The magician in the city

Chapter 359 The Shadow of the Abyss

Chapter 350 Seven

They chatted for a while, and as the night gradually deepened, Du Zhengyi set up several guards around them, and at first he was still distracted and prepared.But the night was quieter than he had imagined, and it wasn't completely quiet.He was lying on a thick cushion, and he could hear the sound of walking in the corridor. Without light, the laboratory was completely shut down, and the mages were all idle for a while.

Some mages may leave their chambers to enjoy the night in the four gardens of the highland mages, where they can enjoy firelight and revelry instead.There are also some mages who may be doing something in the room, his ears are more sensitive than his common people, he heard some rooms nearby are particularly noisy, and some rooms are noisy, maybe some of his fellow students are making special love communicate.

He doesn't care about other people's affairs, nor does he particularly care.When the moon shone in, Roach curled up beside him and fell asleep, and he was the only one who was still awake, and the voices of others seemed clearer and louder in his ears.He was no stranger to this feeling, he had a vague feeling that he had been in this situation most of his life.

He is out of tune with most people, even if he is a teacher, he has no sense of belonging.He has been attending classes since he was very young, and his homework is much heavier than others, of course he is not complaining, he himself has a strong thirst for knowledge, what he is most satisfied with Pei Shu is that he can arrange a reasonable enough time for him The course didn't make him feel too boring.He never cared that he didn't have time to play, but sometimes he stood far away from the window and watched his peers play strange stupid games.

Later, he liked his own game very much, and the career of a battle mage was his game.It is more exciting than Roach's game, with more parameters that can be mutated, and the game is more uncontrollable. Which capable boy would not like it?But when he won the game and came back, he couldn't find other players of the same age, no one would discuss the game strategy with him, and no one would share the victory with him.His peers were suffering from acne, and their eyes lingered on the opposite sex. Every time he came back, he would feel a slight change in the atmosphere between them, and he knew that some stories had happened between them.He watched these stories from afar, so he could only rely on guesswork.There was a faint distance between them, and he seemed to be in the clouds.

When he walked into the door of someone else's house, he saw a strange picture of life unfolding in front of him. Parents shed sad tears for their children. Hatred and heartbreak intertwined at the same time. He tasted the complicated family relationship with barriers. The most perverted children sometimes panic and reach out to their parents for help from afar.He was more qualified for the job than anyone else, and cut the link between them with more iron blood.Because he knew little about this kind of family love, and lost it too early, he would not be so panicked, and he would not suffer too much empathy.

But, in fact, sometimes, like when he glimpsed the toys his father made for the child scattered on the floor, when he saw the mother making the scarf for the child in a clumsy way by hand, he would also be curious, curious like a crazy vine meanders in his mind.He will not tear the vines, they will wither if left alone.Or, they are quietly entangled in a corner of his heart.

It's not that he hasn't tried to experience this in the past. When he knew that he didn't have much time left, he used to panic about it.He left Pei Shu and hurriedly added content to his life.Pei Shu didn't stop him, he understood that he wanted to fill the void in his life, and he respected all his choices.For him, he suddenly discovered that this world was not his world.There is a buffer zone, an ever-expanding gap, between the world he has fought for and paid for, and him.He made great efforts and tried seriously. Maybe he got some specious things from the world, but it was like eating wild fruit, with only a bitter and light taste.He was very skeptical, absolutely skeptical, and suspected that the people he observed were not eating this kind of thing.Otherwise, how could they show such a sweet look, the eyes and the smile in the corner of the mouth exude a kind of dementia.

He wondered what exactly he wanted.He wants an unbreakable bond, like it's hard for family members to abandon each other.Just like even if he ran around and didn't see him for a long time, the other end of the contract would not let him go.Like after he died, many years passed, and that person would think of him too.All in all, when he saw that the time of his death was approaching, he suddenly wanted a little bondage, as if he was afraid that his body and spirit would be disintegrated and he would lose all his existence.

He suddenly reached out and squeezed Roach's cheek.

