I am the only one who practices magic: I practice magic in the city

Chapter 443 Double Personality Double Happiness (4115)

Am I the dominant personality?
Liu Feifei pressed the base of her left palm on her temple, supported herself on the bed with her right hand, an expression of pain and fear on her face.

No, it's impossible. I'm not the main personality. Ning Yu is.

How can someone like me be the master personality?

If I am the dominant personality, doesn't that mean I am this kind of person! ?
“No, no… I’m not…”

Liu Feifei opened her eyes wide, her lips slightly parted, and she shook her head desperately, denying it in horror.

"I'm sorry, but you are indeed the dominant personality, Liu Feifei." Fang Yu's 37-degree mouth said the words of zero degree without any hesitation, "Just now when your personality collapsed, Ning Yu's personality also collapsed, which is enough to prove that you are the dominant personality."

In fact, the main reason why Fang Yu was so sure that Liu Feifei was the dominant personality was that when she was training as Buffy, the mental power she received back increased more than Ning Yu's.

In the last experiment, Fang Yu discovered that Liu Feifei's feedback could increase his mental power by 0.3%, while Ning Yu's was only 0.2%.

He felt a little strange at the time, and thought that because Liu Feifei was usually stronger and appeared more often, Liu Feifei's mental power was stronger.

But later, he discovered that Liu Feifei usually did not appear, and it was Ning Yu who faced the outside world, so this speculation came to nothing.

Now it seems that the correct answer is that in Liu Feifei's dual personality, the charming Liu Feifei is the main personality.

It's just that I can't tell her the reason.

Hearing what Fang Yu said, Liu Feifei's eyes widened in disbelief, and she quickly called Ning Yu's name in her heart.

"Xiaoyu? Xiaoyu? Can you hear me?"

Ning Yu didn't answer.

Liu Feifei covered her mouth and her eyes turned red instantly.

Fang Yu discovered that without wearing cosmetic contact lenses, her pupils were indeed a little bigger than those of ordinary people.

"Since Ning Yu is a secondary personality, she needs a longer recovery time and is still sleeping."

After hearing Fang Yu say this, Liu Feifei finally felt relieved, but tears welled up again.

"Mr. Xiao Fang, when will she recover?"

Fang Yu leaned unceremoniously on the soft cushion at the head of the bedroom bed, took out a third-order Rubik's Cube and played with it blindly: "She is a secondary personality, and the speed of collapse is faster than yours. Although I have stabilized her condition, she needs at least a few hours of sleep to recover."

Liu Feifei was obviously relieved when she heard Fang Yu's answer.

Wait, how did he get in? No, that's not important. What's important is, how did he know something was wrong with me? And how did he save himself?
Liu Feifei's eyes flickered, she wanted to ask, but she didn't dare to open her mouth.

She didn't dare to speak, but Fang Yu had no scruples.

"I don't know what happened between you, but the self-identity of each personality of a DID patient is very important. If there is a problem with self-identity, the personality that loses its self-identity can easily collapse."

"So last time you told me that your dual personality had lasted for seven or eight years, I felt it was a bit strange."

"Firstly, there are not many cases of DID. I have checked all the public cases and found that it is rare for personalities to maintain such a stable situation."

Before he could finish his words, Fang Yu had successfully restored the scrambled Rubik's Cube, and then randomly scrambled it again and started to restore it again.

"Secondly, the timeline doesn't match up. If you are a secondary personality imagined by Ning Yu, then you should have existed for at least ten years, but you said it was only seven or eight years."

"I originally thought that you were a strong personality created by Ning Yu to protect herself. But now it seems that Ning Yu is your fantasy, no, it should be said that you yearn for a state of innocence, so you said that your DID symptoms have lasted for seven or eight years."

"It is reasonable to speculate that before Ning Yu's personality was formed, you may have encountered some realities that were difficult for you to accept, but you felt that your heart was still pure, so you used your own teenage years as a model, used your previous name, and imagined Ning Yu, a 'pure' personality that had never experienced any darkness."

Hearing this, Liu Feifei couldn't help but shudder all over and unconsciously tightened her body. Her consciousness seemed to be in a trance for a moment, and a scene from more than ten years ago that she wanted to forget but always appeared in her nightmares flashed through her mind. But the next second, the scene became blurry again.

