Tokyo: The evil god doesn't want to be the top star

Chapter 161: No Defeat
"It is so happy to be able to listen to my favorite new song of Miss Yayoi before leaving this world..."

The girl picked up the handheld blowtorch and lit the charcoal in the iron basin in front of her, smiling sweetly.

"From today on, I don't have to go to a hellish place like school anymore."

On the screen, Yayoi Tsuki, surrounded by darkness, picked up the microphone with an expressionless face.

"I once thought about ending it all, because the black-tailed gulls cried sadly at the pier, disappeared with the waves, and took the past away and flew away."

She sang the sad lyrics with a calm and gentle melody using her unique voice that touches the soul and captures people's attention.

"I once thought about ending it all, because on my birthday, the apricot blossoms were in full bloom. If I dozed off in the sunshine, would I be able to turn into dust along with the dead insects?"

Different from her previous singing style which was rich in techniques and had a wide range of voice, Yayoi Tsuki's singing today was filled with only delicate and abundant emotions, without anything superfluous.

The lyrics seem simple, describing ordinary things in life, but they make the girl in front of the screen feel as if she is in the middle of it, and she feels that her own voice is being sung out...

Only those who have been in it can understand the depression, anguish and despair. It is like a layer of plastic wrap that cannot be torn or escaped, wrapping the whole body tightly, making even breathing a luxury.

"Mint candy, lighthouse at the fishing port. Rusty arch bridge, abandoned bicycle."

"Standing in front of the stove in the wooden station, but with no place in mind where I want to go."

"Today is like yesterday. If you want to change tomorrow, you must act now..."

The melody speeds up, and the low piano sound gradually becomes stronger and heavier. Yayoi Tsuki looks at the "darkness" ahead, her body slightly tense, and she raises her hands, as if she wants to break free, or as if she wants to grab something...

Her singing became shorter and more powerful, passionately expressing her unwillingness and struggle, and the ending note was filled with anger that she had never shown to anyone.

This is completely different from the glamorous and moving Yayoi Tsuki of the past. She looks more pitiful, helpless and desperate than the audience has ever seen before.

"I know, I know everything..."

“But…”

When she sang these two lines, she bent and shook her head vigorously, her voice filled with surging anger, but it was eventually swallowed up by the ending with a crying tone.

Crystal tears fell, flashed in the light, and disappeared into the darkness at the edge of the stage.

"I once thought about ending it all because my heart was empty."

"The reason for feeling unsatisfied and crying must be because the heart longs for abundance and fulfillment."

Tears welled up in her eyes, and Yayoi Tsuki used all her strength to finally roar out in venting her anger.

The "keyboardist" beside her had already danced with his hands, mixing the drum beats, guitar strings, piano accents and other musical instrument sounds into a gorgeous interlude...

This melody makes people feel as if they are in the darkness, struggling with all their might, but in the end they can only taste the pain of powerlessness.

"So, a big star like Yayoi Tsuki also has the same despair as me, trying her best but being powerless?"

Inside the room, the crackling charcoal fire created a suffocating atmosphere.

But the girl just stared blankly at the screen, watching Yayoi Tsukishima, who was trying hard to hold back her tears and had tears in her eyes during the interlude.

Under the shock of seeing her idol openly reveal his weakness and despair, a faint but pure power began to take root and sprout deep in her heart.

"I once thought about ending it all, because the laces of my shoes were loose and I was not good at tying them again. The same is true for the bonds between people."

"I once thought about ending it all, because the boy from the past is always staring at me. I should kneel down on the bed and apologize for what I did that day."

After calming down a little, Yayoi Tsuki sang at the top of her lungs with tears on her indifferent face.

"The dim light from the computer screen, the noise from the room above, the ringing of the phone, and the boy covering his ears like a bird in a cage."

"Fighting against invisible enemies, he is Don Quixote in a small room, although the final outcome is destined to be ugly."

Curling up her frail body, the power in her voice suddenly doubled... The high-pitched, loud, angry and unwilling long note seemed to completely pierce through the surrounding darkness!

"I heard Miss Yayoi's singing, each part was stronger and more powerful..."

"Even though she was in despair and faced countless failures, she did not compromise... She did not admit defeat... She was still fighting..."

"She didn't give up... In such darkness... Even if there was no hope until the end... As long as she was still alive, she would keep moving forward..."

The girl in front of the screen had tears on her face without her noticing.

All of Yayoi Tsuki's emotions, moods and spirits were conveyed 100% to her in front of the screen through her magical voice and this gentle and powerful song, injecting her with the power to overcome despair.

"Bang bang bang bang..."

"Hua Cauliflower, there's a boy who claims to be your classmate and is here to visit you..."

"Hua Cauliflower? Why is there heat and smoke in the room? What are you doing? Why did you lock the door? Open the door!"

"Uncle, aunt, move aside, I'm here to knock on the door!"

At the same time, there were calls from parents and a familiar male voice outside the door.

The image of a thin boy in a white school uniform flashed through the girl's mind.

Even in a hellish school where everyone is trampling on you, openly or secretly...

At least there is someone who will come forward to protect her.

Even if he was beaten up for protecting her, he would never forget to smile warmly.

The girl wanted to move, but found that her body had been suffocated by the carbon monoxide and had lost its strength.

“Perhaps, what the manual teaches, that there are no more worries when you die, is wrong?”

The "seed" planted by Yayoi Tsuki's singing in her heart, once noticed, will grow into a towering tree that cannot be ignored.

"Do not……"

The girl tried her best, squeezing out the last bit of strength in her body, and crawled towards the door step by step in the dark room...

In the corner, the "Complete Suicide Manual" in the schoolbag seemed to be burned by an unknown fire, fading and carbonizing rapidly, and dissipating into wisps of foul air.

"Kacha."

The girl's scarred and thin hand weakly placed on the door handle and gently turned it with her last bit of strength.

"Hanagi-san!!!"

A ray of hope seeped through the door, and a boy also covered in scars rushed in and picked her up.

"How could this child do such a stupid thing!"

"It's all mom and dad's fault. If they had noticed it earlier...what would we do if something happened to you!"

The girl, whose consciousness was blurred, smiled weakly in the warm embrace.

"Ms. Yayoi, I am just like you. I have not given up..."

"From now on, I will never admit defeat."

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(End of this chapter)