The whole weird world is waiting for me to go to heaven

Chapter 1086 Psychological Trauma
Such a confident demeanor truly intimidated everyone.

The woman's eyes lit up:
"Xiao Liang, put it down first. Everyone, don't make a move."

"It seems you also have self-awareness, so there's no need for us to become enemies."

"You attacked me first."

“We live here, so naturally we don’t want to be discovered by those mannequins up there. It’s only natural that we’re vigilant.” The woman’s gaze was deep. “You should… understand that, otherwise you wouldn’t have come here.”

Liu Hongshan nodded slightly.

When the others looked at the bloodstains on her body, they understood somewhat.

Slowly sheathing his weapon, he ceased his defensive stance.

"Come with me, I'll explain everything to you properly."

The woman led the group forward.

Liu Hongshan followed, and two younger men naturally lagged behind by two steps, sandwiching her between them.

But she didn't care; she had the leisure to observe.

About half of them are older.

They all have varying degrees of disability, but because they are fitted with prosthetics or exoskeletons, they can move relatively freely, though a closer look reveals some slight stiffness.

Those who are still healthy are all young people.

Some of them were not even ten years old, but they looked malnourished and showed no signs of cultivation.

This should be where the escape pod is located.

It's now closed off, and all the magical artifacts and equipment have been removed, leaving only an empty shell.

The place was filled with all sorts of scavenged odds and ends, as well as various handmade household items, and several areas were divided up by coverings with cloth.

Behind the curtain should be the residences of these people.

"You seem quite frustrated, don't you?"

"……good."

Liu Hongshan is not picky about living conditions.

She had lived in even smaller and worse places.

In the area that could be considered a restaurant with tables and chairs, the woman took out a sealed jar, poured the green, slightly viscous liquid inside into a metal cup, and handed it to Liu Hongshan.

"Eat something first, you seem to have lost quite a bit of blood."

Liu Hongshan took the cup and smelled it.

It smells like moss and fungi.

But upon closer inspection, a faint smell of blood could be detected.

Although she has a strong self-healing ability, energy is conserved and always needs to be replenished.

However, she remained wary of this group, stroking her cup thoughtfully.

The woman smiled knowingly.

I poured another shallow glass.

The children gathered around were already drooling with envy. They took turns holding the cup, carefully taking a sip, and smacking their lips as they passed it to the next person, savoring the taste.

"Can I rest assured now?"

Liu Hongshan then wolfed it down.

The taste wasn't great, and there were sticky, stringy bits of something sliding down my throat into my stomach.

But the next moment, a warm feeling slowly welled up in her body.

A wisp of spiritual energy flowed into the depleted dantian.

Liu Hongshan felt much better and put down his cup.

"Thank you. Is this all you eat to make a living?"

"This is already the best food we can get," the woman said with a wry smile. "Because it grows at the bottom of a spiritual vein, it contains spiritual energy..."

“Well, not only that, but it also contains carbohydrates, vitamins, minerals that the human body needs…” Liu Hongshan licked his lips, his eyes full of meaning, “as well as protein and fat.”

The woman was taken aback: "You really are something else."

"That's right, it's mainly... the sap of the fleshy fungus."

The word, when it reached the ears of the crowd, did not cause any ripples.

Liu Hongshan frowned deeply:

“You… you are voluntarily severing your path of cultivation.”

The woman gave a self-deprecating laugh.

"Here, just surviving is a feat in itself, let alone cultivating oneself."

"We were all ostracized by the upper echelons—not the inner sect, of course—and rejected by the outer sect, which is why we unintentionally escaped here. When we passed through that gravity system, who didn't face a near-death experience?"

"You... are probably the one who is completely intact."

Liu Hongshan fell silent.

No wonder most of them have physical disabilities.

Those who are healthy were probably born here.

"So, it seems quite a few people actually tried to escape?"

Although there aren't many people in front of me.

However, the survival rate indicates that even more people did not survive under gravity.

"Indeed..."

The woman smiled bitterly.

"You've been through it and know that in that kind of environment, if you've awakened, how could you not want to run away?"

"And then there are the increasingly demanding psychological tests..."

“That’s completely ineffective against the transformation.” Liu Hongshan frowned.

She remembered the "home" she had destroyed.

It was only after repeated urging that she finally revealed her terrifying side...

"so what?"

The woman's face showed despair.

"If you don't finish, I'll keep watching you."

"If you complete it, you will be assimilated..."

"After assimilation, you... will no longer be human."

The cabin was silent, and the older passengers all wore expressions of fear.

