Conan: The Man Behind the Romance

Chapter 213: Xiaolan takes the initiative to confirm Yingsheng's feelings
"Me?" Yingsheng raised his eyebrows.

"Although Shuiyue-kun said that he is not interested in reasoning, he is actually very good at it, especially in seeing the big picture from the small details. He can always scare people."

Xiaolan sighed: "On Monday night, you told me not to be too superficial, and on Tuesday afternoon, you told me to exercise my subjective initiative. How can I put it...

Just like a teacher who is giving earnest advice, but also feeling a little disappointed with the student.

You have been helping me all the time, without asking for anything in return, and I was wondering, what if my performance is so bad that you despise me and think I am not worthy of your guidance?

I have to show some enthusiasm, I don't want to disappoint you."

In the dim world, Yingsheng's face could not be seen clearly, and his already dark and deep eyes now merged into the darkness.

Xiaolan looked at the darkness and smiled sweetly: "How is it, did I perform a little to meet the expectations of Teacher Shuiyue?"

"Ah…"

Yingsheng chuckled: "Not bad, but the direction is wrong."

"Eh? What?"

"Working hard not to lose my gaze, isn't that still living for the gaze of others? I always believe that the ultimate goal of a person's existence in the world is to pursue the perfection of his own soul, followed by the pursuit of a higher level of happiness, and then..."

"But I'm very happy with this."

Xiaolan interrupted.

"Happy?" Yingsheng was puzzled. "Didn't you say you hated mystery novels? How can you be happy if you force yourself to read them?"

"But isn't learning like this? I didn't want to go to class before because I thought the teacher was annoying, but later when I really needed it, I regretted not studying hard." Xiaolan chuckled, "And after I really went to see Sherlock Holmes, I found that I didn't hate it that much, and I quickly immersed myself in it."

"why is that?"

Yingsheng was curious: "Just like you said you didn't want to go to class, you don't even have a job yet, so you haven't had any experience that you would regret, right? I always feel like you're just making up a story to express your sorrow, but I can't convince you with such far-fetched words."

Xiaolan shook her head: "Absolutely not.

In class, didn’t I know about Minamata disease? As for mystery novels…

The main thing is that the only detectives I was familiar with before were Shinichi and my dad. When I read a mystery novel, I would subconsciously think of them and associate them with my usual life.

Shinichi abandoned our date in order to solve a case, and whenever I wanted to chat with him he always called me Sherlock Holmes; Dad was drunk all day long and never got any big commissions. There was even one time when he got into trouble while investigating someone's cheating.

Ah, all kinds of unhappy emotions came up.

But it is different now.

I got to know you, Shuiyue-kun.

Although you won't compete or confront Shinichi head-on, you explained your reasoning process in front of me, step by step. Compared to Shinichi's way of shaking me off and running aside, leaving me confused from beginning to end, you left me with a much deeper impression.

I thought, this is what a detective is, this is how a detective thinks.

Ok……

When I read mystery novels with this idea in mind, I would wonder how Mizuki would think and act if he were in Holmes' position.

Can you do better than him?

Do you approve of his attitude towards people and criminals?
Just like that, I looked into it without noticing." Xiao Lanhu's blue eyes flashed with bright colors, which were quite conspicuous even in the darkness.

Yingsheng looked at the light and smiled gently, but it did not illuminate the darkness after all. Apart from her, the world was still in chaos, and the emptiness stretched to infinity.

"Interesting idea, but it makes me feel that you are actually a love-brained person."

"Humph, so what."

The inexplicable sense of loss in her heart was fleeting, and Xiaolan chuckled: "I can't be sure about other aspects, but in terms of daily life and interpersonal relationships, Shuiyue-kun is much better than Holmes. Moreover, Holmes also takes cocaine, and sometimes..."

"Stop."

Yingsheng laughed: "I say, you won't become a Sherlock Holmes fan from now on. And as a professional detective, as long as he can do his best in reasoning and solving cases, he is already very charismatic. Other aspects are just details.

Besides, in the 1920s, cocaine was not a banned drug. It was added to Coca-Cola at that time. It was only after the passage of the Dangerous Drugs Act in that it was strictly controlled in the UK.

"……Oh."

Xiaolan sounded gloomy.

After that, there was silence for a while, and Yingsheng finally spoke again: "I actually don't like you to act just to please others, put yourself in a more important position. If you are too eager for others' attention, you will be easily PUA."

Xiaolan was silent for a few breaths: "Then according to what you said, if I don't want to please you, should I just ignore what you said?"

"Haha not bad."

Yingsheng smiled and said, "There are all kinds of great truths in this world, many of which are self-contradictory. You can listen to them all, but you can't follow them all. It's up to you to choose which part to believe and which path to take."

"What does Suigetsu-kun's teaching mean?"

"What I expect is just what I expect. How you grow is how you grow. They are two different things. Is there a problem?"

"…I can understand it, but…"

Xiaolan hesitated for a while: "Suiyue-kun's attitude is too casual, don't you think you have never been obsessed with anything?"

"Ugh…"

Yingsheng sighed: "You actually want to ask about my attitude towards you. Didn't you think it through clearly before dinner in the evening? Why do you want to delve into it further?
Well, I can tell you very clearly that you are absolutely special to me and I treat you as such."

Is she special?
In the dark world, Xiaolan's mouth corners slightly raised, a smile lingered on her lips, but it was fleeting.

The guy next to him was super perceptive, so he couldn't see it.

Xiaolan bit her lower lip gently to suppress the sudden warmth in her heart, but her eyes clearly became softer in the darkness.

"Sorry, don't think too much. I know. It's just that when I heard about Shinichi before, I inexplicably had some feelings and I let my thoughts flow without paying attention."

Xiaolan's voice was very soft at first, but she soon returned to normal and blinked: "But I am really curious about Shuiyuejun's personality, um...

I want to understand you, very much."

Yingsheng pretended not to have heard her childish cover-up and smiled slightly: "Taoism calls it sitting and forgetting, Buddhism calls it emptiness. If you want to become a god, the first condition is to have no attachment. I'm actually far from doing well. I'm just a show-off."

Xiaolan wanted to ask something else, but Yingsheng interrupted her quietly: "Shh, go through the door in front and you will be in the basement of the winery research institute."

(End of this chapter)