Roach let out a playful grunt, and before waking up, rolled over and buried his face in the pile of cushions.

Cunning, good-natured, as in sobriety.

Du Zhengyi felt a kind of satisfaction, as if he had finally accumulated some property and gained some status in this world.

The walls are full of sane people, bored mages enjoying the night and highland mages taking care of their troubles, and if something happens they won't be alone here.So there was nothing to worry about. Du Zheng turned on his side, pillowed on his arm, and finally fell asleep.

The dream came faster than before, a long-lost dream.

Du Zhengyi walked into the deep corridor under the lonely mountain again and again. The ground paved with blue-gray stones was as smooth as a mirror, and the blue moonlight fell unreasonably in the corridor.This is against common sense, there will be no moonlight underground, so he vaguely knows that this is a dream.He knew that the shadow was waiting for him in front of him. Until not long ago, he had had this dream countless times, and each time it was a simple repetition of the scene a few years ago.

It was a nightmare, but he was tired of it.

Knowing that it was a dream, he no longer had the tension and anxiety of that day. On that day, he knew that he had to stop everything from happening. That was his innate mission. Someone who defends the rules.Roach didn't know this, and maybe Roach couldn't understand even if he knew the truth.The answer to a question may be open, and everyone can have his own answer, but he is one of them, and he has a natural position, which belongs to him.He can understand Roach's incomprehension and non-acceptance, and he also understands his own choice better.

The long corridor came to an end, this time they didn't fight, he just watched the black figure quietly, that part of his memory was incomplete.

The black shadow looked back at him like an abyss, and they stared at each other quietly.When this day actually happened, he was full of anger, because this person actually coveted the secret in the lonely mountain. As an individual, what right did he have to covet this huge secret for his own selfish desire.But now he is very calm, his age is a few years older, living in the gray area between life and death, many questions that cannot be understood have answers, or at least can be understood.

He calmly looked into the abyss, he knew that pain could happen at any time, since that day, the pain acting on the nerves would happen from time to time when his will was weakest, for example after he fell asleep.He often wakes up in pain, soaking the bedding in cold sweat in the middle of the night, and he can only enjoy fragments of sleep, so he never gets enough sleep.

"You haven't surrendered yet." Black Shadow asked him, his voice was like rumbling thunder.

Du Zhengyi thought about it, and Black Shadow didn't ask him this question that day, they just stood in the scene of that day, but they were not repeating the vague memory of that day.This shadow may just be a simulated projection of trauma in his mental world.However, to be able to make such a logical reasoning in the dream, he must be subtly influenced by Roach.

"If you give up, you will be able to sleep peacefully." The shadow was persuading him.Perhaps it was he himself who was persuading him.But no, he can't, not yet.Now his reasons are stronger than before. Now Roach has not fully grown up, he has not grown up enough to protect himself, he still relies on him, he even relies on him in the spiritual world.He can't walk away at this time, as long as he can hold on, he has to hold on for a while.

"That's not interesting." Sombra said.But this sentence is very weak, Du Zhengyi doesn't doubt the meaning at all, this matter means a lot to him.

Suddenly, at this moment, a panicked voice shouted, "Brother."

He was startled, there was a fork in the corridor, and a figure ran out from the forked corridor somehow, with a familiar figure.

"Roach!" he shouted in surprise and anger, for a moment he couldn't distinguish between reality and dream, and also couldn't tell whether it was dream or the spiritual world.He was terrified that Roach, a cunning boy, could get in all the places he shouldn't be, didn't know how vulnerable he was, didn't know he didn't deserve it.

"Brother." Roach called to him.

"Come here quickly." Du Zhengyi said, fearing that he would be swallowed up by the shadow, "No matter where this is, you shouldn't come."

Roach stood still, but called him repeatedly, and he ran to Roach, startled and furious, trying to drag him away.But when he ran to Roach's side, Roach's figure disappeared.He watched in confusion as Roach appeared in another direction, standing against the wall, looking younger than his actual age, and stretched out his hand helplessly, "Brother."