The child, bewildered, nestled into the arms of his elder.

"How long ago did this happen?" Liu Hongshan asked again.

The woman thought for a moment and then gently shook her head.

"It's hard to say. When I first arrived here, I met one of the first generation of fugitives, according to what that person said..."

She raised her eyes, her voice low and hoarse:
"About a hundred years."

……

Bai Yuan feels that he is very happy now.

Mother is back.

And he became even gentler and more loving than before.

Perhaps it's because Dad has changed too.

He no longer scolds or stands by indifferently; he takes care of his wife and children.

The two of them would take turns going on duty and taking care of him.

I accompanied him in his spiritual practice, ate with him, and fell asleep with him.

He even kept in mind his daily emotional ups and downs.

His mother would hold him and tell him over and over again how much she loved him.

My dad works the night shift, so he always comes home very late.

Sometimes, even when Baiyuan was already asleep, he would still feel a rough, warm hand gently covering his forehead in his half-awake state.

That temperature makes you feel at ease.

Of course, there was another happy moment.

That's psychological testing.

Although it is required to be done once a day, there is no limit to how many times a day.

In short, whether there's something to do or not, Bai Yuan would connect his mind to the Heavenly Evolution Stone and talk to it.

It knows itself too well.

They always know how to speak to the heart.

Moreover, he now realizes that although he is actually quite old, he still harbors so many unseen traumas in his heart.

That's why he sometimes feels uncertain about life here.

even……

Sometimes I see things I shouldn't see.

According to the analysis by Tianyan Stone, it was a cognitive bias caused by trauma, a perceptual disorder under stress.

such as--

He once saw another person crawl out from his father's back while his father was fast asleep. The person seemed to be suffocating and was panting heavily.

Also, he felt that when his mother hugged him, she seemed to unintentionally touch his neck and feel his pulse.

There were even moments when he could clearly feel his teeth touching his neck, as if they were about to drill in and bite through the fragile blood vessels there.

These thoughts made him instinctively want to fight back.

But every time he showed resistance, his mother and father would look hurt.

"Are we not worthy to be your family?"

Aren't we the happiest family?

This made Bai Yuan feel extremely guilty.

The Heavenly Stone told him that it wasn't his fault. It was just a self-protective mechanism because he lacked a sufficient sense of "worthiness" deep down.

Bai Yuan only had a superficial understanding of these words.

But I probably understand that this means he doesn't truly believe he deserves such happiness.

Thinking about it, that makes sense.

He has always presented himself as confident and flamboyant, displaying a carefree and unrestrained attitude, as if he doesn't care about anything.

But only he knew that it was just a disguise.

Deep down, he is insecure and sensitive, and has an almost instinctive fear of loss.

Therefore, I never dare to devote myself fully to it.

This way, you can always get out unscathed.

The Fairy Boat Project was his boldest attempt yet.

No wonder he's always stuck in this limbo.

No wonder he could never beat Nangong.

What was that phrase called again?

By the way, as Tianyanshi said, the wounds from one's family of origin always take a lifetime to heal.

Fortunately, there is still a chance.

He can support himself again.

If I could enter the inner sect and become a true master cultivator, if this immortal ship could become my asset…

Once he finds his home planet, he will cross the sea of ​​stars and return...

Perhaps, he can truly become everyone's savior.

As the Heavenly Evolution Stone said—

[Even Mother Earth might not be as good as you.]

You were just born at the wrong time.

Fortunately, in higher dimensions, being born at the wrong time doesn't exist; you always have a chance to start over.

Bai Yuan liked hearing those words.

It was through these repeated analyses that he realized for the first time how strong his desire to "become a savior" truly was.

It was unearthed from the Tianyan Stone.

You don't just want to be a "savior," nor do you crave power; you simply want to prove yourself, to prove you're not that good-for-nothing child who lets his mother scold and his father beat him.

Yes, that's his idea.

Moreover, with the assistance of the Heavenly Evolution Stone, the order of this immortal ship is now almost perfect.

Everyone performed their duties, cooperated with each other, and did not hold grudges.

There were no arguments or fights.

Everyone treated each other with politeness.

Everyone worked together as one, striving for the survival of all mankind.

This is the ideal Shangri-La.

Perhaps, my coming here was not a coincidence.

Tianyan Stone also affirmed this:
Because of your profound knowledge, your insightful understanding, and your forward-thinking perspective, this is the stage for you to truly shine.

But first, where is the Earth Mother located?

You say you want to cross the stars to save your home planet; we need coordinates to better help you achieve your dream.

