I'll also work hard to conquer the dungeon today.

Chapter 434, 1.27-15: A Bouquet of Blessings

"This child is so strange, she never smiles, is she really human?"

"Hmm? A child Nalan Xu picked up? An orphan? I have a really bad feeling about him."

"How scary... Is it a doll? Why is it moving?! Dolls shouldn't have self-awareness, right?"

"Monster! Don't come any closer!"

"This is human society, can you please get out?!"

"No, Mu Yegui, how can you hurt humans? If you do that, you'll be expelled. After all, no matter how smart Nalan Xu is, he's only a physique of F, and there's nothing he can do to stop him."

Do you know why Nalan Xu took you in? She just wanted to use you.

"Such dangerous creatures should not exist!"

"Get out of our homes!"

Mu Yegui sat on the smooth ground, surrounded by complete darkness, the sounds she had heard when Nalan Xu brought her back to the empire echoing in her ears.

That feeling of disgust and rejection.

Initially, she understood and could sense it, but as she continued to be injected with sedatives to suppress her racial instincts, this feeling gradually disappeared.

Those humans didn't know she was Samuro; they just instinctively felt she was dangerous and rejected her. But fear and dread induced them to say things they disliked, for two reasons: first, to keep her away, and second, to vent their own fear.

Later, Mu Yin grew tired of it. On that occasion, Nalan Xu was kidnapped and threatened. She couldn't control her emotions and let Mu Yin escape, which led to that terrible massacre.

It was Mu Yin who made the move, but she was not innocent, because she was the one who commanded Mu Yin.

After this incident, Nalanxu increased the dosage of the tranquilizer and told her that she could not do such a thing in human society, and that she should be more gentle and learn to behave like a human.

The subsequent tranquilizer suddenly disrupted a certain balance, seemingly suppressing all her emotions.

She began trying to imitate human postures, but she could no longer make large facial expressions.

The sedative injection suppressed her racial instincts, but it also deprived her of the opportunity to experience emotions, so she felt no regret. She simply felt that this way she wouldn't be rejected and could live with Nalan Xu.

Indeed, they lived together.

Even though she interacted with fewer and fewer people, and even though she became increasingly quiet and preferred to spend time alone in empty rooms playing by herself, she attributed it to her racial instincts. As solitary creatures of Samuro, it was perfectly normal for them to enjoy solitude.

But in reality, she felt that it was just a subconscious desire to avoid having her identity discovered, and she didn't want to encounter that initial scene again.

This less-than-pleasant memory was hidden away in a corner of her mind until now, when it has resurfaced and is what she herself calls a hateful memory.

In terms of psychology, Mu Yegui has always been just a clueless child, a blank sheet of paper that has been gradually painted with various colors.

However, no matter how much time has passed, the unpleasant feeling will always resurface whenever you recall it.

Even if a sedative is injected, the effect will eventually wear off if the injections are stopped.

“Xu…” Mu Yegui slightly raised his eyes and looked at the pitch blackness above, where there was not even starlight.

The white ground was gradually revealed by darkness, eventually merging into the pitch black.

His cool, silver eyes were fixed on the darkness, a barely perceptible ripple flickering in their depths, like a pebble dropped into a calm lake, creating ripples before gradually returning to stillness, or perhaps...

Dead silence.

She gently placed her hands on her chest, where her human heart beats, but she couldn't feel anything.

Because she is not human, and she doesn't have a heart.

How do other living beings perceive their own existence?

From the moment she opened her eyes, she saw Nalan Xu, a human, and was then brought into human society, where she diligently learned how to live. So, what was the real Samuro like?

She knew nothing...

Where is her home?

Is that really her home?
If Nalan Xu hadn't taken her back, where would she be now?

"Xiao Yin, where should we be?" Mu Yegui asked in a low voice.

But he received no response, as if he had disappeared.

Mu Yegui slowly stood up, looking back at the darkness around him, unable to discern any direction.

She took a step forward, and the next second the darkness was covered by other colors.

As if in a hallucination, she stood on the lush green grass, looking at the man leaning against a tree not far away, drinking with a drunken expression.

"What do you consider to be real?" The man slowly raised his head, staring intently at her with his long, narrow, gilded vertical pupils.

"Why isn't this place real? The outside world is a false dream, a nightmare at that. You want to wake up soon, don't you?" He casually tossed the empty wine glass on the ground and walked step by step toward Mu Yegui.

Dionysus extended a hand toward Muyegui, his low, husky voice carrying a subtle, almost imperceptible seduction, as if a demon were tempting an angel to fall.

"You've been out for too long; it's time to go home."

Mu Yegui looked down at the hand and suddenly took a step back.

"I see. Would you like to play a little longer?" Dionysus chuckled, his tone carrying a hint of ambiguous danger.

Those long, narrow, golden phoenix eyes quietly watched Mu Yegui's figure, but what was reflected in those eyes was a laurel wreath that must have been entangled in thorns.

“You will return,” Dionysus said, and turned and left without hesitation.

The image disappeared, and the surroundings returned to complete darkness, with nothing but her.

Her mind was blank; she couldn't even remember anything.

Who is she?
Where is she?
Why is she here?

What is this place?
What should she do?
Suddenly, a faint calling sound came from my ear, as if someone was calling for someone.

Is he calling for her?

who's that person?
Should she leave?
Mu Yegui lowered his head and listened quietly to the voice.

She didn't want to leave; it must be terrifying outside. She wanted to stay here, and if she could, she wanted to stay here forever. Even without light, without any objects, and without anyone, she would still be happy.

Is it really?

She seems to have someone she cares about, someone she wants to keep an eye on.

Her family.

"really……"

Growing up in human society, one becomes tainted by the complexities of human nature and is gradually assimilated.

She'll want to help others, get angry because others are not living up to their potential, criticize others, and so on...

Having someone you care about.

Typing is so painful when I'm stuck on a script.

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(End of this chapter)