Brother, brother, brother, he was extremely disturbed and terrified when he yelled.His composure, his demeanor, all disappeared, and he nervously tried to get close to Roach's shadow time and time again in the corridor.Finally he turned to the shadow, "Is this the new game to torture me?"

He stopped chasing, and Roach reappeared not far from him, his face was full of disappointment and frustration, and he was about to cry.

He turned his head and hardened his heart not to look at his disappointment, "Just like before, no matter what new things you create, I can overcome them."

Abyss looked back at him, "But don't you feel tired? The longer you live and the richer your life, the more material you will provide me. Your soul has been in endless hell, the more you live If you are like a person, you will fall deeper into hell. You can’t keep your spirits tight all the time. Every time you are negligent, I will drag you into the hot pot of hell. There are too many materials available for you Yes, you have seen too many hells on earth, you have seen too many twisted human natures, everything has just begun, and I have not shown you more possibilities."

"No." Du Zhengyi said, he couldn't help but glance at Roach, "Impossible."

"Hell is everywhere in the world, why is it impossible? Why can't he get his turn? Besides, he is a deer in the forest, the focus of pursuit, how long can you hide him?"

"No." Du Zhengyi said, he realized that he had indeed become weak, because he heard himself say, "I don't want to watch."

He didn't want to see the screams piercing through his eardrums, and the scene became more and more real. He tried to imagine all the impossibilities, and these impossibilities also played a role.But the abyss dominates all of this, it distorts all the impossibilities he imagined, reverses all his thoughts, and all the possible escape methods he imagined for Roach are actually cancelled.He watched Roach's future over and over again in extremely reasonable and real scenarios, and countless situations that Roach could not solve or escape at all appeared.One by one his friends fell, and Roach was always the saddest and the loudest to whom he was called for help.

Even though he kept telling himself that it wasn't real, the real feeling was always with him.

"Brother. Du Zhengyi." Someone was calling him, and he vaguely knew it, but the severe pain blurred his senses, and he didn't wake up.

Roach got up from the pile of cushions on the ground, watched Du Zhengyi sleepily for a while, and then called again, "Brother, wake up. What's wrong with you?" He stretched out his hand and pushed Du Zhengyi, but Du Zhengyi Masaichi didn't respond.Roach felt sweat on his body, he thought carefully for a while, and reached out to touch Du Zhengyi's temple.

Du Zhengyi's dream changed again, and he returned to his home, the home before he was eight years old.He was physically and mentally exhausted, and he no longer had the joy of running into the house when he was a child, even though he knew he could see his mother.But he also knew that he was destined to see his dying mother.

He sat down in the yard of his home, silently calming down his emotions from the last nightmare.

A figure turned out from behind the rockery in the yard, still familiar, hiding half of his body timidly behind the stone. "Brother," he called, "will you help me?"

He would, of course he would.But he raised his eyes and looked at Roach mockingly, "How can I help you?"

Roach seems to be a dementia, and that's normal. In the last dream, Roach was castrated into a dementia. He repeated, "Can you help me?"

Du Zhengyi lowered his head, looked at the familiar bricks and stones under his feet, "Let me wake up."

The sky spun suddenly, and Du Zhengyi changed from bowing his head down to facing up. He looked at the ceiling above his head and gasped violently, his heart beating like a drum.He turned his gaze, Roach was next to him, fingers seemed to have just been removed from his face. "What’s wrong with you?"

He coughed to get his throat back to normal, as if he had just run a sprint in the desert, and his throat had been breathing dry air violently. "It's okay, I had a nightmare."

Roach stared at him closely, as if he didn't quite believe what he said, but also as if he was guarding against his sudden illness.

He looked out the window anxiously, "It's already dawn?"

"It's just light." Roach said.

So that's when he's most likely to get a good night's sleep, but today he's not delusional about getting a good night's sleep, and he's still a little afraid of falling asleep.Besides, he heard some strange voices in the corridor, "Who is outside?"

Roach shook his head, "I just woke up too."

"Let's go out and have a look." Du Zhengyi said.

(End of this chapter)