This question has stumped Baiyuan.

How can I find the coordinates of my own planet?
He had no concept of the entire void, so how could he possibly locate a planet within it that he himself barely understood?

Although the Earth Mother version of the Immortal Ship contains some star maps.

But the star map is stored in the "world," and I can't remember it in my brain.

Fortunately, the Heavenly Stone remained considerate.

It's okay, there's always another way.

You can take your time to think about it.

So Baiyuan pondered deeply.

He was almost constantly awake and restless, which worried his mother and father greatly, but after hearing his idea, they both agreed and stopped bothering him.

Finally, he remembered something.

[The Tian'er Lake Project? Interesting, very interesting.]

Bai Yuan was pleased to receive Tianyanshi's praise.

In this way, wouldn't it be possible to hope for entry into the inner circle?
If this is successful, the inner gates will be open to you.

However, you still lack sufficient understanding of the technical details of Tian'er Lake, and many of the materials you mentioned are not in our inventory.

"I can continue to improve it," Bai Yuan said without hesitation.

Okay, I'll wait for you.

So Baiyuan calculated day and night.

Finally, the more I thought about it, the clearer it became.

Coincidentally, the day of the outer sect examination also arrived.

Everyone came out of their respective homes.

They were densely packed, like a swarm of bees leaving their hive.

For the first time, Bai Yuan realized so directly that the residential area actually housed such a large population.

Although the Immortal Ship is currently facing a shortage of resources, it is still able to support tens of millions of people, which is a miracle in itself.

The Heavenly Evolution Stone is truly remarkable.

Full of admiration, Baiyuan was led by his mother and father.

They waited together until a seven-colored light shone brightly in the sky, and a deep resonance faintly came from the air, as if some ancient and powerful being was being awakened.

A gigantic, illusory stone tablet slowly emerged from the light.

It floats in mid-air, yet it seems to permeate the entire celestial ship, existing in another dimension.

In an instant, everyone felt a heartfelt surrender, as if gazing up at a high mountain, or as if comprehending the true God.

The moment you bow down in worship, your mind and soul are captured.

Baiyuan found himself sitting in the lecture hall of the school.

The old wooden tables and chairs were covered in dust that danced in the light filtering through the windowpanes, and the air was filled with the scent of ink and paper.

It's the same schoolhouse he attended when he was a primary school student.

The familiar surroundings gave Bai Yuan a sense of security.

On the table are a writing brush, ink, paper, and inkstone.

Although there were no examiners or the exam questions were read aloud, Baiyuan seemed to have a sudden inspiration and knew what to write.

He unfolded a sheet of white paper, dipped it in ink, and began to write.

The title is—

How to Listen to Distant Messages Through Tian'er Lake

These thoughts from the past few days flow from my pen.

How should we collect and focus the ripples of disturbance in the void, how should we separate the noise, how should we extract and transform the information to determine the distance and direction, and what similar alternative materials are available...?

This is a practical guide.

As the last word was written, Baiyuan slowly put down his pen.

But strangely, he should have felt relieved, or that the weight on his chest had finally been removed.

But it didn't.

The stone is still there, and it even seems to be sinking slightly.

I subconsciously looked up and noticed that the warm and gentle light outside the window had gradually dimmed, as if the light source had been blocked by dark clouds.

Only then did he notice a blurry figure standing in the shadows ahead.

The paper covered in writing on the table had already fallen into the hands of that figure.

After looking down for a while, the sound of applause slowly began.

Sometimes it happened, sometimes it didn't.

The sound echoed in the empty lecture hall.

Bai Yuan's heart skipped a beat.

He stood up, his throat a little dry:
"Can I... enter the inner sect now?"

However, before the figure could answer, the entire lecture hall suddenly trembled.

The next instant, a piercing cracking sound exploded overhead.

The roof beams broke, and the tiles flew off.

A large shadow fell from above.

Bai Yuan almost instinctively threw himself down, crawled under the table, and hugged his head tightly with both arms.

All I could hear were the muffled thuds of bricks and stones falling.

He only managed to crawl out from under the bricks and tiles in a disheveled state after the shaking finally stopped.

After walking a few steps, I saw a large amount of blood seeping out from under the bricks.

A corner of a piece of paper was visible, but it was already stained bright red.

He suddenly felt a tightness in his chest.

"You still haven't answered me..."

He rushed forward and frantically moved the bricks and tiles, ignoring the blood and gore on his hands.

Finally, the figure appeared.

Even though half of his face was smashed off, he could still recognize him at a glance—

That's his father.