Conan: The Man Behind the Romance

Chapter 247 The relationship between lovers is clear! Xiaolan will definitely kill Tianshu!
"To be honest, I'm definitely not being self-deprecating. I've been with Shuiyue-kun for so long, and I've learned a lot." Xiaolan said seriously, "Only by deeply analyzing yourself can you make targeted corrections.

If you keep avoiding it, you will only live in pain and confusion, and you won’t even know where the problem lies.

In the end, I just went through life in a daze, without even a hint of the real feeling of having lived.”

Sonoko's eyes trembled slightly, and she had to admit that she seemed to have underestimated Xiaolan before, always treating her as someone who needed care. But in fact, without realizing it, an immature person had become herself.

but.

Yuanzi looked at Xiaolan with a strange expression, and said, "So you concluded that you are not loyal and even a green tea? This is too weird."

"Examples come first. I am just this kind of person. What can I do?" Xiaolan sighed, "Suppose there is a future like this, where there is no Mizuki-kun, and Shinichi is like last week and can't see anyone at all, I think...

Alas, I am a person who is very afraid of loneliness, so I might eat meal replacements. "

"!!!!!!"

Sonoko was stunned: "Hey! Xiaolan, do you know what you are talking about? Wake up, you have been... " by that bastard Shuiyue Yingsheng

"That's really not the case, Sonoko."

Xiaolan interrupted and whispered in her ear: "I'm not saying I cheated, it's just... well, anyway, it's a very strange thing, just like a pen pal, I guess it's to seek psychological comfort. Of course, this is also very bad, so this can completely explain the problem, I just..."

"Absolutely not!"

Sonoko also interrupted: "Don't you realize that you are so bad now, and you have no intention of repenting at all, and even think it's natural. The tone is exactly the same as that guy Mizuki Hotaru!"

"Eh?"

Xiaolan tilted her head in confusion, thought about it, and nodded thoughtfully: "It seems so. I have become more calm. This is what they call "the closer you are to the red, the redder you are."

"No, it's like the bad company corrupts the bad!"

"They are all the same. And what does this prove? It has nothing to do with my original personality."

Xiaolan looked at Yuanzi, who was angry, and thought for a moment. She stood where she was, hugged her gently, and whispered in her ear:
"Don't worry, it's a good thing that I realize the problem. That way I can get better. Don't worry, Yuanzi, I will definitely become super awesome in the future. That way I can live up to your expectations of me."

"Humph…"

Yuanzi twisted her body twice and muttered: "I think you will gradually learn from him to become a bad girl, and correct yourself. Haha, now you are very skilled in coaxing people."

"No way, Sonoko is my lifelong best friend, boyfriends and the like have to stand aside." Xiaolan had no intention of letting go, but hugged her tighter, "In the past, when Shinichi left, Sonoko was always by my side, and it's still the same now.

Compared to those unreliable guys, Sonoko has always been the best person to me.

Sometimes I even wonder, what if I..."

"Don't say that anymore, Xiaolan."

Yuanzi was helpless, raised her hand and gently pushed the person in front of her: "If you are not acting on purpose, you have really learned bad things now. Don't continue to say such things, things will become very bad."

Xiaolan still didn't let go: "Eh? Sonoko, do you know what I want to say?"

Sonoko sighed, "You want to say that if we keep hugging each other, it will be too hot. It's probably about 30 degrees today."

"Pfft-"

Xiaolan smiled and loosened her arms: "Okay, okay, I was just joking, but what I said before was serious. Also, isn't it clear that Shuiyue-kun said that I have never provided him with love, which already explains a lot."

Yuanzi snorted: "That guy always talks nonsense, and there is rarely any truth in his mouth. Maybe he is lying."

Xiaolan shook her head: "No, I know."

Sonoko retorted: "That's not necessarily your fault, Xiaolan, it's definitely his problem. According to my sister's investigation, there are people who are willing to give their lives for him. This is definitely a deep love, but he still said that the gods don't approve.

I think it is because he does not understand what love is, and he himself has never been moved, so his gods will certainly punish him."