Fang Yu looked at Liu Feifei, who was huddled aside and trembling, with sympathy: "From now on, you will protect Ning Yu, who represents your pure essence, from being tainted. With a self-sacrificing mentality, you will face some unacceptable realities on behalf of Ning Yu. This will affirm the value of your own existence and allow you to reconcile with yourself."

"There is a concept in psychology called personality projection. When we have difficulty accepting certain parts of ourselves, we will project these traits onto another personality."

“Similarly, people sometimes project certain traits that they desire but do not possess onto another personality.”

"You created Ning Yu and made her the person you longed for, while you took on all the 'reality'."

"In other words, you regard 'protecting Ning Yu' as the anchor of your own value, anchoring the meaning and value of your own existence, so that your spirit will not collapse."

Having said that, Fang Yu put down the Rubik's Cube that he had scrambled and restored several times. His gaze fell on Liu Feifei, who was curled up and trembling constantly, and a complex emotion flashed in his eyes.

He grew up watching Liu Feifei's dramas. Although he can't be considered a fan, it is her childhood memory after all. Seeing her like this now, he can't help but feel some sympathy for her.

But he does not think sympathy means pity.

Sympathy is essentially a difference in perspective.

When you stand at a higher place, you can see the suffering below clearly.

Even if he didn't have Arcane and Yuzu Technology, he wouldn't have the mentality of "a monthly salary of three thousand is not worthy of sympathizing with stars who earn a million a year."

Nor will they think that "the more money you earn, the more pain you should endure."

The head follows the butt. As a member of this class, he can naturally resonate with the pain of this class which is criticized as "whining without illness".

Wealth can solve most of people’s problems, but it cannot eliminate all suffering.

There are some sufferings that cannot be compensated by money.

Some suffering is even caused by money and power.

Even if you give up all this money and power, you cannot eliminate these sufferings.

Therefore, Fang Yu didn't mind helping Liu Feifei solve some problems when possible.

After all, it was because of Liu Feifei that he discovered how to help his relatives and friends achieve extraordinary things.

Besides, human hearts are so interesting.

Solving Liu Feifei's problem with just language and psychological analysis gives me a much greater sense of accomplishment than using arcane magic, right?

Of course, the first step is to completely uncover her scar. Only after uncovering the scar can the pus be drained and medicine applied.

After hearing Fang Yu's words, Liu Feifei's clenched hands loosened for a moment, and her fingertips trembled slightly. Her breathing became rapid, like a trapped animal cornered.

Fang Yu said in a relaxed tone: "This is indeed a way of self-reconciliation, but when this anchor point is accidentally removed by No. 12, it also makes you feel that you have lost the value of your existence."

"At this time, your spirit, oh, your personality, begins to disintegrate."

"If you are a secondary personality, it's fine. After the collapse, it will most likely merge into the main personality and return to the state of a human personality. The worst case scenario is that a new personality will be born to fill the vacancy."

"But you are the main personality. The personality of 'Liu Feifei' is the core that supports everything."

"When you begin to disintegrate, the other personalities will naturally have no basis for existence."

Liu Feifei's pupils shrank suddenly, as if she had been hit by a slap in the face. She stared at Fang Yu intently, her lips trembling slightly, and a complex emotion emerged in her eyes: fear, denial, and even... a hint of self-loathing that had been hidden for a long time.

Fang Yu looked at Liu Feifei and continued, "Oh, by the way, the reason why Ning Yu likes you is not just because you always protect her."

"More importantly, she was created by you based on her personality as a child, and after many years of growth, she became who she is now."

"In other words, if you had not encountered those dark times, you might be like Ning Yu now."

Liu Feifei's body began to tremble slightly, as if she was feeling cold all over.

"But Ning Yu's love for you makes you feel that she approves of your choice. Her occasional vanity and career pursuits make you feel that she is chasing desires, which makes you feel fear and disgust."

"Subconsciously, you begin to question your own 'nature'——"

“Would you still be on this path now, even if you hadn’t gone through what you went through?”

Fang Yu's tone was still very relaxed, but his words were like a knife, cutting through everything mercilessly.

"This creates a strong conflict with your original self-perception."

"so you……"

"say no more!"

Liu Feifei suddenly raised her head!

The long hair that was originally tied up with a hairpin fell apart in an instant, and the black hair cascaded down like a waterfall. A few strands stuck to her face wetly, mixed with the tears that rolled down the corners of her eyes.