Xiaolan said: "I thought so before, but later I found that it shouldn't be the case. The simplest proof is, Sonoko, in the amusement park in Kabukicho, hasn't the firefly appeared for a while?"

Yuanzi looked at her in surprise and nodded.

"My sister has been asking a private detective to focus on this aspect. She..." Sonoko felt that this topic was not right and quickly changed it, "But this doesn't mean anything. He must have developed enough targets."

"That's not the case. He's a master of time management and he pays a lot of attention to efficiency. In the past, he was..." Xiaolan paused, "Anyway, now he seems to be more relaxed. Unlike in the past, he didn't try to expand the scope of screening, but...

Um, a little deeper?

Anyway, even if it is true love for true love, Shuiyue Jun has clearly stated that he is special to me, and I have not yet provided him with love, doesn't that make the problem clearer?"

Sonoko knew that what Xiaolan wanted to say at first was that when Hotaru was dating her, didn't they also go to Kabukicho? She took it back because she felt it was offensive.

But after what happened at the barbecue restaurant, to be honest, Sonoko suddenly didn't hate Hotaru anymore.

That rascal……

At least for that brief period of time, he was an impeccable boyfriend.

Even though it was just an illusion, it was true...

Forget it, stop thinking about it.

Sonoko shook her head: "In that case, I have nothing more to say, or rather, I think I have said everything I can." She glanced at the figure of Yingsheng in front of her, who paused for some reason, and gently pushed Xiaolan on the back.

"I've taken up enough of your time. Go chat with him for a while, replenish your romantic energy, and also do your best for the afternoon game."

By the time she said the last sentence, Sonoko had completely recovered and clenched her fist to cheer Xiaolan up.

"Most definitely."

Xiaolan also cheered herself up and took a few quick steps towards Yingsheng. Yingsheng heard the footsteps and stood there waiting for her. He tilted his head slightly, but his eyes fell on Yuanzi who was watching Xiaolan, but he immediately retracted his gaze.

Sorry, Sonoko.

You have indeed come to know the real me, so you should stay away from me, right?

You and Xiaolan are different.

"Suiyue-kun, are you in better spirits today?"

A ray of sunlight suddenly appeared in the sun, and Yingsheng was stunned for half a second before reacting. The feeling that was different from the sun was the smile on Xiaolan's face.

Yingsheng also smiled: "After a good sleep, I feel refreshed." He stretched out his right hand, "Sorry, I came a little late. You are already sitting with the karate club. I can't ask you to change seats, and Suzuki-san just happened to have something to say to me."

Xiaolan naturally stretched out her left hand, interlocked her fingers with his, and walked hand in hand: "Still call me Suzuki-san? Sonoko hasn't let you go yet."

"Let's not talk about letting go or not. She and I are not suitable for each other, and she can clearly see this." Yingsheng chuckled, "She is a very free and easy person. Even if there are still some memories, it will not affect her search for love."

"Then you just flirted with her in the barbecue restaurant. That was so bad. You were totally harming her."

"No, she will always avoid it. If she doesn't face the past directly, she will never be able to let it go. Trauma therapy is basically like this. You should understand it."

The effect should be significant.

If the love he felt just now came from her, then this would probably be his final relief. Rationally speaking, he hoped...

No, there is a bit of emotion that thinks rationality is an asshole and slaps it against the wall.

He hoped this was the first and last time.

When the dream wakes up, everything is over.

The end has been passed.

FINISH.

Xiaolan turned back carefully and saw that Sonoko was already talking to Kyogoku Makoto, who had lunch with her. She felt a little relieved and looked up at Hotaru:

"You are such a bad guy. Even if Yuanzi gets out, what about the others?"

"If I have a chance, I will enlighten them."

"Is that all?"

"Then what else can we do? Of course I can only talk about it when I meet them. I can't take the initiative to go find them."

"Why not? Just think of it as your journey of atonement. After the journey, you will definitely have a deeper understanding of what love is."

"........."

Yingsheng looked at Xiaolan speechlessly, thinking that she was really full of creative ideas and wondered what was going on in her little head every day.

Xiaolan did not evade the question and said seriously: "Since you are looking forward to Tianshu's death, isn't this a good way?"

Yingsheng laughed: "So that's how it is, then your understanding is a little bit off, I just don't mind this consciousness being killed by you, but I'm not looking forward to it.

Just let everything take its course.

And the method you mentioned is actually not feasible. Not all of those people are as straightforward as Sonoko. If I do this, they might think that I care about them and fall even deeper than before."

"……Oh."

Xiaolan was speechless and remained silent for a long while: "How many people are there?"

Yingsheng said: "I can only say that there are some."

Xiaolan looked skeptical: "You are not so lenient that you can't even remember the exact number."

"Hey, hey, I'm not an animal, how could this happen?" Yingsheng sighed, "The main thing is how they feel about me. As time goes by, I can't know everything. If they have already started a new life, then of course the number will be reduced by one."

Xiaolan was curious: "Who impressed you the most?"

"…Do you really have to say this?"

"Because I'm very curious about you. Compared to my previous life and most of the people I've met, your experience is simply too rich. Let's just treat it as a casual chat during lunch." Xiaolan laughed, "Why, Mr. Liuying actually cares about this aspect too?
Yingsheng curled his lips: "It's a poor way of provoking me. Indeed, it's strange to tell you about this, of course I care."

"Eh? Why?"

"Asking knowingly."

"Go on, that's what I want to hear."

"...I can say a thousand sweet words, are you sure you want to listen?"

"Well...I want to hear what you can say and want to say now."

Yingsheng laughed and leaned close to her ear: "Then I want to say now that you have indeed become a bad girl, and I like bad girls like this."

Xiaolan's ears blushed slightly, and she snorted softly: "This is a turn of events. Are you playing word games with me?"

"Oops, I've been discovered. I'm sorry, but I can't tell you more right now."

"Oh, it turns out that Suigetsu-kun is also very reserved by nature."

"No, it's just that the progress bar is not enough. Some items and actions have not been unlocked yet."

"........."

Xiaolan stared coldly: "Am I the target of the game strategy?"

Yingsheng shrugged: "Wrong, you are the protagonist of the game, Tianshu is the final BOSS, and you haven't passed the previous small levels yet. Well, it seems a bit irresponsible to say this, so I will be your quest spirit. Come on, brave SAMA, victory is just ahead."

"Is that so? Well, I will definitely work hard!"

Xiaolan cooperated very well and worked hard, but after carefully observing the calmness in Yingsheng's eyes, she hesitated again and asked cautiously: "How about asking Miss Aida to give you a set of psychological tests? We are just testing privately, so it won't have any impact."

"puff--

Hey, do you also think there is something wrong with my mind?" Yingsheng laughed, "Such a simple truth, why do so many people insist on it? Let me ask you, do you think you are the same person now as you were when you were a child?"

Xiaolan was slightly stunned, and nodded quickly: "Of course."

"Why?" Yingsheng asked.

"This……"

Xiaolan hesitated and said, "I have always been myself. Is there any reason for this?"

"Of course there is, and there are many philosophical thoughts on this aspect."

Yingsheng said: “For example, Heraclitus believed that one cannot step into the same river twice, because the water is always flowing and the river is always changing. Similarly, one’s physical and mental state is also constantly changing.

Can you still fully identify with the ideas you had as a child? I'm afraid you'll start to look at yourself two weeks ago with a critical eye.

This can lead to the thinking of the Ship of Theseus, exploring the problem of identity in continuous change, and then psychological continuity..."

"Stop, stop, stop!"

Xiaolan interrupted immediately, looking hopeless: "Master, please stop talking, we should just follow the principle of 'don't think too much'...

Oh, that's how it is! "

Xiaolan suddenly realized, "So you think too much every day, so you force yourself to do subtraction, right?" She hesitated again, "Then I don't have many ideas to begin with. If I do this, won't I really become a fool with an empty head?"

"Hahahaha, you didn't hear me at all, so it's totally unimportant. It's just meaningless small talk, just like asking you 'have you eaten?'"

Yingsheng raised their joined hands and said, "Anyway, just remember one thing."

Xiaolan smiled slightly, her eyes full of tenderness.

"I will definitely kill you, Tianshu."

(End of this chapter)