The hairpin fell onto the bed with a "click", spun twice, and finally stopped.

Her shoulders heaved violently, her fingertips dug into the bed sheets tightly, her knuckles turned white, as if she was trying to grasp the last support.

"Don't... say that again... please..."

Through tearful eyes, she looked at Fang Yu pleadingly, her voice so low that it was almost inaudible. She hugged her knees with her hands and then buried her head between them. Her wavy hair slid down onto her white calves.

"Why, why can't I even disappear, why..."

Liu Feifei choked and twitched her shoulders. Under the light of the night lamp at the bedside, there seemed to be no pores on her smooth shoulders.

"I really want to tell myself that I am a victim, but why do I sometimes enjoy it?"

"I really feel like I'm...hiss~"

It sounded like Liu Feifei sniffed her nose.

Fang Yu took out a tissue from the tissue box on the bedside table and put it into Liu Feifei's hand.

"There is no such thing as empathy in this world, but there is a clear view from the outside."

"You know, your mistake is that, because of your experience, you mistakenly categorize normal human 'desires' as shameful."

Liu Feifei's trembling obviously paused for a moment.

"Humans are creatures driven by desires. Without desires, humans would not be human. Having desires is not something to be ashamed of."

“Being controlled by desire and becoming a slave to desire is truly shameful.”

After Fang Yu said these two sentences, it was a long time before Liu Feifei gradually raised her head.

"Although I know you are telling lies to comfort me." Liu Feifei's eyes and nose were red, "Mr. Xiao Fang, thank you anyway."

Fang Yu was puzzled: "Lies? Why would I lie?"

Liu Feifei bit her lower lip: "You really don't think I'm...cheap?"

"If not, why don't you want me?"

Liu Feifei slightly turned her body, and the two of them were facing each other. The distance between them was less than thirty centimeters, and Fang Yu could even feel the breath exhaled from the other's mouth and nose.

At this distance, with Fang Yu's strength, he can tickle the opponent through the acupoints without even using the primary transformation of his essence.

Under the dim night light, there was suddenly a hint of charming ambiguity flowing slowly between the two of them.

"Your body doesn't belong to you alone." Fang Yu raised his eyebrows. "Although I don't object to playing friendly matches, in your case, at least all the participating players must agree, right? Only you agree, Ning Yu doesn't agree, and she likes you."

Liu Feifei's eyes became bright, her cheeks flushed pink, and her red lips opened slightly: "She is still sleeping. Besides, I am the main personality, right?"

Liu Feifei placed her right hand on Fang Yu's face and stared at it for two seconds, then her lips gently touched Fang Yu's lips.

The two shoulder straps of the overalls also slipped down.

Fang Yu licked his lips: "Wait a moment."

After saying that, Fang Yu got out of bed, picked up Liu Feifei's phone on the sofa, and pressed it for three seconds to turn it off.

Then, he unplugged the power supply of the Xbox's motion sensing camera.

After performing a detection spell to make sure there were no cameras or microphones running, Fang Yu returned to the bedroom and picked up Liu Feifei with one hand.

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Ning Yu only felt groggy, as if she was awake but also as if she was not awake. She only felt that under the impact of waves of lumps, it seemed that her soul was making an uncontrollable cry.

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Liu Feifei held on to the railing at the head of the bed tightly, as if she had really turned into a fairy and would fly into the sky as soon as she let go.

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Ning Yu finally realized what this feeling was.

"Fei Fei, Fei Fei, why is he here? Not here, but here..."

"Feifei, what are you doing, ah..."

This was the first time that Liu Feifei did not block Ning Yu's perception during this process.

Ning Yu tried to shut herself off, but she simply couldn't concentrate. She felt as if her consciousness was just like a small boat being tossed up and down by the waves in a stormy ocean.

It really is double the personality and double the happiness.

Why does it feel a bit like the red and blue nightshade in Xian 3?
By the way, Long Kui was not played by Liu Feifei, but by Liu Shishi.

Forget it, the low-profile Liu Feifei is not worth thinking about.

However, the Volcano Short Video on Toutiao has been very popular recently, and it has been attracting celebrities to join. It seems that the "Little T Director" function of its short video has to be launched soon.

Fang Yu lit a cigarette and smiled at Liu Feifei who had fallen asleep again.

(End of this chapter)